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Can't let go

On February 18,2018 my daughter passed away from cancer. She had been battling it for 5 yrs.and today its been one month that she took her last breath.It still doesn't seem real, I miss her every day, she lived in FL  with her children,grandchildren,and husband,we talked on the phone every Mon. & Thurs.for hours (she was my best friend). I flew down to FL when they  brought her to Hospice,as there was nothing more they could do for her,but to make her comfortable and I sat with her,as…


Added by Ginger on March 18, 2018 at 3:30pm — 2 Comments

No normal days

    8 days 7 hours and 25 minutes ago I held my daughter as they turned off the machines and she slipped away. It's kind of a blur after that. Organ donations, funeral arraignments, getting her stuff from her apartment, people calling and coming by. So many people saying "if you need anything, just call." But what can they do, really? So much sadness and anger. Through all of it, I keep getting flashes of her face and body as they brought her out of the apartment. I knew when I saw her, blue…


Added by joseph ty on March 16, 2018 at 1:45am — 1 Comment

So Alone

When does the pain and regret of all the things I coulda done and shoulda said go away? Why do I have to think of it literally every waking moment and even as soon as i wake up in the middle of the night simply because i have to pee and dream about it when I'm actually able to sleep. We were seperated for almost 2 years before he was killed so why does it hurt so bad now that he's gone? Why?.... because he was my best friend, because we still talked. All day. Every…


Added by Renee Standridge on March 3, 2018 at 7:58pm — 3 Comments

Light at the end of the tunnel possibly.

I've been praying nightly to God. I remember when Mommy was sick, when she was in the bed. Mommy always said she was mad at God for her condition. I told her outright, "Mommy God didn't shove the cigarettes down your throat, you did that all on your own. It is your own fault you are in that bed right now." No matter how bad Mommy got, I never once blamed the Lord. I couldn't. It was like the same reasons I was overweight and morbidly obese as a young adult. I was the one who loved food. I…


Added by Jenni H on March 1, 2018 at 4:38pm — 1 Comment

It still hurts jus as much

Today marks 4 months since you left us, and things haven't got any easier!!! It still hurts everyday knowing that my love/ best friend is gone... 

Added by Raven Richardson on February 27, 2018 at 3:53pm — No Comments

Totally tired of my life and lack of emotions.

My mother had a stroke in October of 2015. She changed over night due to the aphasia and brain damage. She was a new person, half of who she once was. I began grieving my mother in October. I turned of all emotion and detached myself during the caregiving. It was just way too hard for me to deal with her conditions and my father's emotions. My family are gifted with abilities, mine was empathy and third sight. Most may not believe in that stuff, but it is more than real to me due to years of…


Added by Jenni H on February 17, 2018 at 5:40pm — No Comments

I'm so hurt

I feel like my i have no support. I lost my bf and oct of 2017 and i lost my baby Nov 2017. I'm so hurt. I dont have anybody 2 talk 2. My bf family dont even check on me 2 make sure I'm ok. 

Added by Raven Richardson on February 15, 2018 at 11:37pm — 1 Comment

it's been one year

Tomorrow, it'll be one year since Shelby died. No matter how things seem at any given time, the darkness has set in.  i just can't shake it.  i've continued having physical issues going on, and haven't been able to get in to see the doctor, yet--my appointment is for Monday.  i'm tired of trying to keep going.  i still haven't even begun to work on the planning of Shelby's going away party, yet, either.  *sigh  At this point, my hope is that once i can get straightened out, or at least find…


Added by B.Windsor on February 14, 2018 at 8:34pm — No Comments


I wonder about all the losses I've had in my life I'm 35 and I've lost most of my family everyone that I was close to are gone now the hardest has been losing my bf he was my best friend I wish I could understand why and how I'm suppose to go on what's the purpose of losing everyone I loved and what is my purpose now in life

Added by Jo l on January 29, 2018 at 4:39pm — No Comments

one year and 8 months

This is probably the hardest thing I have ever had to deal with as it is for anyone who loses their loved ones. As we get older it is the one thing we can guarantee in this life that we will lose our closest relatives and friends. My first loss was when I was 20 and my grandfather passed away while I was living half way across the country but as hard as that was I got through it. It gave me the sense that I can be strong for my family but this time it's harder. One year, 8 months and…


