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I'm just realizing how badly my sister's death has affected me. I feel like I'm spiraling out of control and I can't stop myself.

I thought I was being really strong and doing a great job of holding myself together but I couldn't have been more wrong. There has been a perfect storm brewing inside me since I got that phone call and I'm only now seeing it.

I started smoking again (I had quit last April cold turkey and was doing so well), my drinking has increased a lot, I'm…

I dont know how I am going to make it through it.........she was supposed to be there.............all I am doing is crying and wanting her back & missing her so much...........this is just wrong, she wasnt supposed to go before us or her parents........I dont know how I am going on everyday, other than the crying for the last 6 weeks, and looking forward to sleep..... :(

Up all night,now making phone calls way too early.  I live on the west coast of Canada, a sister in Alberta, one in Ontario, one in New Brunswick.  All different time zones so by the time we got the news here it was too late to call any of them last night.  Morning comes 4 hours earlier in New Brunswick than here so I started there and moved westward telling each one after the other that our brother is dying.  2 days maybe more if the antibiotics stop his kidneys shutting down temporarily. …

My wife died last year in May she got so bad in the hospital and would have lived a miserable life after what the hospital did to her that I had the breathing tube removed .For a whole year I was numb to the fact she passed away. In the past few months memories of her dying in the hospital come flooding back,with an increase in weight from eating the wrong food. I find I loved her a lot, but during the marriage it can be described as dysfuctional as well as two people caring for each other.…

it realey anoys me wen i go to funrellss wen peple dont switch off threr cell fones it dose thy cud least switch it off for a bit

i woz at a funrell yday a few plele wear leting thr fones ring thy cud easy turn it off for a bit

i neaded to screame an shout abot it

Can’t find any words 

No photos to take

Inspiration gone

My half full glass has got a break

Lost within myself 

A hollow shell

Am I dreaming or awake

I just can’t tell

Lost within myself

Never to return

I can believe hes gone

Its like a constant burn

This pain just never seems to…

Mommy! 

Happy Mothers' Day. I miss you so much today. The sadness I am feeling lately has even taken over me physically. I find it difficult to eat, sleep, and socialize. I really just wanna break down and cry today but for some reason I just won't let myself. I don't wanna feel helpless and in pain. So I have been trying to escape my emotions with drinking and smoking. I know you wouldn't be happy about this. You must be very…

dose any 1 else go in to a room adn thnk thy hav saw ther lovd 1s siting it the table in the kitchn reding a paper  or go in to th livin room or sea thm watchng tv

or sea thm warking arond th house tht u get uo to go folor thm coz u thng u r gong krazy…

Before life happens and memory fails,

pieces of you here I'll state.

To you, the beauty that bore me life,

I'll never forget, you'll never fade.

- she calls me precious

- she loves Pizza Hut Stuffed Crust Pizza and made it our staple celebration treat for birthdays, anniversaries etc.

- she adored Barbara Streisand

- she had a crush on Robert Redford

- her best love advice is: Be with a guy that would treat you like a princess…