"Crystal and thinking of why did he not send her to the hospital when he saw her in the office on Friday, I guess she had us all fooled. My mom can come off as "I'm fine" and go about her business
He should have sent her right to the…"
"Crystal, please, my mom didn't feel well for two days prior to going in cardiac arrest, I was at work, did I go up to see her NO, her doctor, told her to go home and take a laxative, really? I thought nothing of what was occurring,…"
"Luisa, the first year after my mom died I walked around in a haze a fog, it was awful
I used to practice yoga five days a week and I recently just quit after ten years, I just have no interest
I am not nice I tell people like it is even if it is not…"
"Brett, I am so sorry, I know how horrible losing a pet can be, especially one as special as yours was to you.
You and I both know your mom was right there waiting for her, calling her name.
She is at peace, but I know it hurts.
I am very sorry for…"
"Hi everyone, Bluebell I am glad that it is getting easier to get through the day, but you are right we will never truly move on.
For some reason today was a bad one for me, my mom was on my mind alot. I guess because I used to go there every…"
"I know the coffee cup sounds odd, but the girl that owns the small diner told me my mom would only drink out of the same ceramic cup and sit in the same seat everyday, who know what she was thinking!"
"I purchased a material box with a zipper and in it I put, moms handbag with everything in it just the was it was, the clothes and shoes she wore to the hospital the day she died, her coffee cup from the diner her and her friends used to meet at…"
"I have been working so much that I am exhausted at night so I go right to sleep, I work as a buyer for an upscale jewelry store, and it gets super busy there. It does occupy my mind for most of the day, I might feel anxious with my mind racing…"
"Brett you are right I tried to wean off too early, the anxiety is back.
I also have wonderful memories, some of going shopping some of going to the shore every year when I was a child, many more.
I wonder how long it will take to find happiness…"
"Brett you are so fortunate to have made your mom proud until the end.
You should have not regrets, our moms still are the key to our happiness, they made us who we are, we are a part of them always.
Each night I ask the same question, mom I know it…"
Very sudden, Thursday mom said she felt constipated, Friday same to the dr, xray no obstruction, Saturday called dr he told her go to hospital, she called me I told her I would meet her there this was at 8:45am, as I was pulling in the hospital parking lot I got a call from them stating "your mother is in FULL CARDIAC ARREST" do you want us to do CPR.......that was it, I did not get there to say goodbye, I love you, nothing. We were very close I went there every Sunday, we talked at least ten times a day and every night before bed. There are no words to describe how I feel.....
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Theresa, I hope things get better for you. Don't blame yourself for not seeing that something was wrong. I'm sure you would've done everything in your power to help your mom had you known. The love between you and your mom will last forever and that love will carry you through. I cry everyday too. I hate the anxiety and the loneliness and that my life has been turned upside down but I have to get through it somehow.
"Well, the finality of it all has set in;recieved my hunni's ashes and death cert finally from Alaska.He's been gone 9 weeks. Im no longer angry,im moving towards finding a happy medium, didnt have the luxery of laying around in defeat,have…"
"I was so glad that I was able to do everything my mom needed as a caretaker but that did not make her death any easier. I still lost her. I still have the finality of death in my mind that hits me every day like a sledge hammer. And it's the…"
Life is so hard and it's definitely not fair. No one should ever have to lose their Mom at any age.
My mom has been gone for 20 months and I still miss her terribly and I do still talk to her out loud in my car. It makes me…"
"I’m so sorry Ashley, your situation sounds truly horrendous, life seems so unfair. My husband died from suicide on 29/30 September; I have the uncertainty because he disappeared for a night and wasn’t found until the next day, so…"
I’ve not been on here for a while, it’s been so hard just trying to get through the days; keeping myself busy, trying desperately hard not to think about things and often failing miserably. I’m so tired of feeling so shitty all the time. I had my first session with a counsellor today, after feeling initially nervous and not wanting to say much everything came out and I cried like a baby. I feel absolutely drained now and very emotional. So my question is this, does counselling really help or…See More
""All I want, like most of the rest of you, is to reunite with my husband. I want to know he is ok. I want to hold him again. I want his love. The sooner the better." Morgan's words, simple yet so profound,…"
"Bluebird, I find myself wanting to kick over tables or throw something hard at times and yet my old catholic upbringing kicks in and disallows me to act out but I get the same feelings. In the beginning I used to kick a cardboard box a…"
"I really don't know what to say Ashley. I'm so sorry. There is some kind of weirdness in this universe that seems to have its way with us when we are not at all prepared for how to handle it. Death by any means is hard to…"
My daddy was a us navy veteran who brutually killed himself on September 27, 2017 at the age of 51.My Daddy had become really emotionally sick in recent years. He was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia. Which of course he didn't believe because he thought that was the Va trying to control him. He became really hard to be around as he has these crazy conspiracy theories and he heard and saw things that didn't exist that proved to him he was right. Then he started believing people were out to…See More
"And along with being incredibly sad all the time, I am also very angry, all the time. Right now I want to jump out of my fucking skin, I want to punch everything, I want to yell and scream. I can't even contain this level of anger;…"
As bad as I feel now, I do not look forward to the holidays as this will be the first holiday season without my beloved wife. We also met on a New Year's Eve and I am really dreading that day. I can't see myself lasting years on…"
"Same here; I feel just like morgan and everyone else. My husband died five years ago, and my "life" is no better -- in many ways, it is worse, both as a result of his death and due to other factors. For me, the pain of his death, of…"
I lost my mum in September. She was subject to elderly abuse by my older sister. I dont know where to start from. The anger and rage I have for my elder sister, its not funny. I try to get the vision out of my head, and how she treated my mother. The pain is excruciating that i feel, I need to join my mother. I spent a week in the crises centre. I hope this grief and anger passes.Question: how do I accept or come to terms with the matter.I do have evidence supported by my other siblings. The…See More