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stewart p commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"like to share an inspirational story I just read about hope and the…"
Jun 4
stewart p commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"Maxey, you description of a sailboat adrift in the sea describes how i feel everyday.  You said something that caught my eye when you mentioned "trying to fill the void".  May I suggest to stop trying to fill the void and begin…"
Jan 5, 2018
stewart p commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"Ive spent the last few years forcing myself to get up, get out and get going and nothing I do will "make it better".  It is what it is and Ive come to realize the only thing I can do is change how I deal with it.  Its a new a way…"
Dec 30, 2017
stewart p is now friends with Michaela waldier and Amy
Dec 30, 2017
stewart p commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"I'm trying dancing lessons for a few months, always thought it would be neat and I cant dance worth 2 cents, for now.  If nothing else it helps keep me busy, distracted and finding something different to do, otherwise its too easy to sit…"
Dec 30, 2017
stewart p commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"I’d like to just to jump back on here for a moment share a little bit, because I care about all of those here who I share a unique bond with.  I realize some may disagree while someone else might gain some renewed hope or encouragement…"
Dec 19, 2017
stewart p commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"BUT, I kept making myself do it, exercising, going for walks, bike rides, take the dog to the park, eventually began speaking before groups, found a new job I like and next month I will begin taking dance lessons.  Ive also met a very nice…"
Dec 19, 2017
stewart p commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"Linda Engberg your talking about that poem?  Thanks though I can take no credit it for it.  I was bingeing on netflix again watching SOA for like the 4th time in a row, it gets kind of boring but its one of the few things I find takes my…"
Nov 2, 2017
stewart p commented on Julie Dolsey-Weiss's group Traumatic, Sudden Loss
"Crystal, sorry to hear about you mum.  I can say from my own experience, would of, should of, could of is not worth the time and energy it takes to ponder.  Just ask yourself if what you did or think you didn't do you then, did you do…"
Oct 12, 2017
stewart p commented on Julie Dolsey-Weiss's group Traumatic, Sudden Loss
"i take it back, Im downright pissed and sometimes hate life.  I had to say goodbye and I never got to say goodbye, somehow that just isnt right, and Im left struggling with it each GD day of my life"
Oct 8, 2017
stewart p commented on Julie Dolsey-Weiss's group Traumatic, Sudden Loss
"Nearly 5 years coming up and not much new to say.  Use to post on here a lot the first couple of years, notice a lot of new faces, Id say welcome but this isn't the sort of place you want to come to, more out of quiet desperation or…"
Oct 8, 2017
stewart p commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"I use to post on here a lot first couple of years, now nearly 5 years later lots of new faces, anyway thought Id drop in and just post this.  Ive junked out on Netflix ever since just for a distraction, watching one of my favorites for …"
Oct 6, 2017
stewart p commented on Julie Dolsey-Weiss's group Traumatic, Sudden Loss
"karen stephenson you just do, one day at a time, it sucks, its horrible, it stinks and nothing good about it but you go through it and in the process something happens that changes nearly everything you ever thought about life before if you let it…"
May 4, 2017
stewart p commented on Julie Dolsey-Weiss's group Traumatic, Sudden Loss
"Coming up on 4 years for me after being married 23 and have my world shaken apart all in lousy piece of sh5%t night.  It is hard, up and down and all around, one day better, next day worst.  Ive been to bereavement groups, counseling, no…"
May 4, 2017
stewart p commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"I got a new dog a couple years back and went for another walk in a park where my wife and I werent able to go hike at because of her health problems before she died.  It was actually fun and I dont remember thinking even second about her, just…"
Jan 25, 2017
stewart p commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"Bluebird, I agree and maybe Ill have to try the friend route more again, its just regardless of whether its with friends, a date a job, a coworker, relatives i find myself generally choosing to stay at home alone, even over the holidays.  I…"
Jan 23, 2017

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i am 52, father of 2 boys age 20 and 17 lost my wife on june 14/2013 suddenly and unexpectedly to a prescription drug overdose
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lost my wife of 23 years on June 14/2013 suddenly and unexpectedly to a prescription drug overdose

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What do the birds mean

I can relate completely to every step in your day as if it were yesterday, its been almost 2 years now for me and I can say that I still go through many of the things as before, just as you describe them, but not as much and as frequently.  I still see a counselor but infrequently, I lay around in bed but less often, and I do sleep through the night most often and only wake up once in a while at 4.  I prefer to sleep because I often dream about my wife and i prefer that over being awake.  Im…

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At 1:29am on August 15, 2015, rachel_micele said…

Hi Stewart,

I'm glad to see your latest posts. I saved a post of yours written in May of last year and was actually looking for your profile about a month ago but couldn't find it. I thought maybe you left the site or something. Just really liked hearing, as someone further along this road of hell, your practical suggestions, words of encouragement, insight, etc. 

So that's all. Just glad you're still here and thank your for writing about the details of your journey.

 
 
 

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How do I begin to thank you for the life you have given me. A life that included 4 loving children, 4 beautiful grandchildren and memories that will last forever.We had more then the romantic love we had when we first met almost 40 years ago. That fades with time. Through the ups and downs, fights and reconciliations, laughter and tears we had something more. We had true love, commitment, trust, and most importantly we had friendship. Since 1975 we have been together to celebrate every…See More
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dream moon JO B replied to Amy's discussion How do I get unstuck?
"so sorry on yore loss u can olnly do it wen u reddyy i no i had a loto of set bacs i di d but we all difnro peplee we is i no in 2018 i fondmy slf goin 2 spirtlastt churchh for ansesrd in steds of try  to seak medims lk a fe wpeplee do on…"
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"i hateeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee bigc i hateeeeeeeeeeeeee lozzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz coz of big c im 44 sean somushh siffin sorry if im rantin justt i need 2 let go coz of big c lpluss othr illness 2 i do "
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dream moon JO B commented on Katherine Ellis's group Losing Someone to Cancer
"i do not luv bigc now iv fw mro frinds its got termil big c sum few yrs oldr thnme just undr 50  few peppel weari livs gotbig c' wish i cud shoot big c lk dem/ALZ in to md of nowear sp no 1 cud get it'"
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morgan commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"Part 1 Bless you and thanks to each one of you who keep writing about how you feel and how you cope.  I always feel support knowing I am not alone.  What I don't get (and not that any one of us can give it) is the answer to how I can…"
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