Traumatic, Sudden Loss

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Traumatic, Sudden Loss

I have started this group for people who like myself have suddenly, tragically and traumatically lost a loved one.

My mom died 8 weeks ago (August 17, 2009) She had been sick but I did not know the true extent of her illness. Her doctor knew she did not have long and I went to each doctor visit and talked to him at the hospital and he never told me and I do not believe mom knew either. I am not sure.

I found my mom sitting up on her bed and I know I knew she was gone. I still am in deep shock and cry occasionally but only a minute or two. Then I am back to not feeling or feel numb.

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The loss of my beloved man. 3 Replies

It´s not easy to describe my experience,but that´s the reason why I registered on this page not long ago.I´ll be happy to share with others feeling tremendous pain and grief.It´s been not long ago…Continue

Started by Janka Huljaková. Last reply by Janka Huljaková Nov 14.

Grief 6 Replies

There is no end to grief when you lose a loved one.  Understanding this helps me to continue to live.  There is no end to the missing of a loved one along with the feelings of guilt and sadness, but…Continue

Started by Susan Dee Leatham. Last reply by Jesse's Mom Nov 4.

Why doesn't anyone care 2 Replies

That isn't qutie right. I know some people do care, and they care very much. But they are so few and far between that it feels as if I'm all alone. My husband, son and I are in Alaska while our…Continue

Started by Toni Jones. Last reply by Copper "Charlie" Oct 7.

A proof of love 11 Replies

I just have a simple question...Is a headstone proof of how much a person was loved?Continue

Started by Toni Jones. Last reply by Copper "Charlie" Oct 4.

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Comment by Shraddha on November 22, 2015 at 7:43am
Thanks Danny...
Comment by Danny on November 22, 2015 at 7:26am


just take it day to day and seek urgent help from the hospital if you feel dizzy



Comment by Danny on November 22, 2015 at 7:09am

2 yrs ince the sudden loss for me an each day has been tough but my main support is still looking after me.. sudden is the worst

Comment by Shraddha on November 22, 2015 at 6:49am
I lost my dad on 9th Nov a sudden cardiac arrest..... I hv never felt so lonely n so vulnerable before..... Ma dad was my pillar of strength.... It just seems so unreal....tat I might wake up frm this dream someday..... I miss him so much....
Comment by Doris Jane Franklin on November 19, 2015 at 8:01am

At 8:oo AM on September 30th I was a wife starting breakfast. At 8:15 I was a widow. My husband died of a sudden, massive, heart attack right before my eyes. It was so fast we didn't have time to say goodbye. 38 years of shared love and history all wiped out in seconds. I can't get past that day to access the wonderful memories we shared, when I think of him all I see is the look on his face when he died and left me. 

Comment by Felicia Sanders on November 7, 2015 at 12:20am

II will never forget how beautiful and clear blue the sky was on two particular days in my life: Sept. 11, 2001, that terrible day, and on April 10, 2010. On that April day my mom and I took my step dad to the ER early that morning because he's had a lingering case of bronchitis. While she and I were in the waiting room, we were talking and laughing over something we read in a magazine. As we left the hospital we went through the drive thru at McDonalds, and while waiting for our order we marvelled, the three of us, at how lovely the sky was that day. Later, mom asked me if I would take her shopping at the mall. I told her to wait until the next day as I was going to spend the afternoon preparing food for a wedding shower the next day. I told her we would go after the shower. She looked a bit disappointed, but agreed. The next morning I had just jumped in the shower when my cell phone rang. It was a family friend informing me to get to the hospital asap, that my mom was in bad shape. I broke every traffic law and got there in a few minutes. My mom was lying on the bed when I walked in. Her eyes were closed but she responded when I called her name. The doctor informed me out in the hall that she was hemorrhaging in the brain, and that she was already blind from it. With tears in my eyes, I walked back in and said, Mommy, do you hurt anywhere? She said "I have a bad headache here", and pointed to her forehead. She spoke to us off and on thru the day. Docs gave us hope that she might pull thru, but by that night she was in a coma. I awoke early the next morning to gurgling sounds and the doc asking me if I wanted to put her on life support. Before I could even make a decision, a nurse without sad eyes told me " Your mom has died." I crumpled to the floor. In the grief stricken days that followed, I remembered that last sunny day we had and wondered why I hadn't just spent the whole day with her, took her shopping instead of preparing food for a wedding shower for two people I barely knew? There's so many, many regrets. I miss her so much! She was so beautiful both inside and out. My lovely mommy with her auburn hair and dancing dark eyes. There had only been a very few days in my life that we had not seen each other or spoken on the phone. When I married, she made me promise that we would always live near each other and my husband and I kept that promise. I was her only child, and she will always be my wonderful mom. I want to see her so bad, hug her. Its a terrible feeling when they are here one day and just gone the next.