Added by Rebecca Clemens on January 23, 2018 at 12:49am — No Comments

Loss of my husband

My husband died 17 months ago of severe acute pancreatitis. He was perfectly well one day and the next day I had to drive him to hospital with severe gut pain.3 days later we were told there was nothing more they could do for him and we had to withdraw the life support. The enzymes of the pancreas destroys itself and the other surrounding organs. They said it was caused by drink but he only drank half a bottle of wine a night. The first few months I was 0.K. Then I crashed and had to be…


Added by Marjorie Willcox on January 17, 2018 at 1:15pm — 8 Comments

Learning to live without my best friend

A little over 6 months ago I lost my husband of 43 years.  We were only 19 & 20 when we got married so we essentially grew up together.  He has been my best friend, my confidante, my love.  About 5 years ago he developed COPD so we knew our time together might be limited, however many people live several years with COPD by keeping it under control.  Unfortunately, last May, he developed a lung infection and was very sick, in the hospital for the first time in his 63 years.  But once…


Added by Karen on January 16, 2018 at 8:33pm — No Comments

Missing my bf

depression is horrible I can't seem to get out of it I miss my bf. He didn't have a easy life he was 52 when he passed and he was getting his life together and things were going ok for him and us and now he's gone and all his dreams and what he wanted to do and us to do is gone it seems so unfair to him and us I just don't understand why this had to happen 

Added by Jo l on January 16, 2018 at 4:30pm — 1 Comment

Missing my bf

its been 4 months since I lost my bf I have lost other people in my life but this has hurt me so much we knew each other for 4 years. He was my best friend and him passing away so suddenly has broken my heart. Especially since we knew each other for a short time I will always be grateful that I knew him and we had the time that we had together wish things were different and he wasn't gone and I didn't have to feel this pain every day 

Added by Jo l on January 10, 2018 at 7:04pm — No Comments

I miss my parents

This is the first time I’ve ever written a blog but here goes. I’ve been having a really hard time lately, I lost my dad when I was 14 and my Mum last year to terminal cancer. I’ve had bereavement counciling last year but as the first year anniversary is coming up from my mums death I’m feeling lost again and on my own. Christmas has always been a hard time of year anyway and is now even harder than it was before. I was my mums cared for 3 and a…


Added by Chrissie goodban on January 5, 2018 at 4:04pm — No Comments

It's becoming more difficult dealingl with my parents murder/suicide as I get older

My name is Efren I am now 43 years of age. When I was 10 years old I witnessed my father murder my mother then take his own life. This happened 33 years ago but I'm having trouble coping with it now more than ever. I've been really depressed as of lately and not being myself. It seems to hit me during the holidays but every year it seems to be getting to me more and more. Some might say I'm feeling sorry for myself and to get over it already, easier said than done. I'm just look to hear from… Continue

Added by Efren Loredo on December 30, 2017 at 4:30pm — 4 Comments

xmas 2017

It's been ten months...and it hurts as much as it did when i first found out Shelby died.  For some sadistic reason, which i will never understand, my ex and his mother continue their games.  *sigh  Some days, it's so  hard to even move outta bed to do anything, other than hope....Hope i can finally meet and visit with my grandson (Shelby's son) and HOPE for some sort of reconciliation or understanding with my son.  If either of those is not possible, why am i even here?  A lil over a…


Added by B.Windsor on December 25, 2017 at 9:03am — No Comments



I lost my mother on 24 nov 2017  , now 3 weeks have been passed  . My mother was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer  , …


Added by Ambreen on December 16, 2017 at 10:48pm — 5 Comments

New to this...but wanted to reach out...


I am new to, well, all of this, blog writing and connecting online in this way...but I hope to make connections with others that may be feeling loss in a way that is interrupting their ability to find peace and happiness.

I have had more loss in the last two years than I have had in my life to this point at the age of 50.  Two very close friends passed away quite suddenly.  They were my age and nowhere near ready to leave, any more than I am.  They were…


Added by Heather Brooks on December 11, 2017 at 9:25pm — 1 Comment


I joined today to connect with people who may be feeling the same way I am..guilt, lost, alone, scared, angry, and moments of joy when I think about our life together.

I recently lost my husband of 26 years,  He was the first and last man I dated and had a relationship with.  He was my best friend, my rock, my love and connection to life.  He showed me how to be strong and independent, but i am not sure I can be without him most of the time.

Joining him is not an option!! I…


Added by Aaron Hoenig on December 5, 2017 at 4:55pm — 1 Comment

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