Marlene, Today I mark two years two months. Like your post at two years, reality has set in and the shock is diminished. I don't know how it is my body still wants to wake up every day. I am a ghost of my former self. I wish this was all over and beg for it in my breakdowns. I spent 35 years loving the man who lit my fire every day. You never get over this, of that I am convinced. All we can do is share with each other the feelings that are left over from the worst thing that has ever happened to us.
The three year mark of my husbands death is near........the feeling of loss is even heavier.......I search for him in my dreams.......I tears my soul in half to set couples together..............a seeping void.......
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