I am a single parent of 3 kids trying to deal with the loss of my son.
About my Loss:
My 2 yr old son was murdered by someone I fell in love with and trusted.He beat him to death while i was gone and let me him slowly die.By the time he told me something was wrong and i rushed him to the hospital he was already gone.
hi jennifer--i know its been a rough week for me and i sure it has for you too--this week use to be my favorite holiday and now i have to work on it wheni told my boss all i wanted to do was stay in bed and cry all day she has no understanding or compassion for me about anything but then yet again she has never lost anyone in her life for all of her family is still here so doesnt know what this pain is like at all and now with having to face the holidays all alone doesnt help either and the said thing is even though i am not close to my family they know that i am alone and they dont even bother to call even on the holidays to ask as to how i am doing at all for they just dont care they called when fred was here but nope not a word from them at all---and yes this is very tough to deal with by myself--and there are no grief support groups in my area unless i want to drive for over an hour in the dark
i have 3 brothers and 2 sisters but they live on the other side of the state form and we never were a close knit family--i have not had contact with them for quite some time now--freds family also lives on the other side of state and i was closer to freds side more thna my own and again no contact weith them for some time either august is the last time i think--i live in a real small town i wi what about you where do you live--brothers sisters etc--fred and i ahd 1 child but god deceided he needed to have our son 2 hours after his birth--i know have a few ppl here on the site but its not the same when you have no one to hold asand hug you when you need it nor is there anyone to tell me they love me on a daily basis and with these days coming up this month and next month its all getting to me as to just how lonely i am--fred ansd i were not able to have anymore children after our son and i always question as to why we were not--since all of our brothers sisters etc were able to have children
hi jennifer--i know my pain is so deep and yes it just keeps getting harder and harder for me to be here with out fred and every day i have to face more struggles--i just dont know how i can keep going on without him--i find myself going deeper and deeper into depression and i refuse to take any kind of medication to get me through this--and medication didnt help when we lost zachary but i had fred to hold me and listening to me cry everyday for 2 years after we lost zachary and now i have no one
thanks jennifer for your kind words i think of fred all the time 24\7 as to what we were doing a year agoa and as to what we would be doing today--it would be nice if i could feel his spirit with me but i never do--fred is the love of my life and my heart has been so broken since may 8th of this year when i lost him so unexpectly
I am so sorry for the terrible death of your child... I think about gods plan for my son... I just don't understand mine now. My son was my life... I had him at 20 years old, he died at the age of 22. My world became what is was because of my son, he was my right arm. I do have 2 really good friends that have stuck by me... before my son died my phone rang off the hook for plans and dinners...my phone now is so creepy silent... It hurts how now I sit alone every night.. It's so lonely. Thank you for caring...
ya i am going into grieving counseling but there is like a 6 month waiting list so im just waiting to get in there..... im sorry about your son i really am i mean i know i lost my brothers but i dont know what i would do if i lost a kid. it just hurts so bad knowing that they will never come home again just the fact i will never see those wonderful smiles for a long time it hurts so bad i am still numb, i still feel like they are going to come home but it gets realer and realer everyday and it hurts so bad the only thing i want is for my brothers to come home!.....
Yes, I am a believer. That's what has gotten me through this..It is still very hard not to question the way in which she wass taken as I'm sure it is for you. It saddens me that we have met through such extreme tragedy but I am grateful to have someone who is willing to listen and be a friend. Thank you sooo much. My family and I will continue to pray for you as well.
He doesn't even have an attorney because nobody wants his case! I think that he will beg for second degree cuz of his criminal history. He was on parole when he murdered my mom! He made a full confession so I doubt that he would want to take it to trial.
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