BLUEBELL
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Lost my Mom
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I am new here. I lost my Mom on Valentines Day. There is a void in my life  that I need to figure out how to fill. I have been her caregiver for the past 3 years and she has been the center point of…Continue

Started this discussion. Last reply by Jennifer Mar 12.

 

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BLUEBELL commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"Another bad day. I was shopping for Christmas cards and gift bags when without warning, I broke down in tears at the register. Thank goodness the cashier was a sensitive caring person and did not just blow me off. She said "Your Mom will always…"
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BLUEBELL commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"I wish I could reach out and touch her again. I miss her. Bluebell"
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BLUEBELL commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"I do not feel very peaceful today. Lots of tears this morning because my sister and I are going to decorate Mom's Christmas tree for our get together at Mom's home on Christmas. But the sadness is mixed with good memories of when she was…"
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BLUEBELL commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"I read your post again Theresa. What a shock. I am so sorry. Bluebell"
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BLUEBELL commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"They do have peace now and that does give me comfort on the bad days. Bluebell"
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BLUEBELL commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"I have been blessed off  and on this holiday season to feel a sense of comfort because I feel wrapped up and warmed by my Mother's love. I feel her loving spirit around me. I am glad she is sharing that part of herself with me. Mom, as…"
Dec 9
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BLUEBELL commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"I am sorry Theresa. What a horribly, insensitive medical professional. It does not matter how old they are. It still hurts like H E double L to loose them.  Bluebell"
Dec 7
BLUEBELL commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"This  about sums up where I am at emotionally....the holidays are heart wrenching. Tearful days. Hard nights. Feeling alone. And at the same time with all this inner upheaval, I expect myself and others expect me to function like everything is…"
Dec 7
BLUEBELL commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"What you wrote was from your heart Brett. Thank you. Bluebell"
Dec 6
BLUEBELL commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"Crystal, I understand the guilt Crystal because I too suffer from the "what if I had just....". I have to remind myself that when God calls our loved ones home, they go. It is not within our power to stop it nor should it be. But that…"
Dec 6
BLUEBELL commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"Crystal, I can relate to feeling alone. Though I rarely went to Mom for comfort or advise, just having her near made me feel safe and whole. Now I feel like a part of me is gone. Bluebell"
Dec 4
BLUEBELL commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"I am so sorry Luisa.  Bluebell"
Dec 3
BLUEBELL commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"I have apologized to my Mom over and over again for indicating to her that she needed to try hard to recover the night before she died. I hope she has forgiven me. I was so torn between letting her go and the hope that somehow she would bounce back…"
Dec 3
BLUEBELL commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"I am not a selfless person even though my last post may have come across that way. I did not want my Mom to pass away, EVER. It does console me that she is now free of pain and has peace. But for myself, I am still in emotional pain a lot of the…"
Dec 3
BLUEBELL commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"What was heartbreaking for me was that when Mom was in the hospital for the last time, the day before she came home on Hospice, she was recovering and she was to be discharged. But over night, she took a big turn for the worse and I knew in my heart…"
Dec 3

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Loss of mother as an adult

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At 12:54pm on August 25, 2017, Brett Bowman gave BLUEBELL a gift
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You may be on the other side of the country but I know that a prayer can reach that far. God Bless you.
At 4:46pm on August 15, 2017, Joy said…

Bluebell, your post is identical to my feelings and I'm sure others. I try to stay extra busy, distracted so I don't think about my loss. But as you say, grief always catches up. It caught up with me at 2am this morning and I couldn't go back to sleep right away. It caught up with me again while I was sitting in my office at work, it caught up with me again while I'm in my car driving home. My heart is broken too and I don't think anything can fix that.

I hope you find the purpose you are seeking. I haven't found it yet.

At 5:32pm on July 25, 2017, Panda said…
Hi bluebell I'm so sorry about what happened. This will be the first Christmas without my mom too but you can get through this. I know it's hard but I know you can get through it. Stay strong. She's watching over you and she's in a better place now out of pain. Hugs <3
At 7:06pm on July 24, 2017, Heather said…
Bluebell could you check my comment wall? The young girl that posted today, panda sounds really distraught and am concerned about her. She commented that she didn't want to be here anymore and said that no one wants her. Not sure what to do since she lives somewhere in Cranston, USA and I live in Canada. Can I contact the administrator of this site? Can't get her words out of my head and am worried about her:(. If you have time can you let me know your thoughts? Thank you
Heather
At 10:10am on May 2, 2017, Tasha said…
Thank you for such kind words. God bless
At 6:12pm on February 28, 2017, Heather said…
So sorry for your loss of your Mom...please know that you are wished much strength always. Take good care of yourself...
 
 
 

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"Bluebell, my thoughts and prayers are with you. My brother called me the other day and he said are you ok? There is a twenty year age difference between us, so we are not that close and he lives five hours away. I said to him, yes I though you would…"
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"Alice, I am so sorry, I know you holidays will never be the same again, we just make the best of it. "
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Alice Thompson commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"I feel the same. My love had a comprehensive stroke on 22 December, and died in hospital at 10pm on New Years Eve. Then I went “home” in a taxi amid fireworks."
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