"No you do not need a push, in time you will carry on.
Life will go on and you will adjust to the new one, but at your own pace.
I think about my mom every single day and night and its been 1 1/2 yrs., she was my everything and I miss her every…"
"My mum passed away on the 20th of April I lived with my mum all of my life im wishing she could be hereI spent my day on Thursday constantly crying I know what to do is ive got to carry on I feel like I want a push to go on im really fed up…"
I guess I'm doing the best I can I'm trying to not make every moment one that I think about what should've been what I could've done I'm just trying to go forward I guess
when I start to get really upset I say this…"
"It has been a very emotional few days with my Mom's birthday coming up. It is the first one since her death. I have been n emotional mess. It helped that our family got together at her house and honored her by having a birthday party like we…"
"Bluebell I feel the same way my dad had cancer from asbestos, they told us he would only live for 6-12 months after his diagnosis, I did not want him to suffer. He passed on December 14, 17 years ago.
I accepted it because I knew he was…"
"June 14th will be 4 months for me since Mom died. The shock has worn off, but the pain is still very much alive. It is more intense than the grief I felt when my Dad died. I do not understand that, because I loved my Dad too.
"Bluebell, my moms birthday is also coming up it will be the second one without her, last year when the day came I just kept busy, went to the cemmetary and before I knew it the day passed.
Everynight I wake up in the middle of the night and she is…"
"This grief is a roller coaster ride that I want off of. The thought of my Mom's birthday coming up is so painful that it is like touching a burning hot skillet. I am not sure how I am going to get through the next couple of weeks.
"Though I have had a few tearful moments, it is nothing like when Mom first died. Have you read "TEARS ARE PROOF OF LIFE"? If so, I think I am at "Then the wound begins to heal". If you have not read it and want to, you can find…"
I am 26, a Licensed Massage Therapist and a mother to a beautiful 5 year old little girl.
About my Loss:
~I lost my uncle to pancreatic cancer on 10-18-09
~I lost my Papaw to liver cancer 10-20-08
~I lost my Nana to Lung Cancer 12-4-08
~I lost my sweet Mom 6-8-09. In 2006 we found out that she had breast cancer, she had surgery and radiation. Everything was good for awhile. Then in August of 2008 we found out that it was in her Liver, Gall Bladder, Bile Duct and Lymph Nodes in the central part of her chest. She had surgery to remove everything that could be safely removed. In Sept she got a Staph infection and we almost lost her. November, she started Chemo....She was 2 treatments away from being finished with chemo when we found out that she was in Acute Renal Failure (5-19-09), two days later we found out that her Liver had failed and that there was nothing left that they could do for her. She died June 8, 2009 at 1:10pm.
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I work up this morning...and thought "what a bummer". I really have no meaning to my life. My mother has been gone 3 weeks Monday. Cancer...that murderer of our loved ones. She was my darling mom. Without my faith..I would just kiss this thing we call life goodbye. This site and all of you have been almost my sole support. I pray a lot. I miss her. I hope you are going to have a decent day today. I will try. Mustering up the energy and desire to do something normal like go to the movies. XO Sue
I am a 26 year old dental hygiene student and mother of a little girl who is almost four. Last Dec. my Mom was diagnosed with Stage IV Ovarian Cancer. We lost her this past summer. She was only 49. I felt like I was the only young girl who lost her mom--until I joined this community. It is so hard, and I miss her so much. Sometimes I think im ok and can see a future for myself and my family, and sometimes I cant hardly get out of bed. I hope you and your family are well.
I am sorry about your mom too. I just lost my mom on Jan 22 and I am only 32 years old, young like you. We never expect to lose our moms this early in life. Its just horrible! I miss her so much and it hasn't even been a month yet. We are best friends! K
Karen I am so sorry you just lost your Mom. It's been a few years for me but I think about my Mom everyday and say hello to her. My husband had cancer 3 yrs ago and they said he was "cured". Now he is having liver problems and I'm scared the cancer may be back. We just never know what life will deal us. Hang in there and know that you are in my prayers and thoughts.
I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my Mom when I was 18 years old. Then a Sister, a Brother, my Father and recently my Brother to cancer. There is not a day that goes by that I do not think of them all. It has been 26 years since I lost my Mom. Take comfort in knowing that the memories you have of her or of the two of you together now will one day lead to smiles instead of tears...
I am so sorry for you. I also lost my mother on 10/16/08, father on 12/5/08 and my grandmother on 5/29/09. My mother also had bial duct cancer. It is really hard losing so many of your loved ones in a short period of time. My daughters are 24 & 19 and the family is having such a hard time with this. We miss them so much.
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I just found some thought that actually explains how I feel now:
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Those horrible panic attacks just visit us often. Suddenly the whole world is turning black and no oxygen anymore.
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