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It's been almost a week since i lost my wife to lung disease. She's in my mind 24/7. I don't have anybody else to talk too. I was carred by emotional and physical abuse mostly in my childhood in…Continue

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next month will be three years since I lost my husband and I'm failing miserably I am in serious debt I cant fix, I stay home because I have extreme difficulty leaving my house I don't know how to…Continue

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Lost my husband the father of my kids and bestfriend . 3 Replies

  I lost my husband we were high school sweethearts we had plans and it was not suppose to be this way we had two kids together and I feel so lost and the pain i feel becuase of how much I miss him…Continue

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Lost my husband the father of my kids and bestfriend . 1 Reply

  I lost my husband we were high school sweethearts we had plans and it was not suppose to be this way we had two kids together and I feel so lost and the pain i feel becuase of how much I miss him…Continue

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Comment by Elynn m on August 30, 2018 at 10:53pm

Thank you morgan, and linda, for the information.  My sister lives near Henderson, nevada.   I might check that out.   I've looked for 55+ communities there, but not for senior apartments.   Also, morgan I have a friend in Florida who lives in a 55+ community.   Thank you both for your concerns.

Comment by bluebird on August 30, 2018 at 10:07pm
I would be upset too, Geri. I'm sorry that happened to you. If I were you, I would ask to speak to the doctor or, if there is one, the patient advocate, and complain/explain why that was wrong and inappropriate, and why you are so upset
Comment by Geri on August 30, 2018 at 7:17pm

Yesterday I was scheduled for a minor eye operation. I was asked at the admissions desk if my husband was my next of kin (for picking me up after surgery). I was upset and explained he had just passed 4 months ago. I was then told all my paperwork needed my marital status changed. I went numb. As far as I'm concerned I'm still married. I still have a husband even though he is not physically here with me. Why is this labelling necessary? I was and still am so upset.

Comment by Linda Engberg on August 30, 2018 at 8:07am

Hi Elynn,

I live in Florida and live on the East Coast which I find is more expensive to live, when my Husband and I first looked we found the West Coast much cheaper but really crowded so we ended up in St. Augustine, Fl which now be coming very expensive. My friend lives in Henderson, Nevada, and they have senior housing based on your income.

Morgan where do you in Florida?

Comment by morgan on August 30, 2018 at 12:43am

Joe, the website you posted was really quite a find.  I am not about to pay for counseling on how to write (journaling)since I've been doing that since day one but her reflections on how society just does not account for how people grieve is spot on.  Its amazing how only when your spouse dies do you really get the impact of how painful losing your love is.  Even for a psychotherapist.

Ellyn, it is good for you to come here and unload.  We all do it.  As for your question about 55+ community I used to live in a neighborhood in a house in West Palm Beach FL and there are plenty of 55+ communities down there.  Dont know what you consider affordable but there are "apartment" communities with 1bed/1/bath for around $40-60K and monthly HOA fees around $350.  Not fancy but in a decent area.  Century Village on Okeechobee Blvd is where you will find them.......google it.  They have bus routes to get around easily and activities on the grounds.  They were originally Jewish but now that has eased quite a bit.  Mainly just a way to live more affordably, in the sunshine, and be close to shopping and activities for older people.  I have thought about buying something there (no I'm not Jewish)but I have my hands full right now.  At least it is warm (well, hot) and you don't have to deal with ice and snow.......

Just my two cents.

And I hope tomorrow is an ok day for you.  Three years on is still raw.  I have yet to get really good days and I am five years plus into losing the one person who meant everything to me.  I am just able to defer the pain for longer periods but it still creeps up on me and then takes me down.  

morgan 

Comment by Elynn m on August 30, 2018 at 12:40am

Thank you Monty for the encouragement.   I do talk to my sister in law, who is willing to listen.   I know my own sisters would also, but I am afraid, or embarrassed  (?) to bring it up.   I'll try to be more open.   I know my sisters would  love to talk, but probably think I don't want to talk about my feelings.   They talk about Joe, and how great he was, but don't really want to get into feelings.   Guess I could tell them how I feel  (sad, lonely, etc.) And they would talk.

Comment by Monty on August 30, 2018 at 12:21am

Elynn I'm so sorry to hear of you pain and current loneliness / situation.

  I don't know what state has what services in america so cant help you much on that front.

  I live in a built up area and have until recently felt quite isolated and alone. most of my friends could not talk to me or listen to me when i start about grief.

  i have found just even talking on the phone to my sister (who is an amazing listener) helps so much.  she isn't afraid to hear what i need to talk about and i look forward to our conversations with her so much.

  i also need to remind myself to allow people to help..  i tend not to like to rely on others to much.

  don't be to afraid to let others help you and come pick you up from time to time.

regards Monty

Comment by Elynn m on August 29, 2018 at 11:53pm

I came back today because I need to talk.  I didn't think I would get to this stage ....of always feeling lonely, but I guess I am.  How do I get through this?   I cannot go out of the house to visit someone, because I don't drive....I live in an area where people don't live just next door!  ....I feel kind of stupid asking if I can visit them and saying,  "but you'll have to pick me up" !!!  I've thought about selling the house and moving to a 55+ community, but  cannot find a state that is affordable!   Joe's death was unexpected, and we never discussed this type of thing in 41 years!!!  Does anyone know of a state with a decent area for seniors in a 55+ community???  I'm sorry to talk about this here, but, like I said, I don't have anyone else to talk to.

Comment by Linda Engberg on August 27, 2018 at 7:11am

Joe,

Thanks for sharing this website.

Comment by Monty on August 26, 2018 at 9:08pm

thanks joe.

its nice to find some material that is useful and relevant in what we are going though 

 

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