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I'm so tired of being here

Suppressed by all my childish fears

And if you have to leave

I wish that you would just leave

'Cause your presence still lingers here

And it won't leave me alone



These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase





When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears

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Today my love, I released 3 white balloons with messages of love to you into the skies.  9 months...I was going to do just 2 balloons at first so only bought 2 red strings to tie them. With only 2 strings and 3 balloons I tied 2 balloons together on each end of 1 string.  I was going to cut the string in half after tying the balloons, but I decided it was appropriate to leave them tied together.  It signified our love which is tied together - we are one for all eternity.

I watched those…

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I saw this poem on another site this morning and wanted to share it with all.  Especially for those who need assurance of their loved one's safety. If you are not sure if they made it into God's arms if they did not believe, you have to hang on to the fact that God is merciful and just above all and you do not know what may have transpired between them and God in their final moments.  Rest in that thought. For me, I am content in the knowledge that my beloved is safe and so very happy in…

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Hi all,  Just popping in quickly to say hello and wish everyone well: peace and comfort above all.  I have not been very active here for a few weeks and especially the past 3 weeks. I am currently struggling with a particularly unpleasant shingles onslaught which has cropped up on my face and affects my eyes, making it difficult to focus on the computer screen. I miss everyone here when I dont log on, but just wanted to say hello and remind you I am thinking of you all.…

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It's still to fresh. The hurt doesn't go away. I hope she's finally happy now. All her pain has been passed on to me. It doesn't seem to go away. I miss my little buddy so much. I use to wipe her tears away. It's not right. I can't help her anymore. She starting to appear in my dreams every night now. I wake up feeling down. I just want her to come back home.

The only thing worse than being awake and aware of the real nightmare is being asleep:in sleep the nightmares roll on a never-ending spool alternating between "he is alive" , "he is dead and I relive the entire thing", "he has gone somewhere and hasn't come back and I'm searching for him" and probably the cruelest "I thought he was dead, but wake up with him next to me". To wake up from those are the worst...

my heart is so very heavy, so filled with pain. I miss shawn so much it hurts bad. my tears still fall so much, everyday. to go on is so imposible, im so filled with hate, to see people go on, so happy, laughing. there are times I just want to slap them, slap that smile off there face. scream for my son to come home, not to leave me. to pray for shawn to come get me, I want nothing more than to go with him. I hate living, I just hate. I beg  shawn please help me, im getting no answer.my only…

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everyday it seems to hurt more to breathe, I miss shawn so very much, I still wait for him to come home, when the phone rings I pray its him. I know my baby will never leave me, but we have never been apart this long. my heart hurts so bad. I ask why he took my only child, why not me. I wait for signs, I know I have had some but I want so much more.  I hear people and family saying MOM, and I cry so hard wishing I could hear it to. I just want to be with him, hold him, hear him say I love…

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