Richard Rivera
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  • Union City, NJ
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Richard Rivera replied to Richard Rivera's discussion MY BELOVED WIFE DIED DECEMBER 2ND in the group Lost My Spouse...
"I got back from the hospital. I checked in and I was there for several hours. the results came back and the doctor told me that chest x-ray came clean and that my bloodwork is normal. Also my EKG also showed no abnormalities. in short, I am a…"
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Richard Rivera replied to Richard Rivera's discussion MY BELOVED WIFE DIED DECEMBER 2ND in the group Lost My Spouse...
"I was sitting outside and the gentleman and his wife saw me sitting and he said "oh by the way how's your wife doing?" I told him that she had died and his face and her face went pale with Embarrassment. He kept apologizing over and…"
Tuesday
Richard Rivera replied to Richard Rivera's discussion MY BELOVED WIFE DIED DECEMBER 2ND in the group Lost My Spouse...
"Today is the first day of spring and when I woke up in the middle of the night, I found myself with the sensation of total isolation. I got my clothes on (it was about 3 AM in the morning) and I went outside in the middle of the night. there was no…"
Monday
Richard Rivera replied to Richard Rivera's discussion MY BELOVED WIFE DIED DECEMBER 2ND in the group Lost My Spouse...
"Today is Sunday, I'm sitting in Hoboken on the bench getting some fresh air. I had a complete and absolute nightmare and I woke up screaming last night . tomorrow I will go to the hospital and to find out about my test results. The…"
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Richard Rivera replied to Richard Rivera's discussion MY BELOVED WIFE DIED DECEMBER 2ND in the group Lost My Spouse...
"I went to the unemployment office today. I did the orientation and my unemployment will not be interrupted. I am sorry to say that I will never be able to live without my wife a Annette. I just wasn't built to last without her I know I…"
Mar 15
Richard Rivera replied to Richard Rivera's discussion MY BELOVED WIFE DIED DECEMBER 2ND in the group Lost My Spouse...
"Something else that I wasn't expecting. I found out that I'm talking to myself -- loudly to the point where someone asked me, while I was waiting for a cab "are you all right sir?" I asked why I wouldn't be and they said…"
Mar 13
Richard Rivera replied to Richard Rivera's discussion MY BELOVED WIFE DIED DECEMBER 2ND in the group Lost My Spouse...
"I got a call and exhaustionfrom the hospital. they want to do a second round of tests. so I have to go back this week. I'm getting incredibly weaker each day. I can't even walk any further now. I walk a few feet with blinding, intense pain…"
Mar 12
AnneJ replied to Richard Rivera's discussion MY BELOVED WIFE DIED DECEMBER 2ND in the group Lost My Spouse...
"Hi, Rich. Your story about the old man on the park bench touched me. Because you remember him, feel for him, understand about him. What a gift this is to give to him across all the years. Your heart is opening back up and that means Love will claim…"
Mar 11
Richard Rivera replied to Richard Rivera's discussion MY BELOVED WIFE DIED DECEMBER 2ND in the group Lost My Spouse...
"Bluebird: Unfortunately my current landlord is someone who I've tried to be able to deal with in the past for getting things fixed and they took forever or never. They know of my situation and my loss of Annette and even then they still…"
Mar 10
bluebird replied to Richard Rivera's discussion MY BELOVED WIFE DIED DECEMBER 2ND in the group Lost My Spouse...
"Maybe the landlord will let the late fees go, if you explain the situation?"
Mar 10
Richard Rivera replied to Richard Rivera's discussion MY BELOVED WIFE DIED DECEMBER 2ND in the group Lost My Spouse...
"I received a call this morning from social services and they said they are making up the checks for the two months back rent that I owe to the landlord. Even though they will be paying for it, im told I'm still responsible however for paying…"
Mar 10
Richard Rivera replied to Richard Rivera's discussion MY BELOVED WIFE DIED DECEMBER 2ND in the group Lost My Spouse...
"I just realized what my life is now. it's to have no one to say "I love you" to. to not feel the touch of each others hands. To not look into each other's eyes and say "I love you" . That's what so frightening. to…"
Mar 8
Richard Rivera is now friends with emma, Brenda Ann and Elynn m
Mar 8
Richard Rivera replied to Richard Rivera's discussion MY BELOVED WIFE DIED DECEMBER 2ND in the group Lost My Spouse...
"Elynn Thanks for the compliment. one thing that I am certain of, I don't think I could ever take medication for my depression and grief. I consider It a cheat. No pill should be used as a crutch. that's just my point of view. I keep…"
Mar 8
Elynn m replied to Richard Rivera's discussion MY BELOVED WIFE DIED DECEMBER 2ND in the group Lost My Spouse...
"Richard,  it's good to hear that some progress was made.   I agree with the others.  Take care of yourself, because  you are  important.  Thank you for openly sharing with us.  (I find myself calling out for…"
Mar 7
Richard Rivera replied to Richard Rivera's discussion MY BELOVED WIFE DIED DECEMBER 2ND in the group Lost My Spouse...
"I just woke up around 5 o'clock. right now the strange thing is I woke up screaming out Annette's name. Right now I'm so exhausted. it's not just lack of sleep but actual mental and physical exhaustion. It's so strange to…"
Mar 7

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About my Loss:
I lost my beloved Honey Bunny wife Annette on December 2nd, 2016. She died from complications from obesity. I myself am obese and heading down the same path. We had no children and I am alone. I live now in silence and devestated.

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At 8:17pm on December 25, 2016, morgan said…

Its what we all keep praying for Richard.  Just last night I took a sturdy cardboard box that a lamp had come in and I kicked it so hard and so long against the wall I thought I was going to pass out.  Some hours can be unbearable.  Some minutes we try to breathe.  Some days are measured knowing we are one day closer to not having to be here alone and hoping we are going to be embraced by our beloved again.  

Its alot of wishing and hoping......and in the interim praying it doesn't last long.  I haven't found an end to the suffering but I will say it varies in degrees.  And yes,  tearing you to pieces sounds all too familiar.  We just bear it.  Endure it.  And this time of year is definitely very very hard.  People who live in the old universe still celebrating while we are jumping off the bridge.  Soon we will be into January ..... try to find something to keep you busy Richard.  Its one of the ways to save your brain from totally going over.....distraction will help somewhat......take care Richard....

At 3:12pm on December 25, 2016, Richard Rivera said…
Today December 25th and I woke up screaming out my wife's name. I chased around the apartment and am in agony. There's no end to this suffering. What do I have? An apartment and a lousy job with silence and grief that's tearing me to pieces. I keep hoping I don't wake up. It is the only thing that I continue to pray for.
 
 
 

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Richard Rivera replied to Richard Rivera's discussion MY BELOVED WIFE DIED DECEMBER 2ND in the group Lost My Spouse...
"I got back from the hospital. I checked in and I was there for several hours. the results came back and the doctor told me that chest x-ray came clean and that my bloodwork is normal. Also my EKG also showed no abnormalities. in short, I am a…"
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