"Sending hugs to everyone today and tomorrow. Another year without my mom :( Missing her so much. "
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Crystal K
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When will the ache subsi…
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Crystal K commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Hi guys just sending my love and prayers to everyone this holiday season. These times can be especially difficult. Im glad Thanksgiving is over. It wasnt a good day for me. My aloha to everyone ❤️❤️❤️ "
Crystal K commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Hi guys, its been awhile since I posted. Been really busy with work- guess thats a good thing because it means less time for me to dwell on things. My sister just found out she’s pregnant with her fourth kid. Really happy and excited for her,…"
Crystal K commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"The indifference is hard. I hate it when people ask me how Zim doing or how lifw is... I just want to scream at them “how do you think it is!” My boss constantly asks me and everytime I just respond with a “fine” or…"
Crystal K commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Hi guys I know I havent posted recently but I do keep up with all your posts. Still battling the same things. Ive decided to see a therapist to help me deal through my emotions. thinking of you all ❤️"
Crystal K commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Hi everyone, wanted to share this with you guys. Today is the one year anniversary of my mom’s death-and coming across this has helped make today a little more bearable. "
Crystal K commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Hi everone, wanted to share this with you guys. Its made today (the 1 year anniversary of my mom’s death) a lot easier. "
Crystal K commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Now Im more worried about my anger/resentment issues because its gotten to a point where I am so envious of others and Ive also avoided contact with family members because I havent forgiven them. And I know they must be going through their own guilt…"
Crystal K commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Brett, yes we do torture ourselves with guilt but like you said its so hard not too... I too feel so guilty over little things... I feel guilty just smiling sometimes... You’re right I do go longer periods now without thinking about my mother,…"
Crystal K commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Thank you guys. Happy birthday to your mom Theresa. Brett, I am dreaming of my mom less and less frequent. I wonder if it is our memories with them fading :( I thank God for pictures but sometimes I know I am slowly losing the…"
Joy left a comment for Crystal K"Hi Crystal, happy birthday. My birthday is also tomorrow and I also dream of my mom occasionally. I dreamed of her last night. She's been gone a little over a year and it's not gotten any better for me. I'm functioning, but I think of…"
Crystal K commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Hi guys, sorry I've been MIA for a while. You guys give me a lot of comfort but sometimes even being here is hard, talking to each other about our moms.
Bluebell, just read what you are going through! I hope you are feeling better!
I…"
Crystal K commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Hey all, how are you guys doing? Havent checked in in awhile, been pretty busy with work.. Guess its a good thing cause then Im not thinking about my mom constantly.. I wonder, when do we become comfortable when we’re alone? I feel like when…"
Crystal K commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Brett you always bring light to our darkest thoughts. I am so thankful to know you. I wrill try to tell myself that from now on, that my mom would want me to live. "
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- About my Loss:
- I lost the most important person to me 10 days after my 25th birthday- my mom. Still dealing with all the emotions that come with such a significant loss. Its hard, very hard. Life feels empty. I don't enjoy much anymore. Any joy I have is overcast with a dark cloud of sadness. I'm angry, and sad. I have lost others but nothing could prepare me for this.
Now I don't know what the word is to describe the amount of pain and abandonment I feel from losing my mom. Feel like I don't have anyone to rely on. Never was close to my dad. Sisters moved out 10 years ago so although I love them, I am not very close as I once was.
If it was possible I would exchange places with her in a heartbeat, not because of how painful it is- but so she could've lived longer and enjoyed her grandchildren (my sister's kids). She was such a selfless mother, grandmother, sister, caretaker- that she did not deserve to go out the way she did.
Comment Wall (4 comments)
- At 6:36pm on June 28, 2018,
Joy said… Hi Crystal, happy birthday. My birthday is also tomorrow and I also dream of my mom occasionally. I dreamed of her last night. She's been gone a little over a year and it's not gotten any better for me. I'm functioning, but I think of her all day every day.
- At 9:33pm on October 9, 2017,
Bryan Kelly Reeves said…
just your story, why your are here, what you battle (anger, fear, etc)
- At 5:16pm on October 9, 2017,
Id love yo exchange stories sometime. Also Im working on a project for my masters degree and need to have contact with 5 people and ask them a few questions.
- At 7:23pm on September 20, 2017, Joy said…
Crystal, like you, I talk to my mom daily. Whether she can hear me is unknown. I do believe God hears me, so I ask him to tell my mom how much I love her, miss her and wish I could see her to give her a hug. I'd give up everything I own to see her again
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"Hello Friends,
As all of you have stated, I too fake my happiness. I laugh on the outside and am crying for him on the inside. I ache so bad that my Julian is not in my life. I just don't understand why God won't take me. Until he does, I…"
"Morgan. I wish I had answers but I am in the very same place. Lost, fake and hollow. I feel worse than I did a year ago I think because I thought I would feel better and don't. Empty and apathetic. I'm tired all the…"
"morgan,
I don't know why this has happened to us, our soulmates being torn from us, but it fucking sucks. Have you considered not acting happy and normal, since that isn't how you feel? Especially if acting that way isn't helping…"
morgan commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse..."Please somebody, tell me how I can continue to do this. I am so depressed. I get up every day and pretend. It's what is making me so depressed. It looks like I am functioning so normally. Now that I have learned…"
Avi commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Hi Danny. Surviving is art which we all need to practice. Today I met a friend whose father is witnessing the similar illness as my mother i.e. late stage cancer. He is also going through the same emotional turmoil as I went in 2018. After this…"
Danny replied to Carla Rose's discussion Lost my Mom a Few Days Ago in the group Lost Without My Mom"Great reply Sandra"
Danny commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Its been 5 years and here I am back on the site. Surviving and functioning but just about. "
M Adams commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Avi, that is so lovely to hear — best wishes to her and your family!"
Brett Bowman commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"That's wonderful, Avi. Congratulations. And I wish you another 100 years with her."
Sue Toler commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"I am so happy for you & your family. I am glad your daughter had a great birthday! That first birthday is always special. Take care, "
Avi commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Hi All,
Friends, my daughter's first bday celebration went great. She is now 1 year old and motivating force for my dad to live. My dad is able to laugh and enjoy life because of his grand daughter. Even I feel motivated to live so that I…"
Judy Pugh left a comment for Kevin's Mom"You are still Kevin’s mom, and you always will be. NOTHING, not even death, can change that. I don’t know what your beliefs are, and I’m not trying to shove my beliefs onto you. I just want you to know that I truly believe this is…"
"Teresa D.
the line is "Mama don't you cry for me, I'm sailing in eternity..."
Makes me feel emotional and happy that it resonates with you and that you remember it. <3"
"Kevin's mom I am so terribly sorry for your devastating loss. I lost my only child as well - Daniel - at age 17. That was 6 and a half years ago. I can't tell you how i made it through, but I have, one day at a time sometimes one minute at…"
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