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Today is the anniversary of my wedding day 2 Replies

I got married on May 1, 1992 and lost my husband on June 30, 2017. My wedding day was the happiest day of my life and if I had one wish, it would be to go back and live that day over. It has been…Continue

Started by Carol Klotz. Last reply by Carol Klotz May 3.

Lost my light in the darkness 2 Replies

I lost my wife on the 25 of March after returning from my Dads funeral. She is everything to me. No matter how bad it got, no matter how much my PTSD drug me down, She has been my light in the…Continue

Started by Shane Hughes. Last reply by Shane Hughes Apr 16.

Lost my husband the father of my kids and bestfriend . 5 Replies

  I lost my husband we were high school sweethearts we had plans and it was not suppose to be this way we had two kids together and I feel so lost and the pain i feel becuase of how much I miss him…Continue

Started by Nicole. Last reply by Wendy Apr 7.

My Love 1 Reply

On November 6 of this year, I lost my husband in a tragic automobile accident. We live in Georgia and the accident was in Montana making it more difficult. I am completely lost as we were best…Continue

Started by Kathy West. Last reply by Anna Chris Apr 7.

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Comment by Linda Engberg on February 22, 2020 at 10:03am

Hi Bluebird,

Thanks for your kind post. I feel the same as you about getting another pet. No other dog could ever take her place and no man could ever take the place of My Dear Husband, Julian. As with you, I don't want to face anymore deaths but seeing it is part of living we don't have much choice. Take Care, Linda 

Comment by bluebird on February 22, 2020 at 7:51am
I feel the same as both of you. morgan, I'm sorry you had a particularly bad day -- I certainly know what that's like. I hope today is easier for you. Linda, I know what you mean about your dog. When our cat died, aside from the sadness I felt at his death because I love him, I felt additional sadness because him being dead meant that another link with my husband was now gone. I can't handle any more death, so much as I love animals I will never have another pet. Some people find that getting another pet, especially a rescued/shelter pet, helps them.
Comment by Linda Engberg on February 22, 2020 at 6:09am

Hi Morgan,

I just wish I could have died with Julian. Like you, everyday I just go through motions. I am blessed with my Sweet Dog, Babie J. I am living for her. She now has dementia and it is so sad to watch her declining. She has been by side since Julian died and was my only comfort. I don't know what I am going to do without. God Bless her little soul.

Comment by morgan on February 21, 2020 at 10:35pm

Amen Linda.......Today for whatever reason was a particularly rough day.  I am exhausted from crying.   I just don't know how long I can keep pushing forward.  I am definitely in the hate mode.......

Comment by Linda Engberg on February 21, 2020 at 3:08pm

Comment by Nancy on February 12, 2020 at 6:59am

I love that explanation Linda!!!

Comment by Linda Engberg on February 12, 2020 at 6:25am

Comment by morgan on February 11, 2020 at 3:47pm

Jen,  I agree. I would hate to waste all this suffering if it screws up my transit and reunion with the other half of my soul but how much is one person supposed to endure?  I am a blinkered mess. I look like I function to others as I have gotten better at pushing myself but there is NO joy, no happiness and only pain when I think about my love and his for me.  I am SO tired of being in pain.  And I don't mean necessarily my physical pain which I have from the stress of the grief.  I mean the mental/emotional pain of getting so little relief from missing him.  I can push it off periodically but it always comes back and punches me in the gut and then I have a breakdown and even though it relieves some of the pressure that builds it doesn't make me feel any better.  I am tired of having to make do all on my own.  Just extremely tired.  And I know all of you get it.  Our minds simply never stray far from what real living was like........the times we cherished with our soulmate.......


Comment by JenShep on February 11, 2020 at 12:43pm

I feel the same way Linda. But, I've had so many experiences that make me pretty sure there is one. I'm afraid to have wasted all of this suffering for nothing. If there is an afterlife/reincarnation, to kill myself now will mean I'll have to learn the lesson in another life since I didn't learn it in this one. There's no way I can do this again. So, like most of you, I just pray that I get to go soon. 

Comment by Joe Kelly on February 11, 2020 at 10:13am

I think I'm going down hill and very hopeful that it won't be too long now.


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