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Crystal K
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- Honolulu, HI
- United States
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When will the ache subsi…
77 members
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Traumatic, Sudden Loss
943 members
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caregiver
11 members
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I miss my Mom!
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- About my Loss:
- I lost the most important person to me 10 days after my 25th birthday- my mom. Still dealing with all the emotions that come with such a significant loss. Its hard, very hard. Life feels empty. I don't enjoy much anymore. Any joy I have is overcast with a dark cloud of sadness. I'm angry, and sad. I have lost others but nothing could prepare me for this.
Now I don't know what the word is to describe the amount of pain and abandonment I feel from losing my mom. Feel like I don't have anyone to rely on. Never was close to my dad. Sisters moved out 10 years ago so although I love them, I am not very close as I once was.
If it was possible I would exchange places with her in a heartbeat, not because of how painful it is- but so she could've lived longer and enjoyed her grandchildren (my sister's kids). She was such a selfless mother, grandmother, sister, caretaker- that she did not deserve to go out the way she did.
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Lost My Spouse...
367 members
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Multiple Losses Group
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Being the Other Woman/Ot…
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Missing my Son or Daug…
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fur kids
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Multiple Losses Group
I am creating this site for the many of us who have suffered several losses. I lost my mom, dad, grandma(2nd mom), grandpa, my beloved dog and divorce.Many of us have lost more than one person or event.Come share!See More
jacq kramer joined Julie Dolsey-Weiss's groupMultiple Losses Group
I am creating this site for the many of us who have suffered several losses. I lost my mom, dad, grandma(2nd mom), grandpa, my beloved dog and divorce.Many of us have lost more than one person or event.Come share!See More
morgan left a comment for Mannion13"Mannion,
I dont always have a moment to write to those who post a death that has affected the very fiber of their being and mainly I do it with those who have lost their spouse since that is the death that has affected me the most. But your…"
morgan left a comment for Lani M."Lani,
You have hit the nail we all wanted to miss. Nothing can hurt this bad. Nothing. I could never have imagined I would be as devastated, and for as long, as I have been. I have yet to be able to reconcile the anguish.…"
Joe Kelly left a comment for Lani M."Lani,
I wish I could give some comforting advice, but I know it's going to be hard. I lost my wife Jan. 21, 2018 to cancer. Join the "Lost My Spouse" group and read through some of the posts there. We share our feelings of…"
Lani M. left a comment for Lani M."How do I handle the holidays alone for the first time in 45 years?"
"Julie, my deepest condolences. My heart is with you. Hugs"
Joe Kelly commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse..."Today is the 2nd for me. Last year I stayed home alone because my Love was always so involved with it every year at my daughters house. Two years ago, we spent it alone together in the hospital. Again, Catch 22 because whether…"
Fran commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse..."Linda we share your pain here. It's been 5 years for me. I find myself increasingly pulling back, esp. at Holidays. I just wish family understood better that it's hard for us to celebrate anything. I don't wish this apathy on…"
"Today is the 7th year of not sharing Thanksgiving with my Husband. I will be spending it alone from now on. It is to hard to bear seeing everyone happy and I am tired of faking it."
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Hi Crystal, happy birthday. My birthday is also tomorrow and I also dream of my mom occasionally. I dreamed of her last night. She's been gone a little over a year and it's not gotten any better for me. I'm functioning, but I think of her all day every day.
just your story, why your are here, what you battle (anger, fear, etc)
Id love yo exchange stories sometime. Also Im working on a project for my masters degree and need to have contact with 5 people and ask them a few questions.
Crystal, like you, I talk to my mom daily. Whether she can hear me is unknown. I do believe God hears me, so I ask him to tell my mom how much I love her, miss her and wish I could see her to give her a hug. I'd give up everything I own to see her again