mercy how the heck are you, we havent talked in a long time....send me a message hun, i miss you....im on facebook too....look me up....maybe we can play some games or something... my mom's birthday is coming up, a hard day for me....I MISS YOU!
i miss you girl, and the anniversary of my mom's death is coming....hard times....but im trying to move through it....i love you and when my phone works up and running i will talk to you on the phone if you want....my email is RCHSCHL6@AOL.COM....I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU!
When I read this I thought of you. You have been suffering for so long. I am so sad about your brother. Remember to have faith in your God! Sometimes it is all we have. You are a wonderful, loving woman. You have been such a wonderful compassionate friend to so many of us here. I am sending you my energy and my love to carry you through one second at a time. Love Sue
We learn so much about ourselves on the road to recovery after loss. Not all of it is good, but all of it is important. I don't think there is a more important lesson that the souls can teach us, than to learn how to forgive ourselves for whatever we have done to ourselves and those around us because we are in pain. We can't hope to move on to a perfect world if can't see the importance of setting ourselves free from guilt, from anger and from pain. To forgive ourselves is to fix the soul, and lighten the load here just enough to be able to continue our journey of hope. – George Anderson
mercy honey you dont have to thank me, we have gone through similar stuff and you are a very very sweet and good person and im sorry you've been sick.....you dont have to send a gift....i think the wedding is going to be in June....but my address is 256 third street, 2nd floor, hanover, pa 17331....rachel schuler....my phone is 717-634-2050 so you have it when things get bad, thanks for thinking im such a great person so are you and we can support each other and be the best of friends....love you girl....write me
Hi Mercy, thank-you for your kind comment. I'm so sorry that you lost both your mom and your brother. That's a double whammy, but it sounds like you're making great strides with getting through it. I'm so happy to hear you have a daughter. I have a feeling the two of you will be best of friends and she'll be the source of so many wonderful days ahead. She's definitely one great big reason to be alive and well. I also live in the Nashville area and I was seeing a grief counselor for awhile and she's the one who told me about the Alive Hospice, so I hope you'll try it. Anyway, I hope you're having a good day and hang in there! You've got so much going for you already and I feel a lot of positive things are coming your way!
Thank you, Mercy for your kind words, in the midst of your own suffering. I'm so sorry you are so alone in your grief and that your husband is no help! Maybe you can find a support group, or some people who at least have been there and can understand. My issues aren't with my parents, but as I told you, my sister in law and brother, but I know this too, shall pass.
Life goes on. My grandmother always said things have a way of working out in the end. So be it.
Take good care of yourself; you are loved and needed.
Hi, I saw your comment about Thanksgiving and can totally relate.I lost my mom to cancer almost 2 years ago and that whole spiel people say about time healing is BS. As long as I am living, I will miss my mom who was my best friend. You have a lot of connections that are the same as me. I lived in Antioch as a little kid and my sister's birthday is May 28. The positive thing I focus on is my children, but even that makes me sad b/c I think of all what my mom is missing out on!
hey baby, its been awhile, i have not been up to being on the computer or doing much of everything, but i think i told you that i found a guy, and he is great, but we have yet to meet in person....i hope all goes well, it could be "it"....im excited....wish me luck...i think of mom, but she would be happy for me....have had alot of hard times recently, and wished she was here, but she is, in spirit....i carry her with me always....hope you are good, let me know how you are, you can email, even yahoo me baby, anytime you want, im on there alot too....would love to talk one on one sometime....love, rachel
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