Michael's mom passed away today. The loss of him was too much for her. And so I've lost another. This is the second time in my life I've had back to back losses. My dad and husband died less than two months apart in early 2001, widowing my mom and I at the same time. Now Michael and Alice (mom). My existence at this point is beyond comprehension. And Michael's poor brother! His dad, brother, and mom in less than 3 months! His entire family-gone! Just like that! I've lost my entire family too, bu…
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Added by Courtney Rice on February 3, 2010 at 12:38am —
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Hi
I have lost my mom heart problems,dad cancer, baby sister anorexia and depression, mother inlaw cancer, best friend who just dropped dead brain aneurysm, another very good friend cancer, and others whom I loved.
I loss my cat (Angel) that i had for 13 years and loved.I have been able to get through these losses with God`s help, and some really good friends. Six years ago my only son decided to push me out of his life and has not spoken to me since.One of his daugthers I saw until she was 4 m…
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Added by REDHEARTS on February 2, 2010 at 11:18pm —
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I lost my boyfriend of 2 and a half years. He passed away on 1-29-2010. He had a blood clot in his chest. It was called a chest aneurysm. So there were no signs or symtoms. We did EVERYTHING together. Shopping, errands, cooking, went to work together, raised kids together, showered together. We liked to hunt, fish, camping, hiking. If we breathed the same air we were close enough. I Love Him So Much. I don't know how to live without him. I'm so fricken lost.
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Added by Lisa Marie Steinberg on February 2, 2010 at 5:18pm —
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I Have learned ,to my own detriment, to hold in my emotions until the most inopportune time. This started when i was very young, i had certain family members who always told me to keep my mouth shut, and that crying was showing weakness. the same ones who told me that when i was five are the same ones who told me the same things when my mom and sister died. they say old habits die hard, well this bitch is taking it's sweet time. My whole life i have had anxiety and have always been worried about…
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Added by Money Jensen on February 1, 2010 at 12:26pm —
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I have been so angry lately, and I know it's part of the process.
Mad like I got once just a few months after my Mom died. It was December I think, and my freinds were worried about me and wanted to get me out of the house. I hadn't been out much-which for me is a bit odd, I am a very social creature. Much like my mother!!
My friend dragged me out to dinner with one of her friends, a young lady I hadn't met before. She seemed so nice, but I was a bit quiet because I didn't want to get dragged in…
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Added by Marsha "Marcy" Welch on February 1, 2010 at 12:43am —
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When my son died from a drug overdose I didn't blame God. (I thought) Rationally, I knew that my son's use of drugs was far removed from the life the Lord would have him lead. But still...I was faithful to pray for God's intervention in my son's life and I believed with all my heart that everything would be okay.
Let me say also that I know that I know, without God in my life I would not have survived Ryan's death. God held me when I couldn't think or speak. When I did not want to wake up anothe…
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Added by Connie Pharr on January 27, 2010 at 9:52am —
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One month ago I moved to New York City. I love it here! This is the place I have been dreaming about coming to since I was 14. I knew that just because I would be living in a different place, didnt mean that all my emotional problems would go away. I just didnt expect it to sneak up on me so soon. My mom has been dead for 3 years now, I did 18 months of therapy up till I left California, and I seriously thought I was in a better place. I still think I am in a better place, but different emotions…
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Added by Rochelle Kramer on January 27, 2010 at 9:14am —
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I have never made a blog before so I am not sure what to do, but it seems that I am doing a lot of "first things" lately. My head still feels foggy and I still feel a sense of disbelief about my Baby Sister. She was only 35 years old and has 13 year old twin girls. My family is so torn and hurt so much. It feels like there is a big hole in my heart now. I just want this pain to stop. My baby Sister started experimenting with drugs when she was very young. We have tried to help her so many times…
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Added by Michelle on January 25, 2010 at 7:36am —
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So tonight we took my grandma off life support. it hurt us more to see her suffer.
But now, it just feels kind of numb for me. i just, i have lost so many people in less than 1 year its like i dont feel anymore. Its not that i dont care, but i dont have the ability to show any emotion. i hate that i am like this but i cant control it.
I dont know what to do anymore.
When Aly died, it took a huge part of my heart with her. When Cody died, it took another huge piece of my heart. And now, it fee…
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Added by Jen Miller on January 24, 2010 at 12:24am —
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I have been able to upload photos, but I can't seem to add one as my profile photo. Can anyone help?
