Thank you, Michelle.  I am preparing to have a meeting with the San Diego Lifeguards and the press.  One channel was very kind and called me to ask me about my son, then reported what a great kid he was, that he was loved and cherished by his family, that he worked 2 jobs and went to school in a sincere effort to provide for his 7 month old daughter, and that he is survived by four little brothers.  Every other local channel couldn't have cared less, and the San Diego Lifeguard spokesman is definitely on my radar.  My best friend was at the beach when they found Brian, and she made it very clear to him that what he was doing was wrong and painful, but he is just so excited to have the cameras on him, he didn't care.  I have every intention of having a meeting with him and his boss to let them know exactly how much they hurt my family with their lies and lack of compassion.  I'm so sorry that any of us have to belong to this club -- I read elsewhere that the Bereaved Mother's Club is one that all women avoid because the dues are much too high.  I'd give everything I have (that is not living), even give my own life, if I could bring him back.  I'm old, I lived my life and had the opportunity to raise my children, while his life was just beginning.  It is just so incredibly wrong.