"Sending hugs to everyone today and tomorrow. Another year without my mom :( Missing her so much. "
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Crystal K
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When will the ache subsi…
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Traumatic, Sudden Loss
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I miss my Mom!
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Crystal K commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Hi guys just sending my love and prayers to everyone this holiday season. These times can be especially difficult. Im glad Thanksgiving is over. It wasnt a good day for me. My aloha to everyone ❤️❤️❤️ "
Crystal K commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Hi guys, its been awhile since I posted. Been really busy with work- guess thats a good thing because it means less time for me to dwell on things. My sister just found out she’s pregnant with her fourth kid. Really happy and excited for her,…"
Crystal K commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"The indifference is hard. I hate it when people ask me how Zim doing or how lifw is... I just want to scream at them “how do you think it is!” My boss constantly asks me and everytime I just respond with a “fine” or…"
Crystal K commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Hi guys I know I havent posted recently but I do keep up with all your posts. Still battling the same things. Ive decided to see a therapist to help me deal through my emotions. thinking of you all ❤️"
Crystal K commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Hi everyone, wanted to share this with you guys. Today is the one year anniversary of my mom’s death-and coming across this has helped make today a little more bearable. "
Crystal K commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Hi everone, wanted to share this with you guys. Its made today (the 1 year anniversary of my mom’s death) a lot easier. "
Crystal K commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Now Im more worried about my anger/resentment issues because its gotten to a point where I am so envious of others and Ive also avoided contact with family members because I havent forgiven them. And I know they must be going through their own guilt…"
Crystal K commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Brett, yes we do torture ourselves with guilt but like you said its so hard not too... I too feel so guilty over little things... I feel guilty just smiling sometimes... You’re right I do go longer periods now without thinking about my mother,…"
Crystal K commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Thank you guys. Happy birthday to your mom Theresa. Brett, I am dreaming of my mom less and less frequent. I wonder if it is our memories with them fading :( I thank God for pictures but sometimes I know I am slowly losing the…"
Joy left a comment for Crystal K"Hi Crystal, happy birthday. My birthday is also tomorrow and I also dream of my mom occasionally. I dreamed of her last night. She's been gone a little over a year and it's not gotten any better for me. I'm functioning, but I think of…"
Crystal K commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Hi guys, sorry I've been MIA for a while. You guys give me a lot of comfort but sometimes even being here is hard, talking to each other about our moms.
Bluebell, just read what you are going through! I hope you are feeling better!
I…"
Crystal K commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Hey all, how are you guys doing? Havent checked in in awhile, been pretty busy with work.. Guess its a good thing cause then Im not thinking about my mom constantly.. I wonder, when do we become comfortable when we’re alone? I feel like when…"
Crystal K commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Brett you always bring light to our darkest thoughts. I am so thankful to know you. I wrill try to tell myself that from now on, that my mom would want me to live. "
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- About my Loss:
- I lost the most important person to me 10 days after my 25th birthday- my mom. Still dealing with all the emotions that come with such a significant loss. Its hard, very hard. Life feels empty. I don't enjoy much anymore. Any joy I have is overcast with a dark cloud of sadness. I'm angry, and sad. I have lost others but nothing could prepare me for this.
Now I don't know what the word is to describe the amount of pain and abandonment I feel from losing my mom. Feel like I don't have anyone to rely on. Never was close to my dad. Sisters moved out 10 years ago so although I love them, I am not very close as I once was.
If it was possible I would exchange places with her in a heartbeat, not because of how painful it is- but so she could've lived longer and enjoyed her grandchildren (my sister's kids). She was such a selfless mother, grandmother, sister, caretaker- that she did not deserve to go out the way she did.
Comment Wall (4 comments)
- At 6:36pm on June 28, 2018,
Joy said… Hi Crystal, happy birthday. My birthday is also tomorrow and I also dream of my mom occasionally. I dreamed of her last night. She's been gone a little over a year and it's not gotten any better for me. I'm functioning, but I think of her all day every day.
