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Crystal K
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When will the ache subsi…
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Traumatic, Sudden Loss
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caregiver
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I miss my Mom!
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Crystal K commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"The indifference is hard. I hate it when people ask me how Zim doing or how lifw is... I just want to scream at them “how do you think it is!” My boss constantly asks me and everytime I just respond with a “fine” or…"
Crystal K commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Hi guys I know I havent posted recently but I do keep up with all your posts. Still battling the same things. Ive decided to see a therapist to help me deal through my emotions. thinking of you all ❤️"
Crystal K commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Hi everyone, wanted to share this with you guys. Today is the one year anniversary of my mom’s death-and coming across this has helped make today a little more bearable. "
Crystal K commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Hi everone, wanted to share this with you guys. Its made today (the 1 year anniversary of my mom’s death) a lot easier. "
Crystal K commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Now Im more worried about my anger/resentment issues because its gotten to a point where I am so envious of others and Ive also avoided contact with family members because I havent forgiven them. And I know they must be going through their own guilt…"
Crystal K commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Brett, yes we do torture ourselves with guilt but like you said its so hard not too... I too feel so guilty over little things... I feel guilty just smiling sometimes... You’re right I do go longer periods now without thinking about my mother,…"
Crystal K commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Thank you guys. Happy birthday to your mom Theresa. Brett, I am dreaming of my mom less and less frequent. I wonder if it is our memories with them fading :( I thank God for pictures but sometimes I know I am slowly losing the…"
Joy left a comment for Crystal K"Hi Crystal, happy birthday. My birthday is also tomorrow and I also dream of my mom occasionally. I dreamed of her last night. She's been gone a little over a year and it's not gotten any better for me. I'm functioning, but I think of…"
Crystal K commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Hi guys, sorry I've been MIA for a while. You guys give me a lot of comfort but sometimes even being here is hard, talking to each other about our moms.
Bluebell, just read what you are going through! I hope you are feeling better!
I…"
Crystal K commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Hey all, how are you guys doing? Havent checked in in awhile, been pretty busy with work.. Guess its a good thing cause then Im not thinking about my mom constantly.. I wonder, when do we become comfortable when we’re alone? I feel like when…"
Crystal K commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Brett you always bring light to our darkest thoughts. I am so thankful to know you. I wrill try to tell myself that from now on, that my mom would want me to live. "
Crystal K commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Virginia, reading your posts was like going through all my feelings of guilt the first few weeks after my mom died. All the times I was horrible to her, the times I got frustrated when she wouldn't eat right or when I complained about…"
Crystal K commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Bluebell I am praying for you. We survived mother's day.
Last night was pretty bad for me. I was feeling anxious all day and cried myself to sleep. A bit glad though cause I got to see my mom, even if it was just in my…"
Crystal K commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Sending love to all of you this coming mother’s day♥️ "
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- About my Loss:
- I lost the most important person to me 10 days after my 25th birthday- my mom. Still dealing with all the emotions that come with such a significant loss. Its hard, very hard. Life feels empty. I don't enjoy much anymore. Any joy I have is overcast with a dark cloud of sadness. I'm angry, and sad. I have lost others but nothing could prepare me for this.
Now I don't know what the word is to describe the amount of pain and abandonment I feel from losing my mom. Feel like I don't have anyone to rely on. Never was close to my dad. Sisters moved out 10 years ago so although I love them, I am not very close as I once was.
If it was possible I would exchange places with her in a heartbeat, not because of how painful it is- but so she could've lived longer and enjoyed her grandchildren (my sister's kids). She was such a selfless mother, grandmother, sister, caretaker- that she did not deserve to go out the way she did.
Comment Wall (4 comments)
- At 6:36pm on June 28, 2018,
Joy said… Hi Crystal, happy birthday. My birthday is also tomorrow and I also dream of my mom occasionally. I dreamed of her last night. She's been gone a little over a year and it's not gotten any better for me. I'm functioning, but I think of her all day every day.
