Nice, fun loving guy who just loves God, family and people.
About my Loss:
I lost the love of my life and My beautiful wife to this horrible disease called cancer. We fought so long to beat it and she tried her best to stay as long as she could. It hurts my heart to have seen what this disease did to my beautiful wife, she or nobody on this earth deserves to be put through that pain. I honestly don't know how I'm gonna be able to go on from here. I feel so lost.
Kevin,I know what cancer did to my wife no should have to suffer the way she did the treatment put her in the hospital many times but the last time she could not recover it breaks my heart when I think about all she went through she came close to death many times and came back the last time we thought she'd do it again but her body was to ravaged by this horrible disease and it took her so i understand the feeling just hope where she is now knows no pain only happiness and peace.
Kevin, the first year tears you apart. It doesn't seem real in some respects. You survive(willing or not) thru the first birthdays without your soulmate...the first anniversary, the first Thanksgiving and Christmas, etc. People may not know what to say to you, but they more or less check in periodically. After the first year is over, most people kind of forget your situation. They feel you should've moved on. Unfortunately, this is when you could use their help the most because you really come to the realization that your loved is well and truly gone and that NOTHING is as it was and life SUCKS! I have gotten to the point where I don't do anything I don't want...or see anyone I don't want to see. I know I'm stuck. I miss having my playmate, my confidant, my cheerleader, my sounding board...I'm sorry we are all in this together, but, this site helps me a lot.
"Hello to all of you who are here for the same unimaginable reason as I am. I found this website last night after another night of going to bed where instead of sleep, pain sets in that I was able to escape from all day by being busy. Jess's…"
"Joe, I have seven tattoos one for each year Julian has been gone. It is my way of honoring him People make fun of me saying I am too old (71) to have them. Glad to hear I am not the only one still honoring their spouse after death."
"Wow..you suicide yourself there us no place for you in heaven. You will find yourself again and life will go on without your dearly departed. Learn to love yourself find what you like to do there has to something. Think of it like this he…"
"It is a tradgedy to lose a loved one. But it does get better. Not everyday will be the same some days burn to the core more than others. Find a hobby or volunteer or help someone basically find something to do to ease the monotony of the day. In…"
"Thank you Linda. It's beautiful for you to had done that. I have tattoo of our names in a heart. I wear two sets of our wedding bands on both pinkys and ring fingers. We're still married and always will be forever.…"
"Yes I still miss her terribly. I am still sad and angry. I was left with two boys ages 12 and 8 at that time. What kept me going was making sure they were provided for and raised well. I still have full on bawls when the…"
I am curious because I am within a week of being a widow of seven years how you are doing it allotter eight years? Today, and more often lately (lets say for about the past six months) I have become more angry and more hateful of having…"