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Added by Debbie Varga on January 23, 2010 at 9:46pm —
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I hate the days where i cant move or think. I plan on doing all these things and wake up, just to find myself numb. I think something has happened to my mind. I have to talk to him somehow. I have to know what killed him. He died in his sleep on his little boys 2cd birthday. All i know is he coughed at 8 am and was dead at 9 am. I have to know. I want him to tell me.
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Added by Lisa Townsend on January 11, 2010 at 10:28am —
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My son died November 28, 2009. He was 37, and a diabetic. He has a daughter 10. Both were so important to me. His wife won't let me see my grandaughter or talk to her... she won't even answer the phone. So this means my grandaughter and I are suffering and grieving two losses.
This past week I had a very rough day, I wanted to talk to my son so badly....so badly it was overpowering. All I could do was cry, sit with my mouth open with tears running down my face, weeping from the soul. Last night…
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Added by Ganny on January 8, 2010 at 11:30am —
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I lost my dad on December 11th very unexpectedly to a massive heart attack. He was my heart. He came to visit me in my new home on the 10th and on the 11th we did some shopping and I bough him lunch. He had complained of a pulled musle or perhaps a broken rib but didn't want to go to the doctor because he didn't feel it was bad enough but would go if the pain got worse. After lunch he wanted a nap, when he was getting ready to nap I noticed his color was off and I told him that he would just hav…
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Added by Ruby Smith on January 5, 2010 at 3:00am —
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I put Nicki down the day before christmas eve. Nicki was Grama's dog, her gift to me to remember her by. But Grama is still living and Nicki isnt. Grama is an adult and capable of understanding the decision to put down the 13 year old dog, but I keep being told not to tell her, that it'll just cause undue stress. Grama herself is displaying many of the same end of life traits that poor NIcki displayed. The weight loss, the loss of hearing and sight, the confusion, the loss of appetite and activi…
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Added by Desiree on January 5, 2010 at 2:05am —
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14 mo after the death of my son, and i feel like i dont belong, Im in a different place than others around me. Things that used to hurt dont hurt. People seem different to me. When im driving in my car things are just gray. I hear people talk about relationships breaking up, and the cat dying ect... and how it is breaking their heart. I thought i have experienced the worst of the worst when it came to pain and heartache. When you lose a child you spend the rest of your life in torment, and pain.…
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Added by Lisa Townsend on January 4, 2010 at 10:27am —
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its your birthday! We miss you like crazy! Aly, there are not enough words in the world for me to describe how i am feeling. I cant even imagine what your mom feels. I know she misses you even more than i do.
Theres not much that i can say that i havent already.
So, i am just going to tell you this:
Alexandra Noel Courville you are the only person in my entire life who has made me change the way i think about things. And i just want you to know that i love you with all of my heart and i need…
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Added by Jen Miller on January 1, 2010 at 11:28pm —
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I do believe that life goes on. I know because my husband makes it a point to communicate with me when I need him.
A few months ago I moved to my new home, and I had received the last electrical bill of my previous home that we shared together. The bill was for $10.14. I thought that was strange because our aniversary is on October 14 and we always used to comment on the clock at 10:14 on certain days. I'm not sure but when ever we looked at the clock is seem to be at that time. We thought that…
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Added by Sally on January 1, 2010 at 11:25pm —
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"Who could have thought that rage would turn to grief, That in grief we could find comfort and from comfort we could heal and grow." ~ Tori Amos~
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Added by Michael A. Spudich on January 1, 2010 at 9:17pm —
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Hi everyone,
I am trying to figure this out. I am new to this site, but not new to online support groups. They all seem to be a bit different.
I am reeling from the holidays and all the emotions I'm feeling. I lost my stepfather in July to cancer, which was diagnosed only two weeks before he passed. In hindsight, there were signs that we all missed to tip us off that something was wrong, but we just took his word that his cough was just his 'sinus crap'.
His death came so fast that it seems li…
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Added by Debbie Varga on January 1, 2010 at 8:48pm —
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When my father passed away last year, he not only left me behind, but a five year old son as well. I have a brother, a baby brother, who I haven't been to visit not because I don't care for him, but because I dread visiting the home my father resided in. His room is still completely intact, after over a year. My step mother cannot even open the door, let alone clear it out. I have offered to help, but she is not ready to let go. so, I avoid their home entirely. Aside from that, my dear baby brot…
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Added by Samantha Williams on December 31, 2009 at 1:36pm —
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