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This is for anyone who has lost somone to cancer. I lost my adopted Mom to breast cancer some years ago. She was everything I could have asked for. She loved me because I was just me. She also loved my family and children as if they were her own.
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Mariann,
God be with you. remember where strength comes from. Inside.God bless.
Almost 2 months now since Cara left. I've not been able to get here as often as I'd like to write due to trying to get my business revitalized with a new service line. I decided to go into digital publishing, given my background.
I still hurt daily, many, many times over. Still no car, very little, but solid contact with the kids. Appetite is up some. The new apartment is starting to take shape. I've put in a small altar with memories of Cara on it. Behind that is the new wall of crosses (Cara started this tradition several years ago), including one blessed by the Trappist monks that built her casket. It was just like the one we buried her mother in 3 years ago. Cara is right next to her Mom now, both here on earth and in Heaven.
So, this is probably not appropriate, but it occurred to me that we who have lost someone so dear may wish to put together letters, writings, photos, etc. into a book to share with others or to just remember. I know the kids, her brother, and I are finishing her childrens book "DreamQuilt" for sale & distribution to Hospice providers as a guided meditation for children facing what we have faced, and I intend to put her poetry, letters, short stories, etc., into a book. If anyone here were interested, I'd be happy to discuss how these kind of things can be done privately.
We all hurt so deeply. We need to remember to think of the amount of hurt we feel is directly inverse to the level of Love we had for those we lost. When you move it to the positive, Love, it's easier to remember how we loved them, why we loved them, and how we will remember them.
pacis exsisto unto vos totus
Dear Mariann and Jackie -
Mariann I am so sorry for your loss; I cannot imagine losing one of my children. Jackie, yeah, why indeed? Sometimes it just sucks. Hang in there.
I will write more later about this.This is new for me as all of you .I pray to God everyday to give me strength to go on and be strong.One thing i really don't tlike is when they say "at least she is not suffering" she was fighting for her life....I miss you Becky so much and I love you<3
Donna - first of all, thank you for validating my feelings and agreeing that the best way is to just let them out.
I am sorry that even your family seems so distant especially now when you need family. Some of it may be that we, as women, are nurturers, and men, well, men have been taught all of their lives by society not to let their feelings show. So they tend to shove them down. Not all men; but a lot of them. It sounds like you all could really benefit from some family therapy together; but I suspect you'd never get your dad and your brother to join you in that endeavor! But you might be able to get your husband to go with you to couple's counseling. A good therapist who works with couples can really make a huge difference in a relationship. I know because not only am I a therapist, but years ago I dragged my husband to couple's therapy, and we stayed in it for close to two years; it helped us both with communication, but more importantly, it help my husband see how so many of our behaviors and deeper feelings are carry overs from childhood. If it's too much for you to cope with helping your dad right now, then find a good financial planner who you trust to take over taking care of his bills and his investments, etc. Don't put too much on yourself right now; your job is to heal and take care of YOU! I hope you are getting good support, even if it's outside of the family. I"m sorry about the loss of you mom; I'm sending hugs to help you feel held.
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