Jan - I just read your post. I surely agree with what you stated about that dreaded disease breaking you in every way having to deal with a loved one going through that. I lost my oldest daughter, 35, to pancreatic cancer December 2010. She was married only 4 years and her only son turned 3 years last April. Having raised her and her younger brother as a single parent left me feeling absolutely helpless to do anything for her. Having her little boy grow up without her is tragic. I am so sorry you are going through all the pain. You and all on this site will be in my prayers. Take care.
I am so sorry to hear about your wife. And I am really sorry to hear that you had such a roller coaster of emotions with the supposed misdiagnosis to come right back around. What a nightmare. I too am where you are. I lost my 55 year old mother to lung cancer on Jan 22. She never smoked a day in her life, but got lung cancer, go figure. She was so healthy, it just doesn't make sense. But I don't think cancer ever does, it such a vicious diesease. My mom was not just my mom, but my best friend and we shared a really close bond. Words can't describe the pain in my heart, but I know you know what I mean. Its been 4 months now and my heart hurts more than ever. I pray that I will learn to cope better one day. It is so hard and no one understands unless they have been through it. I will keep you in my prayers. My mom was from England. I saw you said you were trying to go to the UK. Anyways, just wanted to let you know I am sorry and I hope this website helps you. I've been reading a lot. It has been helping. Hugs ((()))K
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