Comment by Kathryn Epperson on November 4, 2015 at 6:39pm

I lost my 29 year old son on Sept 28, 2015.  We still don't know why - the coroner is waiting for toxicology to come back.  All I know is that he was fine and then he died in his bed.  This is the worse pain I have ever known and it just gets worse with each passing day.  I have 3 other kids that I love dearly but I just want to be with my son.  I feel like my life is over, and it is.  Life as I knew it before.  Now I have to somehow get thru the rest of my life..........I just want to be gone.

Comment by Imed on November 2, 2015 at 8:06am

my girlfriend she was 22 .. i lost her 3 days ago .. she was the most amazing person i ever known .. she got taken away from too soon .. she was texting me when she had the accident and her last text was i love so m she didn t even finish her text .. i feel weird lost and i just can t make sense of this .. why on earth that beautiful sensitive and angelic person got taken away from .. i didn t even have the chance to make her happier .. i don t think i ll never be able to find a girl like her .. yes my tragedy i guess is less horrible that many others .. but still the pain i have now is just unbearable .. in 27 years old this is the first i feel what it is like to suddenly lose someone in a blink of an eye .. i don t know what i am going to do without her .. i just wanted to share my story 

Comment by janette on October 22, 2015 at 1:28am
I found my mother dead in her bed April 2015... results still haven't come back what happen.... think elipsily and she had a seizure. ..heartbroken beyond belief
Comment by Copper "Charlie" on October 4, 2015 at 4:19am

My mother passed on very unexpectedly on July 13, 2015.  She went to the hospital and it was pancreatitis.  She was in agony for a week, even with pain meds.  Then, she takes a turn for the worse and we find out it's hemorrhaging.  There's nothing they can do that she would be able to survive.  She was gone.  I got one month to grieve. 

Then, a month to the day, my sweet, sweet husband passed.  Just out of the blue.  There was no indication that anything was wrong until 40 minutes before he died.  He had stage 4 cancer, but he was supposed to have another 5 years.  A rare side effect of the chemo killed him.  It was so sudden.  And I hurt every single day.  There isn't but a few scattered moments that I have any laughter or even smile.  It's like nothing is worth smiling about.  And I know better.  I have two daughters, 18 and 22, who need me and a father who is all alone now.  I have 2 grandsons from my husband's daughters who were very dear to him, and who I love very much.  My eldest grandson and his mother and her boyfriend came this weekend.  He's a very imaginative and active young man.  We had a couple of "shootouts" and I was turned into a Zombie, and then when I was being a "wall" for him to hide behind when having a "shootout" with his mother, she "shot" me and he exacted "revenge".  Then we did a cool little experiment, which he really enjoyed.  But that total of an hour of smiling was surrounded by sobbing.  I just don't want to be around anyone.  I don't care.  I'm so alone in a crowd of people.  And having to see a couple together, loving one another when I feel so very alone...and my soul mate is hurts so very much!!!!!  I miss my Baby, my Lover, my Shadow...


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