Married for many years. Loss was a shock. He was my other half. I can't believe he is gone. John passed out and died in emergency two hours later. Cardiac arrest. He never regained consciousness, he never knew he was dying and I thank God for that blessing.
Thank you Oleta for taking the time to bring me the most comfort I have had since my John's passing.You obviously are a special and kind person.
I recently became a grandmother, it brings bittersweet thoughts, when I think why didn't John get to enjoy them? The little boy is named Johnny, oh how that would have thrilled my husband. Do you have grandchildren?
Please take comfort in the fact of the happiness that you shared with your John. You will get to the ashes when it's time, for now, know that he is with you. You are in my prayers Stay Strong!
Your response to me might be the kindest thing that anyone has ever done for me in life. I had read that this was not a painful death, but for you to reiterate it meant so much to me. On that horrible day, I had come home from work, and my John was already gone. It will always haunt me that I wasn't there to help him.
God Bless, and I will keep you in my prayers. Please reach out if you want to talk.
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