I'm so sorry for your loss. I loss my moma who was only 63 last July to a massive heart attack. She was perfectly fine one day and gone the very next. Every day is like a roller coaster physically and…"
"I understand about your family not understanding. I am in my early thirties so I really don't have anyone who can relate including my husband who still has both of his parents. You will cry (a lot) and at very odd times. I had…"
I am so very sorry for your loss. I too lost my Moma very unexpectedly. It was one year ago this week. I wish I had some magical advice for you but I don't. I am still a mess to be perfectly honest w/ you. …"
I know how you feel- I felt the same way on my birthday. My moma always made my birthday so special. It will never be the same. A very special aunt did remind me of how much my moma loved me and how she had never seen my…"
I can't even imagine enduring what you are going through and mourning your ma at the same time. I am proud that you are standing your ground. It takes quite a really strong person to keep moving forward. Keep us…"
I'm glad to hear your chest pains are letting up a little bit. It sounds like we are having a lot of the same physical problems (ie chest pains & bad indigestion). It sucks. I only think about myself…"
OMG- I really understand about being sick and the chest pains (sorry if we have talked about this before but they are all consuming for me). I was almost hospitalized w/ 5 infections in December, I keep getting upper respiratory…"
I'm so sorry for all of the terrible losses that you have experienced. I cannot even being to imagine what you are going through or how you cope. I admire your ability to get up and fight another day. I miss my…"
I'm so glad you did get to say goodbye to your mom. I hope that gives you a little peace in your heart. I wore a shirt of my mom's yesterday that I hadn't washed just so I could have her w/ me and still smell…"
I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my moma to a massive heart attack on 7/26/10. We had absolutely no warning. She thought she was having a flare up w/ her ulcer. I spoke w/ her a little bit after 5 that Sunday and…"
"Wow- you have really hit the nail on the head....that's how it was w/ my Moma. I went to her for everything and she always had the best advise. She was my moma, best friend, mentor, confidant.....the list could go on forever. …"
"Rachel Lynn- that was such a beautiful poem. I can so see my moma fluffing up clouds now. It will make me think a little differently every time I see a cloud. It also makes me remember laying out in the sun w/ my moma (before you…"
"It's so wonderful that you are all able to go to church. My dad and I went back 2 weeks after my Moma's passing. I really needed to be there. I too miss going back to my parents house and spending the remainder of the day…"
Thank you for your concern regarding the chest pains. Sadly I am STILL having them. I have had several EKG's and an echocardiogram. A cardiologist said he did not think I have anything heart related going on. I…"
"This website is like a secret world we inhabit where the platitudes and scorn for not fitting in are understood as hogwash. We know better than anyone on the outside of our grief how this has affected us. I am so tired of being labeled…"
"I,m grateful that I found this site. It's sort of like besides my family, you all are the only friends I have left. I do have a couple that are long distance, but don't get to see them very often. All my so called local…"
"Morgan & Joe,
Thanks for sharing your thoughts. You put into words the horror I go through everyday. Going on year 7 without my Husband Julian. He was my whole life and I want to be with him but I can't. If I didn't believe in God I…"
"Joe, 49 years is a long time. Long enough to embed yourself in each other and there is nothing that will soothe the tearing apart of that union. I knew my husband for 55 (since 2nd grade) and we were together for 35. Long…"
"Morgan, Monday will be a very tough day for both of us. It's one year for me which seems like one long day, and six for you, which scares the hell out of me thinking about how long do I have to be here before I go to her. It seems like one long…"
"Lets be honest. Death sucks. As I read the posts on here and I see how we struggle when we lose someone to death it boggles the mind how any of us keep moving. I keep saying to myself there is something I can do to make myself feel better and it…"
Emma is now a member of Online Grief Support - A Social Community
"I agree with all of that. I didn't expect a reward. My mom was reward enough, but I am not the same person that I once was. And I thought that some kind of balance would occur. I can't explain that really. It's been defeating. As soon…"
"After my husband’s death, and now after losing my mother, I also found myself somehow imagining that, not so much that something good would happen, more that some kind of reward would come to me, something to balance off the pain and…"
"There's something that has been on my mind lately and this is the best place to mention it. As much as I feared and dreaded my mom's death, I sort of felt like something good would happen, maybe not right away, but eventually. Like Karma…"
"I know how you feel. I lost my mom Jan 6, 2019 and it is so raw and all I do is cry. I was in the room when she passed and had been all day. My regret is I wasn't holding her hand when she took her last breath. She had dementia and I saw her 3…"
I am not a doctor but I am a student of the Bible. It seems that you are suffering from anxiety over your past. Humans including ourselves seem to filter the good things we have done and focus on the "bad". But God is the opposite.…"