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Comment by BLUEBELL on April 1, 2017 at 10:30am

Anxiety is tough Theresa.  I also battle with it. I never told my Mom about it though, and I am grateful I did not. Otherwise I would want to go to her for comforting and advise.

It was a tearful day for me on Thursday. Relatives came from out of town to Mom's home. My sister and I wanted them to have things of Mom's that "spoke" to them. One found a few pieces of costume jewelry she wanted and the other, her collection of turtle figures. Though I am happy these items are with them instead of being sold at an estate sale, it was sad. It brought to the forefront of my mind the finality of it all.

What did make me happy was that one took cuttings from her Jacob's Tears tree and the other cutting from her succulents. Symbolically, it is as if a part of her will still be alive and growing.

I  miss my Mom every day, and I am not done shedding a sea of tears over her loss. Sometimes I wonder how I am going to go on without her. But I know she would what me to be happy in this life, so I am trying. But if I can't be happy or at least content, I know she would understand and forgive me.

Comment by Theresa on April 1, 2017 at 6:04am

Nancy, I am also happy my mom is with our Lord, but its so hard for me because my mom was not ill.

But as we all know our time is when he decides, but I miss her so every minute of the day.

I remember 17 years ago when my dad died, he was very sick and when he passed I was at peace because he was not in pain any longer.

I just can't seem to move past my moms death, I have faith and pray everyday, but the sadness is overwhelming.

My anxiety is over the edge, I am doing everything to talk myself out of it, but since I am a high strung person anyway with generalized anxiety disorder this has been tough.

Comment by Leila on March 31, 2017 at 10:20pm

Theresa, Bluebell, Stephanie, Tanya, and Paula,
You are all on my thoughts and prayers. My mom will be gone 2 years on April 18. I am one of those people who still yearn for my mom despite the passage of time. I miss her every day, every minute, though I am happy for her that she is with The Lord and her suffering is ended. I just wish she could be well and still here. Sometimes I wish for a time machine so I could go back to childhood and just start over as her little girl again. I don't feel as safe in the world without my mom.

Comment by Theresa on March 31, 2017 at 5:44pm

Bluebell I try everyday, but I just feel like crying maybe too much.

Its been one year and three months, its so hard without her to call or to go to her house.

I pray everyday things get better.

Comment by BLUEBELL on March 31, 2017 at 9:10am

I am sorry for your loss Stephanie. I too lost my Mom last month on Valentines Day. I share the same feelings as you. The intensity of your grief will diminish over time. But the love you have for your Mother will always be there.

Take care of yourself. Get up in the morning and find something that brings you happiness. It can be something small, like looking at a beautiful flower.

Blue

Comment by Theresa on March 31, 2017 at 5:21am

So sorry for your loss Stephanie

Comment by Stephanie Maines on March 30, 2017 at 8:49pm

I lost my mom a little over a month ago. My whole world feels like it has been turned upside down. My heart aches so much. It is all consuming

Comment by BLUEBELL on March 27, 2017 at 3:01pm

I am sad right now. I miss my Mom. I miss my life the way it used to be when she was around. I also do not like having to go through these intense feelings of loss. 

This morning I was thinking, I wish I felt like somebody loved me as much as I loved my Mom. 

Blue

Comment by Tanya on March 27, 2017 at 8:59am

Paula, I think about something similar with my daughter, that if I don't constantly talk about my mom, I'm afraid she will forget her.

Theresa, all the special days are much harder because these are the times you would hear from your mom and do something.

People have said that it gets easier.  I don't know if that is the case for everyone, some people have a true longing for their missed loved one that never goes away and with some it becomes harder to deal with the loss.

I have a voicemail from my mom and she tells me she loves me on it.  I would listen to it everyday because I was afraid that I would forget her voice but I torment myself listening because it upsets me she is gone.

I think everyone's path for grieving may have some similarities but can also be very different.

It's been one year that my mom has been gone on April 5th and I still find myself going to call my sister and ask her where mom is and than instantly I remember.

Thinking of you all as we share a profound loss, our Mother.

Comment by Theresa on March 27, 2017 at 5:48am

Today I was laying in bed thinking why can't I just have a dream of my mom saying Happy Birthday, but nothing.

This will be my second Birthday without her, I have saved some cards and I read them and then cry.

:(

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