"Hey all, how are you guys doing? Havent checked in in awhile, been pretty busy with work.. Guess its a good thing cause then Im not thinking about my mom constantly.. I wonder, when do we become comfortable when we’re alone? I feel like when…"
"Virginia, reading your posts was like going through all my feelings of guilt the first few weeks after my mom died. All the times I was horrible to her, the times I got frustrated when she wouldn't eat right or when I complained about…"
"Bluebell I am praying for you. We survived mother's day.
Last night was pretty bad for me. I was feeling anxious all day and cried myself to sleep. A bit glad though cause I got to see my mom, even if it was just in my…"
"Thank you Brett. I do try to honor her but it is so painful. I attended church service yesterday. I think I did pretty well. No unexpected outbursts. But then I came home and found an old album of photos, saw a picture of me and my mom…"
"In 3 months, it will be a year since my mom passed away. It feels like it was yesterday. I know I asked this before but when does it get easier to do activities that you and your mother did together? I cant bring myself to do anything that reminds…"
"Bluebell i feel for you. Sepsis is a horrible and very deadly illness thst not a lot of people know about. My mom also died from complications oftom sepsis, heart failure, etc. It kills me everyday thinking about it. Im sure your sister woll be…"
"Brett you seem to always know how what to say to make me feel a littl better... I remember reading somewhere that grief comes in waves.. you’re doing fine, smiling, until a picture of your loved one pops into your head. But it seems lije its…"
"It is my mom’s birthday to two days. She wouldve been 61. Been dreading this day everyday this past month. How can someone you knew and talked to everyday suddenly not be here the next? Then it seems like their whole life is reduced to their…"
"Hi Camren. I feel the same way you do. I lost my grandma in 2014 and now my mom last year. They were the only two people closest to me. My grandmas death was sad but she was 83 so I was thankful that she had a long life. My mother died unexpectedly…"
"I would never want to diminish someone’s faith or beliefs. I just wish my faith was as strong as you guys. I am aware of what the bible says about mediums and the dangers of it. I was so distraught the first month after my mom’s death…"
"The first few months after her death, i became obsessed with the afterlife. Mediumship specifically. I started researching how I can develop my own skills and contact the spiriworld. Have not started yet. Although I’ve found some good starting…"
I lost the most important person to me 10 days after my 25th birthday- my mom. Still dealing with all the emotions that come with such a significant loss. Its hard, very hard. Life feels empty. I don't enjoy much anymore. Any joy I have is overcast with a dark cloud of sadness. I'm angry, and sad. I have lost others but nothing could prepare me for this.
Now I don't know what the word is to describe the amount of pain and abandonment I feel from losing my mom. Feel like I don't have anyone to rely on. Never was close to my dad. Sisters moved out 10 years ago so although I love them, I am not very close as I once was.
If it was possible I would exchange places with her in a heartbeat, not because of how painful it is- but so she could've lived longer and enjoyed her grandchildren (my sister's kids). She was such a selfless mother, grandmother, sister, caretaker- that she did not deserve to go out the way she did.
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Crystal, like you, I talk to my mom daily. Whether she can hear me is unknown. I do believe God hears me, so I ask him to tell my mom how much I love her, miss her and wish I could see her to give her a hug. I'd give up everything I own to see her again
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I agree with you, my Lutheran religion has taught if I take my own life I will not join My Husband in heaven. The only way I go on is that we are not widowed, still married only he is in Heaven and I am in Hell. "
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