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Mar 13, 2017
Denise commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"John - We will never forget your Diane's name. When I dream about my husband George, I never see his face, I always see how he made me feel. I feel his warmth and love and when I wake up for the briefest of moments I will try to recall the…"
Mar 12, 2017
Denise commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"Stacey, my birthday was on Thursday, the first without my husband who died 8 months ago. Although I have two adult children, I went through a period on Thursday when I too felt alone and missed George terribly. I hope there will come a birthday when…"
Feb 18, 2017
Shelley A Silva replied to Denise's discussion AM I THE ONLY ONE? in the group Lost My Spouse...
"No Denise you are not alone with the symptoms that you have been feeling. My Husband passed away 7 weeks ago today and I feel every symptom you described. We are all going thru such difficult times with the loss of our loved ones. You are not alone"
Dec 25, 2016
Michael replied to Denise's discussion AM I THE ONLY ONE? in the group Lost My Spouse...
"So I made it to my brother's house for the holiday. I hadnt been put of my house except for 2 nites around my birthday in the nearly 3 months since Roxanne died. I actually was driving around without utter anxiety and spent some time at my…"
Dec 25, 2016
morgan replied to Denise's discussion AM I THE ONLY ONE? in the group Lost My Spouse...
"All the physical symptoms of grief are manifested when the body is under such stress.  At the beginning not only did I have heart stutters but about five months into my grief I started smelling burning wires when I would cry.  I realize…"
Dec 25, 2016
Louise replied to Denise's discussion AM I THE ONLY ONE? in the group Lost My Spouse...
"Yes, that is so true. I start hyperventilating and worry I'm going to start bawling my eyes out. It's horrible isn't it?"
Dec 25, 2016
Pamela philipp replied to Denise's discussion AM I THE ONLY ONE? in the group Lost My Spouse...
"Louise it's the same for me my husband and I always did everything together also buying for one like you said hits home that he's really gone then for me to store become so overwhelmingly huge I can't breathe I have to get out"
Dec 25, 2016
Louise replied to Denise's discussion AM I THE ONLY ONE? in the group Lost My Spouse...
"You're very welcome. It's scary when you get chest pains and can't breathe properly. No one ever told me grief could be so physical. All my love to you x"
Dec 25, 2016
Louise replied to Denise's discussion AM I THE ONLY ONE? in the group Lost My Spouse...
"Yeah same here, weird huh? Maybe it's something to do with the incredibly bright fluorescent lighting they all seem to have which makes you feel like everyone can see everything and you're wide open to scrutiny. For me it's the fact…"
Dec 25, 2016
Denise replied to Denise's discussion AM I THE ONLY ONE? in the group Lost My Spouse...
"Michael, Louise, Sabrina, and Pamela - thank you so much for your replies. This is just confirmation that I am not losing my mind or that I have developed a hideous disease. There are so many layers of grief beyond the intense pain and loneliness…"
Dec 25, 2016
Michael replied to Denise's discussion AM I THE ONLY ONE? in the group Lost My Spouse...
"Weird. The grocery store does that to me too."
Dec 25, 2016
Pamela philipp replied to Denise's discussion AM I THE ONLY ONE? in the group Lost My Spouse...
"Yes Denise I have been experiencing panic stacks every time I walk into a grocery store or when I'm out in public anywhere my heart starts racing I feel like I can't breathe and I need just to get out of wherever I'm at and get home"
Dec 25, 2016
Sabrina replied to Denise's discussion AM I THE ONLY ONE? in the group Lost My Spouse...
"I have the same symptoms since my husband died 9 weeks ago. Heart palpitations, headaches, back pain, etc... I'm exhausted constantly! You are not alone!"
Dec 24, 2016
Louise replied to Denise's discussion AM I THE ONLY ONE? in the group Lost My Spouse...
"You're not alone. I also get headaches, and chest pains, my heart feels like it's being squeezed sometimes or the pain can be sharp and stabbing and I get shoulder pain too. My back aches and I always have a jittery stomach and feel sick,…"
Dec 24, 2016
Michael replied to Denise's discussion AM I THE ONLY ONE? in the group Lost My Spouse...
"Yes I am experiencing back pain that I never felt before."
Dec 24, 2016

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About my Loss:
My husband died 6/19/2016

