Your post tells my story. Sometimes I wake up in the morning and wonder how much longer I can take his loss. We were everything to one another, the dad he died I went fight along with him.
"Part 2 ---I realize I am sending this message along at the very last moment of a marker day that for only two years hence is still a gigantic day for you. I can only wish you found a way to get through it with the minimum amount of pain that…"
"Part 1---Oh Trina, I've thought about you so many times and gotten close to a message and then something would intervene. Reading about your changes and how you have endured the adjustments by admitting the utter unbelievability of how…"
"Trina, like you I've been on this site for over 2 years. I've cried with the raw honesty and emotion I've read here. That you found the strength to move gives me hope and also shows me how much of a wuss I've been. It took me…"
"I've not posted for many months, but have been reading your posts periodically. I went through some major life changes in the past few months and have been feeling like a displaced person, which I am. Joseph and I had been living and working in…"
"Mel (and anyone else who has a recording of their spouse/partner's voice),
I recommend backing up that recording in a few different places, so that if one piece of electronics breaks, you will still have the recording in a few other places."
Elynn, I can relate to your situation as it parallels mine perfectly. First, I am sorry for our loss. I am aware there are no words that can take away the sting, the inconsolable pain of your loss. I lost my Nancy, April 29th of last year and am still and will for a long time be facing the hell of loneliness, the emptiness and the never ending longing for that person who defined you and was always there for you, your soul mate and best friend. That was Nancy. Now, I too cannot drive and have a limited social network, again, apart from this grief site. I live exclusively on social security and can barely make that last, but I do. I wake up broken and go to sleep broken, spending the day lost and wandering through my empty house, more like a tomb than a home. We are all so vulnerable to to the world we must live in and on that day I do not wake up, I hope to wake up in the arms of my true love, my beautiful Nancy. I pray the same for you and everyone who must endure this cold empty life. May God watch over you and bless you and take care of yourself...Mel
Anyone else feeling lonely and depresxed? I have trouble getting out if the house because I do not drive. My husband used to go everywhere with me. It's really lonely and depressing having to stay in the house all day (luckily my son is here daily). Too hot to go outside (here in the desert ). Wish I had something to look forward to.
My heart goes out to you. Your last comment is worrisome. I don't know what to say to help you other than pls find strength from the love of your lovely wife to keep going. Take care of yourself. Praying for comfort and peace for you and all others including myself.
Hello all. I have been relentlessly seeking. Sorry to be away so long but I am very unhealthy and don't want to spread it. There is hope for you if you truly want it. I however do not. I find peace in the agony that grows deeper each day. With much understanding comes great suffering.
Just want to say Jon-Paul I appreciate your recent posts. "I rendezvous with my Queen daily. I've never felt closer to Her". I found that absolutely beautiful. That is what I am aiming for with my love. It seems the only option to survive this nightmare. To "seek ruthlessly" - if you ever care to share what has been your journey I would be interested to hear.
Dear Jon-Paul, I just noticed your comments to others, and wanted to say thank you for creating the group Lost My Spouse. My partner died a year ago, and your group has helped me so much. There are wonderful people there, so honest in their deep suffering. Your words today have comforted me too, hearing how you are still learning more about your love, how she is with you. I feel this too, but it is hard to hold on to in my grief sometimes. So thank you for your faith. I wish you good things, Alice
John-Paul- I want to thank you for creating this community. It's help me more then any counseling or medication or doctors could of ever have helped. This is one of the most difficult and painful times in anyones life. And to be able to communicate with other people who are experiencing the heartbreaking, life-changing, loss of a soulmate.... It's proving to be of sincere importance. So- thank you John-Paul.
Oh Jon-Paul, I am so so very sorry to hear of your loss. You are such a beautiful couple. Hugs and prayers to you. I lost my son, and I also am so empty inside. It's a very sad and lonely place, but you will find friends on here that are so helpful x0
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