Comment

Comment by Teresa D. on January 18, 2015 at 9:10am

We don't mind your whining.  Your going through a very challenging time.  Your daughter sounds like she has mental health challenges, which many of us know can be very draining on families.  Your an angel Dolly, throughout your life you have loved and cared for children no one else was willing to.  Brandon is now your angel.  He is there listening to the music and dancing across the floor.  And he is still wearing the big beautiful smile that you and your husband gave to him.  So if you need to vent to carry on then please VENT! We love you right back. 

Comment by Dolly on January 17, 2015 at 8:35pm

thanks for letting me vent... its been a horrible couple of weeks.... sometimes I feel like everything is crashing down around me all at once.. I don't know why so much pain and misery has come our way... but I do know you all understand better than most will... so many people have over the years accused us of not giving her enough time and attention..because of the boys.. it always hurt so much because the boys HAD to have our attention to SURVIVE and we gave her as much as we could.. she had more attention and 'things' than either me or my husband ever had, but I guess we fell short somehow.... I keep praying she'll wake up and see where she's headed ... but so far she doesn't seem to even CARE to change her life... thanks for listening ... seems I'm always whining about something... sorry..

Comment by kim on January 17, 2015 at 5:10pm

dolly my heart is with you, hugs  kim

Comment by Jane P on January 17, 2015 at 5:06pm

Oh Dolly, I am so sorry you are dealing with this in addition to your grief.
I wish I could help.
Just know, you are not alone.

Comment by Lynn Williams on January 17, 2015 at 4:15pm

Dolly I am so sorry for the added trama you are going through with your daughter. Emotional issues are sometimes worse than physical ones because of the stigma. She loves you her parents and needs you to be there. I pray she can get it together, you and your husband have been through so much

Comment by Dolly on January 17, 2015 at 3:35pm

thanks Teresa and Connie... well we heard from her again at 6AM this morning.... she had called yesterday to brag about her new 'boyfriend' she met at the hospital [another patient with a prison record to boot] and how they went on some sort of spree at Walmart... then this AM we got a call from her from the prison... my husband refused the call but it must mean they got caught... so now she is most likely in prison, will lose her apartment...etc etc etc... so on it goes...its such a sad tale about my daughter.. she came to stay with us as a newborn so we could help her bond with her mom who was incarcerated when she was born.. she was only supposed to be with us for a few months, but her mom got released and simply left her behind.. for the first few years we had her as a foster child we couldn't adopt her due to the fact that her parents were both Af Amer and me and my husband are both white... then when she was four they changed the rules so we could adopt her.. I wasn't sure it was the best placement for her though.. this is a racist community ..much worse than I even dreamed so it seems... later on the way Brandon was treated was more proof of that but he also was mistreated because he couldn't talk and tell us about it... we only found out about his abuse from other people who had witnessed it.. anyway, my daughter was badly treated as well... and in addition she has always had problems emotionally ...its just gotten to the point of disaster lately... over the years there have been countless crises too... nobody anywhere seemed to be able to change the course of her life.. she would crash and burn after a week, a month, a few months.. over and over .... nothing has ever seemed to help her... now she seems to be doing her best to self destruct...

Comment by Connie K on January 17, 2015 at 11:39am

Oh Dolly - that must have been very upsetting. I am sorry you had to go through that too. I am very sorry for your daughter's health

Comment by Teresa D. on January 17, 2015 at 9:56am

Dolly I'm so sorry that you had to experience that. 

Comment by Dolly on January 16, 2015 at 4:04pm

We had an awful shock last night... my daughter who has been disintegrating since Thanksgiving... in and out of psychiatric hospitals... called and said "This is Brandon calling" ... we told her that was NOT funny... and hung up on her.... she called back and said that she knew somebody had killed Brandon, and named a girl's name I didn't know.. well that TOO was so wrong... he was with US and nobody else when he died... her dad said don't you ever do this again.. if you do we will BLOCK your calls.... so far she hasn't called again... it just made me crumble up inside and brought forth all kinds of guilt and fear and despair to the forefront... I've had some disturbing dreams lately too.. about people mistreating Brandon and not letting me tell them NOT to... and crying because nobody seemed to CARE... I mean in the dream... they were people from his school.. but not real people I remembered.. just people supposed to be his aide or something but strangers... people DID mistreat Brandon in school... but that was YEARS ago... its been a rough week..

Comment by Dolly on January 16, 2015 at 3:58pm

Its been 20 months for me Marsha... and I too feel 'if only I had ..." but so many times we had thought we would lose him when he was sick and hospitalized... when we DID it was a shock ... not a TOTAL shock though.. I had that nudging little feeling that all was not well that day.. and the day before... but because Brandon couldn't TELL me why he was fussy [and he wasn't VERY fussy] I just let it go.. and.. I lost him... we think it was probably a blood clot too but they didn't insist on an autopsy and I just couldn't bear to have him go through that.. dumb I guess ... but I just couldn't... now I just buy flowers for his little corner... here is the latest bunch...

• ‹ Previous
• 1
• …
• 193
• 194
• 195
• 196
• 197
• …
• 757
• Next ›
• Page