"Sending hugs to everyone today and tomorrow. Another year without my mom :( Missing her so much. "
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Crystal K
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When will the ache subsi…
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Traumatic, Sudden Loss
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I miss my Mom!
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Crystal K commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Hi guys just sending my love and prayers to everyone this holiday season. These times can be especially difficult. Im glad Thanksgiving is over. It wasnt a good day for me. My aloha to everyone ❤️❤️❤️ "
Crystal K commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Hi guys, its been awhile since I posted. Been really busy with work- guess thats a good thing because it means less time for me to dwell on things. My sister just found out she’s pregnant with her fourth kid. Really happy and excited for her,…"
Crystal K commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"The indifference is hard. I hate it when people ask me how Zim doing or how lifw is... I just want to scream at them “how do you think it is!” My boss constantly asks me and everytime I just respond with a “fine” or…"
Crystal K commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Hi guys I know I havent posted recently but I do keep up with all your posts. Still battling the same things. Ive decided to see a therapist to help me deal through my emotions. thinking of you all ❤️"
Crystal K commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Hi everyone, wanted to share this with you guys. Today is the one year anniversary of my mom’s death-and coming across this has helped make today a little more bearable. "
Crystal K commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Hi everone, wanted to share this with you guys. Its made today (the 1 year anniversary of my mom’s death) a lot easier. "
Crystal K commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Now Im more worried about my anger/resentment issues because its gotten to a point where I am so envious of others and Ive also avoided contact with family members because I havent forgiven them. And I know they must be going through their own guilt…"
Crystal K commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Brett, yes we do torture ourselves with guilt but like you said its so hard not too... I too feel so guilty over little things... I feel guilty just smiling sometimes... You’re right I do go longer periods now without thinking about my mother,…"
Crystal K commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Thank you guys. Happy birthday to your mom Theresa. Brett, I am dreaming of my mom less and less frequent. I wonder if it is our memories with them fading :( I thank God for pictures but sometimes I know I am slowly losing the…"
Joy left a comment for Crystal K"Hi Crystal, happy birthday. My birthday is also tomorrow and I also dream of my mom occasionally. I dreamed of her last night. She's been gone a little over a year and it's not gotten any better for me. I'm functioning, but I think of…"
Crystal K commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Hi guys, sorry I've been MIA for a while. You guys give me a lot of comfort but sometimes even being here is hard, talking to each other about our moms.
Bluebell, just read what you are going through! I hope you are feeling better!
I…"
Crystal K commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Hey all, how are you guys doing? Havent checked in in awhile, been pretty busy with work.. Guess its a good thing cause then Im not thinking about my mom constantly.. I wonder, when do we become comfortable when we’re alone? I feel like when…"
Crystal K commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Brett you always bring light to our darkest thoughts. I am so thankful to know you. I wrill try to tell myself that from now on, that my mom would want me to live. "
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- About my Loss:
- I lost the most important person to me 10 days after my 25th birthday- my mom. Still dealing with all the emotions that come with such a significant loss. Its hard, very hard. Life feels empty. I don't enjoy much anymore. Any joy I have is overcast with a dark cloud of sadness. I'm angry, and sad. I have lost others but nothing could prepare me for this.
Now I don't know what the word is to describe the amount of pain and abandonment I feel from losing my mom. Feel like I don't have anyone to rely on. Never was close to my dad. Sisters moved out 10 years ago so although I love them, I am not very close as I once was.
If it was possible I would exchange places with her in a heartbeat, not because of how painful it is- but so she could've lived longer and enjoyed her grandchildren (my sister's kids). She was such a selfless mother, grandmother, sister, caretaker- that she did not deserve to go out the way she did.
Comment Wall (4 comments)
- At 6:36pm on June 28, 2018,
Joy said… Hi Crystal, happy birthday. My birthday is also tomorrow and I also dream of my mom occasionally. I dreamed of her last night. She's been gone a little over a year and it's not gotten any better for me. I'm functioning, but I think of her all day every day.
- At 9:33pm on October 9, 2017,
Bryan Kelly Reeves said… just your story, why your are here, what you battle (anger, fear, etc)
- At 5:16pm on October 9, 2017, Bryan Kelly Reeves said…
Id love yo exchange stories sometime. Also Im working on a project for my masters degree and need to have contact with 5 people and ask them a few questions.
- At 7:23pm on September 20, 2017, Joy said…
Crystal, like you, I talk to my mom daily. Whether she can hear me is unknown. I do believe God hears me, so I ask him to tell my mom how much I love her, miss her and wish I could see her to give her a hug. I'd give up everything I own to see her again
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Brett Bowman commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Theresa, it's hard for me to be positive about anything. I always feel like something bad is right around the corner. That's because every time I thought mom was safe and had cleared another hurdle, something else would go wrong. It's…"
joe kelly commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse..."It's been a little bit since I shared but it seems like I'm just stuck, out of sync with everything included myself in a way. It's been like one long endless day. I don't know how to explain it even. I'm…"
Linda Engberg commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse..."Monty,
For some of us, we will always remain out of sync with the rest of world.
We, like myself. live in our own universe."
Theresa commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Brett you are right that is the "dark" side, it scares me too
That is so great about the phone call from the directors at the center, that must have made you feel like a million bucks.
You are making a positive impact, I know…"
Brett Bowman commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Avi, I actually looked up the EquoVox. I couldn't find an English link for it. I'll keep looking. I'm just really curious how it works. And I want you to make your own decisions. I just want you to be happy."
Brett Bowman commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"M, I'm half Catholic, and Theresa is 100% Catholic. This is a huge part of Catholicism. Ouiji boards just scare the crap out of me. I listened to a lecture series from a Vatican exorcists. There was a question and answer period. Someone asked…"
M Adams commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Brett, it gives me such a lift to hear about your new gig — sounds perfect! Lucky kids too, great when they can connect with an adult who also makes them laugh.
Your comment re the spirit world app that Avi came across brought back a…"
Brett Bowman commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Avi, things like that scare the crap out of me. I mean, how do you know that you are actually communicating with your mom, and not something bad? I believe that you may open yourself to something that may attach itself to you. That's just…"
Brenda Ann left a comment for Lisa"Dear Lisa,
I send you my heartfelt condolences as well as a welcome to our website. It is a safe place to come and talk or vent about your loss. Talking is very helpful in sorting out how to move forward. I would like to share a paragraph from what…"
Theresa commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"No we should not, God is the only communicator Avi, you are right.
We should not disturb the deceased, they are in peace, it is us who are not in peace.
I still struggle everyday, I just have come to recognize that this is my new life. "
Linda Engberg commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse..."Monty,
I m sure everyone on our forum had a very bad day. I just kept myself very busy all. Since I live in Florida and it is in the 70's I worked outside all day long. I feel Julian is with when I am outside. He knew I just loved the outdoors…"
Avi commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Hi Friends,
Few days back I came to know an app EquoVox which can help you communicate with your loved ones who are deceased. It seems be fake to me but have seen some videos on you tube people claiming its real. Did anybody on this group…"
Linda Engberg commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse..."Trina,
It is so true, my Julian and I celebrated everyday of our life together like you an Joseph. We were Blessed."
Trina Mamoon commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse..."Linda, thank you for the post. The words ring very true.
Today is Valentine’s Day, but fortunately for me, Joseph and I didn’t always celebrate on this day. We didn’t feel that we had to show our love and devotion on a specific day…"
Linda Engberg commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse..."Thanks everyone. I was upset that we couldn't share our posts, now I am fine. Thanks"
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