- At 9:33pm on October 9, 2017,
Bryan Kelly Reeves said… just your story, why your are here, what you battle (anger, fear, etc)
- At 5:16pm on October 9, 2017, Bryan Kelly Reeves said…
Id love yo exchange stories sometime. Also Im working on a project for my masters degree and need to have contact with 5 people and ask them a few questions.
- At 7:23pm on September 20, 2017, Joy said…
Crystal, like you, I talk to my mom daily. Whether she can hear me is unknown. I do believe God hears me, so I ask him to tell my mom how much I love her, miss her and wish I could see her to give her a hug. I'd give up everything I own to see her again
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I miss my Mom!
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bluebird replied to bluebird's discussion My husband died, and I will never want to live without him."Joe,
Thank you for your response, and for providing the link to your post about your NDE as well as describing it in more detail here. Although it's terrible that you were in that accident, in a way it was a blessing for you, in that it allows…"
Avi commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Lia, your post made me cry because I also feel similar.
I wish you all strength "
Bern commented on Kar's group Missing my Son or Daughter"2012 September 30th. This fight is real. My only son was shot in the head. The girl and her brother were in the house when it happened. The told police that they were playing with the gun. Well a sister and brother will die and go to hell or heaven…"
Teresa D. commented on Kar's group Missing my Son or Daughter"Judy sometimes I feel the same way...why do some who don't deserve to live get to while our kids didn't. And sometimes when I hear others use that word, "miracle" it upsets me too."
Teresa D. commented on Kar's group Missing my Son or Daughter"Connie forgive me if I screw this up but the line, "Don't cry for me, cause I live in eternity" runs through me head all the time."
Teresa D. commented on Kar's group Missing my Son or Daughter"Connie what a beautiful gift!!!!! That was Daniel, letting you know he's there. "
Teresa D. commented on Kar's group Missing my Son or Daughter"Ginger I left all my sons pictures right where they were I need to see them. "
Teresa D. commented on Kar's group Missing my Son or Daughter"It's been a while since I've checked in. I'm actually melting down right now. Don't know what brought it on but can't seem to stop. I miss everyone and think of all of you all the time.
Michael's…"
Brett Bowman commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Lia, a few lost minutes cannot compete with a lifetime of love that you shared with your mom."
Lia Lynch commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Hi there. Brett, you were (are) totally right -- I was and think I still am in shock. There was so much to do, and with my kid to take care of, I wasn't processing. At all.
Still not. I didn't get to say goodbye. She was in a…"
M Adams commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"As Brett suggests, you sure can be griefstricken without feelings of guilt -- for me guilt doesn't seem relevant to my deep sadness about losing my mother. It's more a combination of loneliness, shock, emptiness, disappointment…"
BLUEBELL commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Seems like we all have our regrets and sadness that we live with every day. But I have noticed for myself that though I still have them, they have softened over time.
Bluebell
On a different subject I want to celebrate this morning of being able to…"
Theresa commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Brett, me too, the only guilt I have is if I did not stop at her house for three minutes, I would have been there, but I was not.
I say it everyday why did I do that..."
Virginia G posted a blog postNo reason to live
No happiness. Nothing to look forward to. Constant pain. Memories everywhere and longing to be able to make more or even talk about them. Scared, needing answers, anxious, lost, angry, devastated, guilt ridden. how could life be so cruel? It’s just not possible.See More
Virginia G commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Avi, what is what’s app? I don’t have a smart phone."
Virginia G commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"The pain seems to get worse everyday. I guess the numbness is starting to wear off. I need God to listen to me. I can’t live like this."
M Adams posted a blog postIn black and white
Today I had to respond to several emails and repeatedly write down that my mother is dead. Finding it very hard to keep writing the words, so hard that it took several days of tearful effort to complete the three most pressing responses. Finally got them done. I just miss my mother so much. I hate picking up the phone now because some part of me still expects her voice at the other end of the line. I feel wounded by family and friends who are grieving so differently from me, who are keen to…See More
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