This is all so new

My husband of 26 years (we were a couple for 36 yrs) died this morning. He had diabetes for 20 yrs, sarchoidosis which attacked his liver and was on dialysis for the last 5 yrs. I am numb. We have two children in their 20's who live with us and I am like everyone else on this thread, my husband LOVED us and we knew it, Although he has rebounded many other times when we were told he would not make it, this time everything was just too much and his heart just stoppped beating. I can not figure out how to go on, but I know that he would want me to do so, for myself, my children and for him. Everyone who met him loved him and his faith carried him through - each time he rebounded he said God wanted him here for a reason and then preceeded to love everyone he met. We had a huge party last month and he saw family and friends and we had a marvelous time. So glad we had that memory among many others.  We just moved  into a new house last year and one of our last conversations he said he wanted us to enjoy the house. It has not been 24 hrs (he died 6/19/2016) and I can't imagine going to bed tonight knowing he will not walk into this house . I am rambling, I joined because I KNOW I will need to talk to others who have lost a spouse. I feel a little better reading some of the threads

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Neutral

Yesterday, I had to pick up copies of George's death certificates and it totally devastated me. It did not bother me when I received the copies, I pretended that it did not bother me because I put the copies face down in the back of the car and did not look at them until later that night. I have not read the whole certificate but after I skimmed it looking at the cause of death I fell apart but I forced myself to hold it together until I started sobbing while watching TV with our daughter. I…

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Posted on June 25, 2016 at 6:50am — 4 Comments

Today is not a good one

Today I have not been able to move. I have moved through my house, and have been on the deck but not out to interact with others and I think that it is necessary for me to get outside and speak to or see anyone other than my children. Today is so hard. My body aches and feels like lead, I know that these feelings will come and go and they have over the past few days, but today the cloud is lingering longer than usual and I am afraid if I let it take hold I will never be able to get out from…

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Posted on June 22, 2016 at 1:29pm — 2 Comments

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Linda Engberg commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"Hello Friends, As all of you have stated, I too fake my happiness. I laugh on the outside and am crying for him on the inside. I ache so bad that my Julian is not in my life. I just don't understand why God won't take me. Until he does, I…"
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Nancy commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"Morgan.  I wish I had answers but I am in the very same place.  Lost, fake and hollow.  I feel worse than I did a year ago I think because I thought I would feel better and don't. Empty and apathetic.  I'm tired all the…"
10 hours ago
bluebird commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"morgan, I don't know why this has happened to us, our soulmates being torn from us, but it fucking sucks. Have you considered not acting happy and normal, since that isn't how you feel? Especially if acting that way isn't helping…"
10 hours ago
morgan commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"Please somebody, tell me how I can continue to do this.  I am so depressed.  I get up every day and pretend.  It's what is making me so depressed.  It looks like I am functioning so normally.  Now that I have learned…"
10 hours ago
Avi commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"Hi Danny. Surviving is art which we all need to practice. Today I met a friend whose father is witnessing the similar illness as my mother i.e. late stage cancer. He is also going through the same emotional turmoil as I went in 2018. After this…"
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Theresa commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"Danny. I hear you.  December will be 4 years "
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Danny replied to Carla Rose's discussion Lost my Mom a Few Days Ago in the group Lost Without My Mom
"Great reply Sandra"
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Danny commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"Its been 5 years and here I am back on the site. Surviving and functioning but just about. "
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Theresa commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"Wonderful Avi!!!  "
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Brett Bowman commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"Amen, Avi."
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Avi commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"Thanks all. This group is my extended family. "
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M Adams commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"Avi, that is so lovely to hear — best wishes to her and your family!"
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Brett Bowman commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"That's wonderful, Avi. Congratulations. And I wish you another 100 years with her."
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Sue Toler commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"I am so happy for you & your family.  I am glad your daughter had a great birthday!  That first birthday is always special.  Take care, "
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Avi commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"Hi All,  Friends, my daughter's first bday celebration went great. She is now 1 year old and motivating force for my dad to live. My dad is able to laugh and enjoy life because of his grand daughter. Even I feel motivated to live so that I…"
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Stephanie Berndt is now a member of Online Grief Support - A Social Community
Aug 12
Judy Pugh left a comment for Kevin's Mom
"You are still Kevin’s mom, and you always will be. NOTHING, not even death, can change that. I don’t know what your beliefs are, and I’m not trying to shove my beliefs onto you. I just want you to know that I truly believe this is…"
Aug 10
Connie K commented on Kar's group Missing my Son or Daughter
"Teresa D. the line is "Mama  don't you cry for me, I'm sailing in eternity..." Makes me feel emotional and happy that it resonates with you and that you remember it. <3"
Aug 9
Connie K commented on Kar's group Missing my Son or Daughter
"Kevin's mom I am so terribly sorry for your devastating loss. I lost my only child as well - Daniel - at age 17. That was 6 and a half years ago. I can't tell you how i made it through, but I have, one day at a time sometimes one minute at…"
Aug 9

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