Lynn, thank you for your kind words, am sorry it took me a few days to reply. I am feeling very overwhelmed by emotions right now and can barely put my thoughts together. it has been three weeks since she died and yet it feels like it was just today, very raw and I feel half crazed. One moment crying, the next raging, the next numb and empty. I hope I can get through this time without cracking completely.
Thanks Lynn...I had not seen my son for 10 days when he died, and his cell phone had been broken for 2 weeks. I do know that the last time I saw him, I held his face in my hands and looked in his eyes and told him how dearly I loved him. Neither of us knew it would be the last time we spoke. It was such an ordinary moment, but that final kiss will have to last me the rest of my life. I pray that you all have found peace, I know I will be searching for it..
I'm so deeply sorry for your loss. You know exactly my fears. "Where do I go for here". She was all I had. My daughter was a teacher as well. I feel like I'm going crazy. People around me don't know what I'm going through. The fear, the loss, the hurt and pain. And they hopefully will never know.
Thanks for sharing your story -So sorry to hear about your loss. I am just 2 weeks deep in my grief and sadness, and it seems like the pain is too much to endure. Any words of advice? I'm so glad I joined this group as I think it will greatly help me relate to others and follow some of their advice. Thanks again - Gale
Thank you for your comment and words of support. I am sorry for the loss of your daughter. My son's 22nd birthday is August 13th and I'm dreading that day. I guess I am still in shock over this. Abel did not live with me so I don't have the every day reminders and find myself thinking that he is at home or work. He spent a lot of time with my daughter and her BF so the last time they came over I expected Abe to walk in behind them and when he didn't I felt that heartbreak. I'm just taking it day by day and trying to move on without him. Some days are better than others. I have 3 daughters and 2 granddaughters(2 of my girls and the Grandkids live with me) and I am trying to be strong for them. The Grandkids keep me going most of all because they are young and so full of life and energy. It helps to wake up to their beautiful smiles every morning. I still have flashes from the hospital and the funeral that come through my mind and I find myself reliving those moments. I just still cant believe this has happened. I hope talking about it with others who have been there can help. Thank you again for reaching out. Hugs, Cyndii
Hi Lynn, Thank you for that, it is so heartbreaking, I am so sorry for the loss of you daughter, I was so stunned when I found our son, life has so many surprises. I just hope he knew how much he was loved, Namaste.
I'm starting this group in hopes that people who come to oninegriefsupport in the U.S. can share in their experiences and grief for homicide related deaths. There are tons of support grief services for cancer, alzheimers, loss of children, suicide, ..I could go on. But there are not many support groups for homicide related issues. With the growing gun-related deaths, I thought it would be prudent to create this small sub-group here.I know that grief is very unique and it shouldn't be compared…See More
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