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Today is the anniversary of my wedding day 2 Replies

I got married on May 1, 1992 and lost my husband on June 30, 2017. My wedding day was the happiest day of my life and if I had one wish, it would be to go back and live that day over. It has been…Continue

Started by Carol Klotz. Last reply by Carol Klotz May 3.

Lost my light in the darkness 2 Replies

I lost my wife on the 25 of March after returning from my Dads funeral. She is everything to me. No matter how bad it got, no matter how much my PTSD drug me down, She has been my light in the…Continue

Started by Shane Hughes. Last reply by Shane Hughes Apr 16.

Lost my husband the father of my kids and bestfriend . 5 Replies

  I lost my husband we were high school sweethearts we had plans and it was not suppose to be this way we had two kids together and I feel so lost and the pain i feel becuase of how much I miss him…Continue

Started by Nicole. Last reply by Wendy Apr 7.

My Love 1 Reply

On November 6 of this year, I lost my husband in a tragic automobile accident. We live in Georgia and the accident was in Montana making it more difficult. I am completely lost as we were best…Continue

Started by Kathy West. Last reply by Anna Chris Apr 7.

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Comment by Sandy Elaine Norris on April 1, 2015 at 9:19pm

Tildyc-Sometimes there are no answers. And sometimes when I pray, the answer is no. My belief and faith in God doesn't keep me from hurting. I am struggling with the loss of my Mark every single day. The only thing that keeps me going is knowing in my heart that I will see him again. In just a little while,2:03 in the morning, the love of my life will have been gone for 12 weeks. I miss him so much it hurts to breath sometimes.

Comment by Tildyc on April 1, 2015 at 8:48pm
Sandy Elaine Norris- I wish I had that security in my faith. Like I said for my mom it's been her rock. But me being who I am all my life – I'm always asking questions. And when I feel like I really need answers to something- I can be relentless in the pursuit of finding the answers. Sometimes to a fault. But I'm so happy that somebody is finding peace in this turmoil in which we are trying to survive. And I do believe in God I think, do you talk to him. But I also know there are so many different explanations out there. It's very confusing. And I am relentlessly searching for answers to my pain and to find out where my lost soulmate went.
Comment by Tildyc on April 1, 2015 at 7:57pm
Dianne- The crying and yelling his name is something I do. Where I walk the dogs is remote and isolated. So when I get to my the viewpoint- I cry and yell his name at the mountains and the sea. I ask him where has he gone and why won't he come home? I tell him I don't want to live in the future without him. I ask him why he doesn't come and get me? But the ocean and the mountains do not give me any answers. And neither does Mark. My heart and soul are broken and I just don't see Any light at the end of this tunnel.
Comment by Sandy Elaine Norris on April 1, 2015 at 7:15pm

I guess I'm much different. Since losing Mark, my faith has become stronger. I have always believed in God. I was raised in a Pentecostal Holiness church. God has always been very real to me. Without him, I would have no hope of ever seeing Mark, my mama, or all of my other loved ones that have passed. My heart is broken right now but without that hope, there is no way I could go on.

Comment by Dianne M. on April 1, 2015 at 6:50pm

I went to a meeting at my dads nursing home tonight and my husband should have been there with me. I cried and screamed all the way home. I am trying to be there for my dad but my heart is so broken I can barely function at times.

And I am mad at God too...my husband was a good and kind man who would do anything for anyone and for him to die so suddenly and with no warning or me even being able to say goodbye will haunt me forever. I dont know how \ why God let this happen or why he didn't save one of the good guys and let the trash in the world walk around with no purpose or love of anyone....I am just so mad/sad tonight.

Comment by George H on April 1, 2015 at 6:33pm
we were also giving Mary morphine through a PICC line she was fairly sedated when she passed and I do understand the loneliness and the emptiness just feel that all the time
Comment by Donna M Dowling-Hall on April 1, 2015 at 6:30pm

For me, saying goodbye didn't really help.  My husband was being kept "comfortable" on a morphine drip.  He was heavily sedated.  I told him not to linger for me, that I was a survivor and I would survive his passing. I told him that I loved him and always will.  I don't know if he heard me.  This was early on Thursday.  He was gone at 10:55 pm.  I am still broken and empty and so very lonely.

Comment by George H on April 1, 2015 at 6:30pm
Donna I list my faith also how could an all loving God let this happen mary was a good woman never was bad to anyone me I could be an ass at time I'm sure not getting it but she was the one who bebeleved
Comment by Donna M Dowling-Hall on April 1, 2015 at 6:21pm

I have lost my faith.  I am still angry with God and blame him. 

 

Comment by George H on April 1, 2015 at 4:45pm
Mary was a true believer she told her daughter that she was right with Christ and she could go anytime myself I'm still searching for answers but I hope then when she closed her eyes for the last time that it was all she expected
 

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