"John....I also recall the moment when my wife passed as any sign of life disappeared from her eyes. I remember being numb and trying to close her eyes, they were half open...I remember thinking that wasn't right..her eyes should be fully closed…"
"Yesterday was awful. I have no idea why but I kept having memories of my wife's last moments as I knelt beside her on the sidewalk and tried to perform CPR. The image of the light fading from her eyes is overwhelming. Thank…"
"Thanks for the comments. It is comforting that others understand what we are going through. Our birthdays are so close, now I am trying to gather the strength for his first birthday no longer on this earth - March 5th. Trying to…"
"Stacey, my birthday was on Thursday, the first without my husband who died 8 months ago. Although I have two adult children, I went through a period on Thursday when I too felt alone and missed George terribly. I hope there will come a birthday when…"
"Well, today is my birthday - the first one without my best friend and husband who passed about 3 months ago. I have been pretty good until tonight and now starting to wallow in self pity missing him. I try to be strong in front of our…"
"Last night my sister was talking to me about finally unpacking and fixing up the place where I live a little. I just listened. I don't want to unpack all the memories right now and there are two boxes marked "Christmas" I…"
No kidding. No kidding. It's unbelievable to me. My sweet man to whom I was attached to like DNA, well, he dies and after the 3 years of black grief and madness settles down, I look around me and I feel like one of those space…"
Elynn, I can relate to your situation as it parallels mine perfectly. First, I am sorry for our loss. I am aware there are no words that can take away the sting, the inconsolable pain of your loss. I lost my Nancy, April 29th of last year and am still and will for a long time be facing the hell of loneliness, the emptiness and the never ending longing for that person who defined you and was always there for you, your soul mate and best friend. That was Nancy. Now, I too cannot drive and have a limited social network, again, apart from this grief site. I live exclusively on social security and can barely make that last, but I do. I wake up broken and go to sleep broken, spending the day lost and wandering through my empty house, more like a tomb than a home. We are all so vulnerable to to the world we must live in and on that day I do not wake up, I hope to wake up in the arms of my true love, my beautiful Nancy. I pray the same for you and everyone who must endure this cold empty life. May God watch over you and bless you and take care of yourself...Mel
Anyone else feeling lonely and depresxed? I have trouble getting out if the house because I do not drive. My husband used to go everywhere with me. It's really lonely and depressing having to stay in the house all day (luckily my son is here daily). Too hot to go outside (here in the desert ). Wish I had something to look forward to.
My heart goes out to you. Your last comment is worrisome. I don't know what to say to help you other than pls find strength from the love of your lovely wife to keep going. Take care of yourself. Praying for comfort and peace for you and all others including myself.
Hello all. I have been relentlessly seeking. Sorry to be away so long but I am very unhealthy and don't want to spread it. There is hope for you if you truly want it. I however do not. I find peace in the agony that grows deeper each day. With much understanding comes great suffering.
Just want to say Jon-Paul I appreciate your recent posts. "I rendezvous with my Queen daily. I've never felt closer to Her". I found that absolutely beautiful. That is what I am aiming for with my love. It seems the only option to survive this nightmare. To "seek ruthlessly" - if you ever care to share what has been your journey I would be interested to hear.
Dear Jon-Paul, I just noticed your comments to others, and wanted to say thank you for creating the group Lost My Spouse. My partner died a year ago, and your group has helped me so much. There are wonderful people there, so honest in their deep suffering. Your words today have comforted me too, hearing how you are still learning more about your love, how she is with you. I feel this too, but it is hard to hold on to in my grief sometimes. So thank you for your faith. I wish you good things, Alice
John-Paul- I want to thank you for creating this community. It's help me more then any counseling or medication or doctors could of ever have helped. This is one of the most difficult and painful times in anyones life. And to be able to communicate with other people who are experiencing the heartbreaking, life-changing, loss of a soulmate.... It's proving to be of sincere importance. So- thank you John-Paul.
Oh Jon-Paul, I am so so very sorry to hear of your loss. You are such a beautiful couple. Hugs and prayers to you. I lost my son, and I also am so empty inside. It's a very sad and lonely place, but you will find friends on here that are so helpful x0
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One of my friends (who hasn't contacted me for weeks) sent me a cutesy picture of a cat and a message which asked "how are you?". Cat picture aside, I am tired of this question, particularly when I feel the person asking it just wants to hear I am feeling better. As if that is possible for me five months after my husband's suicide. After I lost the love of my life, my joy and my happiness.I don't know how to answer the how are you question anymore, but I will be damned if I'm going to put on a…See More
"Debbie I am so sorry for the lost of your Mom. Just know she was just as important to us as we were to her.
Rita I don't have advise. My mother shut down in 2008 when my dad passed away, til this day she has not been able to offer…"
I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my Mom on Valentines day 2017. I too dream about her, and when I wake up, it really hurts that she is not here. I had a different relationship with my Mom than you did. I was her caregiver and her…"
"Well said thank you for the advice. But guilt is the hardest thing to let go. I can't seem to shake it. I still think over and over I could've done more, should've done more. right now I'm actually going to hopefully get help…"
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"Oh my gosh! I'm so sorry, Olive! I hate that you're having to get through this day alone. You should absolutely talk about your dad. You're a whole person, not split in half with two separate losses. I wish we could sit and share a…"
"Richard, I understand your feelings. If only we could have had more time with our loved ones. If only something had been different. It doesn't seem to matter if they died in front of us or in a horrible accident. Bottom…"
"Hi Nancy, I wish we could go out to eat tonight in honor of my mom, but my husband works nights and my dear dad passed on February 4 (I didn't know if I should mention that in here because the group is about moms). Your experience…"
"Hi, Olive. I am certain she feels your love! I am always praying and asking The Lord to tell my mom how much I love and miss her, and even to give her a hug and kiss from me. You can be sure he will pass everything on to your sweet mother. On my…"
First of all, I want to thank you for replying to my comments. I appreciate you sharing your experiences and how they parallel with mine. It does help me sort through what all I am grieving.
As the caregiver, a daughter, a sister and a…"
"Nancy, I am okay right now which I am grateful for.
Olive, My thoughts are with you on this difficult day.
Theresa, Talking does help and I thank you for your support. I am feeling my way through it minute by minute, hour by hour and day by…"
"I wish I could say it gets better, Elizabeth. You have gone through four years, and I have only gone through 16 months, so I can only think that my life will never hold any joy or happiness again. No, it is not health, but how can we make our…"
"Thanks for sharing, Bluebird. The poem, unfortunately, says it all! My life has no meaning. I did think love would last forever, and I never even contemplated a life without my husband. I many times think that the end of my life should not be so…"
"I can't help but think the same thing, that it's no coincidence. my only problem is that I'm still separated from Annette and it's just killing me inside. I still scream at night. The nightmares just keep coming and it's…"
"Hi Nancy, Theresa, and Bluebell,
Please know you are all in my prayers. Today would have been my sweet mom's 75th birthday, so it is a very hard day. I know she is rejoicing in heaven, but I can't help but be selfish and wish…"