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Is this normal? for grief?
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I miss my fiance so much. He passed on April 27 2012.  I have lately been experience feeling of just feeling sick with grief. I miss him so much I start to feel naucious and empty feeling in my gut…Continue

Started this discussion. Last reply by renee collier Jan 29, 2013.

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I am grieving the loss of my boyfriend of 7 years. I found him dead. It was the most horrible thing I have experienced in my life. I loved him so much. He was the one man in my life that truly got me and loved me exactly the way I am. He and I had been through our shares of trials and tribulations but one thing that was constant was that we truly loved each other. This loss has been so difficult, I feel that it is making me depressed. I am trying to go on with my live but I feel like I am just going through the motions. But I know I need to pull it together because I have a 16yr old daughter I need to take care of. I do feel like my heart has been ripped out of me. I feel like I will never be happy with another man. I don't want to do anything but be sad. Please help.

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I wish he could hear my words

I wish my words could be heard by him. I miss the love of my life. He will forever be with me in my heart in my  mind and in my memories.  I feel like I will never find that happiness.  Things were not always perfect.  But what I knew was that he loved me. Oh how I miss him. every day is a struggle just to get through it without him. When I am having a bad day I don't have him to turn to. Oh how I miss my baby.

Posted on February 6, 2013 at 4:10pm — 2 Comments

Another poem

Poem 1:

I can't believe I was the one to find you,

lifeless

cold

This is the day my heart broke

I wish I could have hugged you one last time

but your cold lifeless body

was to much

You did look peaceful

you looked like you were sleeping

but deep down my gut knew something different. 

Poem 2: 

Today was a hard day

I wish you were here

Today was a…

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Posted on January 31, 2013 at 3:03am

Signs from our loved ones. Have you had any?

I never thought I believed in ghosts or spirits.  but now I am a believer.  I have had some things happen in my home that I believe to be my dear Christian telling me he is with me.  Has anyone experienced things that you believe to be from your loved one?

Here is what I experienced...  One night my daughter was  home alone and she was watching tv.  She said the channel changed to the cartoon Family Guy and she was not touching the remote control. She said mom wasn't "Family guy" a…

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Posted on January 24, 2013 at 10:46pm — 2 Comments

WHAT NOW

The love of my life has been gone from this earth almost 9 months ago.  I can't believe it. And to think that if I live to a ripe old age I will be without him many more years until we are reunited in the next lifetime/heaven. It sounds so unbearable. This is been like a crazy roller coaster ride.  Some days are more bearable than others.  But the past four days for some reason has been soooo hard.  I cry and cry and cry.  I have pretty much been home in bed.  I only go out if I really need…

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Posted on January 24, 2013 at 10:34pm

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At 4:29pm on October 25, 2012, Joseph G. Bartlett said…

your poems really really touch my inner heart  renee as i was looking through your page and was drawn to read it thats when  i figure  my lost love must be around pointing me in the right direction as she allways did how else could i have been lead to your painfull but beautifull heart felt poems  i am so sorry that this happen to you as well as enybody else  im not aware of how your love passed  my  love died suddenly  and with out notice what was hopefully something simple turn out out to be devastating  to which i was force to come home alone and explain all the whys to me  kids  5 in all 11yrs-20yrs old what a day for me that was i'll never forget  it  but please do still try an hang in there  your poems  are a fantastic way to greive its get most of your sorrow out in the open  for all to see and to know that your poems are helping others too  i look forward to reading more 

At 10:46pm on August 19, 2012, Brandon R said…

Thank you so much.  That means a great deal to me.  yes...It was a love like no other.

At 11:27am on July 13, 2012, Amanda Ab said…

hello renee,

i hope you are having an o.k. day. its amazing on how our stories might be different but yet we both share the same feelings of loss. and yes you are right being a one parent to my son, is by far difficult on top of everything else but my son does make me stronger.

 

At 10:55am on July 13, 2012, Robin Charles said…

Hi renee,

I understand your grief and sudden loss. I wish there were words that could heal us all...and give us relief. Its very hard when there are so many questions unanswered. Try your best to keep your head up and remember we will see our loved ones again soon. They can see better than we can and they are not grieving where they are at because they know they will see us again. 

Love Robin Charles

At 1:10pm on July 11, 2012, Amanda Ab said…

Hi Renee

Thank you for your comment. It took more than 1 year to finally get the murderer into custody, but it just finally happened on the 25th of June. We still have a long process ahead of us with the Court system but I have faith that Justice will happen and he will face the consequences for taking my husband's life away.

I too believe in ok days. I was just recently discharged from therapy as I attended on a weekly basis since my husband was murdered. Now I am in a way on my own without no psychologist to hear or help me no more. I learned many things about myself. There are days that breathing seems impossible and feel that half of my heart was also taken away when my husband was murdered. My life forever changed. I went from having my whole family, the love of my life, whom we shared the joy of having our son, to being a Widow at the age of 26 and with a 19 month old to raise both financially and emotionally on my own. If you read my posts, it has been a really tough road for me. There are days very low and then ok days. I can say to take one day at a time, but when things get too much, i just take it "one breath at a time".

 

take care,

Amanda

At 10:15am on May 8, 2012, teri marie said…

i am sorry renee i know you know her.

At 10:14am on May 8, 2012, teri marie said…

renee~  i red your profile info about your loss. i can not imagine the 'happy' feeling again.  i can not imagine having a true smile again.  i lost my daughter of 24 years.  she went to bed and she never woke up.  i have decided to make 'sad' my friend.  maybe you know her?  

 
 
 

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