- At 9:33pm on October 9, 2017,
Bryan Kelly Reeves said… just your story, why your are here, what you battle (anger, fear, etc)
- At 5:16pm on October 9, 2017, Bryan Kelly Reeves said…
Id love yo exchange stories sometime. Also Im working on a project for my masters degree and need to have contact with 5 people and ask them a few questions.
- At 7:23pm on September 20, 2017, Joy said…
Crystal, like you, I talk to my mom daily. Whether she can hear me is unknown. I do believe God hears me, so I ask him to tell my mom how much I love her, miss her and wish I could see her to give her a hug. I'd give up everything I own to see her again
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Losing Someone to Cancer
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I miss my Mom!
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Jennifer left a comment for morgan"Thanks Morgan for commenting on my profile page. Wow...What u described that u go through every day of every year is exactly how I feel. I lost my girlfriend/fiance of 5 years to suicide. I know without a doubt in my mind that she is my soul mate so…"
morgan left a comment for Jennifer"Jennifer,
If there was anything at all I could say, I would. No one who hasn't lost the love of their life can understand the amount of pain that stays with us for a very long time. I know at four years I was still banging…"
maria left a comment for Michael"sorry for your loss I lost my husband feb 2016 its been rough I was married 44yrs"
Linda Engberg commented on Katherine Ellis's group Losing Someone to Cancer"I feel it all depends on the relationship, no matter if man or woman."
Avi commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Hi All,
Hows everybody doing? Theressa, Brett, Adams, Virginia?"
M Adams commented on Katherine Ellis's group Losing Someone to Cancer"Have heard the same thing about men and loneliness, based on the assumption that women usually have richer and more developed social networks, a wider range of relationships, etc. Of course this isn’t true of all women, though it seems…"
M Adams joined Katherine Ellis's group
Losing Someone to Cancer
This is for anyone who has lost somone to cancer. I lost my adopted Mom to breast cancer some years ago. She was everything I could have asked for. She loved me because I was just me. She also loved my family and children as if they were her own.See More
Michael Thompson commented on Katherine Ellis's group Losing Someone to Cancer"In my opinion as a Widower by 4 and a half years, men find dealing with being alone and loneliness harder than woman, this is what widows I meet tell me. I strive on a daily basis to at least be less anxious, but I miss my right arm in my…"
Linda Engberg commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse..."This past week we lost a young man of 24 with three children, If there is a God why would he take this young man instead of me who's life is over.
I really question my faith."
Joe Kelly commented on dream moon JO B's group why me why us"Our suffering is unbelievable and unbearable Dream Moon. We just jave to believe that there is an afterlife where we will be reunited with those we love. That's all I live for now. To die to be with my Loving wife. I…"
dream moon JO B commented on dream moon JO B's group why me why us"wearss my mannerss gon joe sorry on yore loss 2"
dream moon JO B commented on dream moon JO B's group why me why us"i no so sad joe
loss dear frinedd few days go way she sufferdd coz of illness wz cruell coz she wz a veryy sweet kind lady "
Joe Kelly commented on dream moon JO B's group why me why us"Why I don't know, but everyone dies someday. There is a lot of evil in our world who do terrible things. I'm sorry for your loss. I too suffer the loss of my wife and afraid my daughter will die soon from cancer. …"
dream moon JO B commented on dream moon JO B's group why me why us"stilllasky why
moree loss siness i postedd on hear"
dream moon JO B commented on Anna-Marie's blog post When does the crying stop."it can go on/off for yrs it can
do not t not let no 1 tell u way u shud feal or mkee u feal baf bad for grieff or los loss
lst 7 yrs iv go thruu a multii loss of pepplee
evn a cat i had for 16/17 yrss i loss 2
peplee say or…"
dream moon JO B posted a blog postwhy do god let wong 1s die or sufferrr
i no iv askt stuff on off l hav for 7 yrs on hear on off sineses iv bean hearwhy duzegot let gooodd gud pepplee suffrwen u get bad pepplee it kill or hyrtt hurtt not suffr 1 bit in lifee suffrr gud peepplee i no suffr coz of god i ask why]wen bad pepllee do bad stuff lk kill rapee molestr peppllee go free not be punchessd ty do not i get mad wen i hear kids died peplee it do no harmm 2 no 1 die bad detahtss deathss y thy doSee More
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