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Feeling lost and broken 12 Replies

This is my first day on this site. I lost my dad 9 years ago this coming July to suicide. His birthday just past and I just lost a close friend as well. Father’s Day is coming up and I am hurting…Continue

Started by Faith. Last reply by Faith Jun 4.

so lost 1 Reply

Lost my boyfriend of 7 years to suicide on Oct. 25th 2014! I feel like im dying from the inside out! I want to believe joinging this group and chatting will make me feel a little better. From seeing…Continue

Started by Megan M. Last reply by Hollowed Mar 14, 2016.

Loss of my Husband to suicide 4 Replies

Hello.  I'm new to this site as of today, and I'm struggling more than ever.  My husband passed away to suicide on 10/28/12.  We were married for 5 years.  The holidays are very difficult, but…Continue

Started by Lyndsey. Last reply by Hollowed Mar 14, 2016.

if I just keep telling this same story... maybe I will heal?

I will never forget at 7:39 pm on April 6th, 2015. I was sitting in my nursing class and she told us that we could stretch out legs and I felt my cell phone in my pants pocket vibrating continuously.…Continue

Started by Kerri Fell Jun 8, 2015.

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Comment by Savannah Schneider on June 5, 2018 at 10:33pm

I lost my brother to suicide on May 8th 2018, today its been 4 weeks and its been really hard. I miss him and I dont know how to go on without him... I just dont know what to do...

Comment by Hollowed on March 15, 2016 at 12:23pm

Reading through some of our stories on here, I can only imagine the pain everyone has to go through. 1, 2, 5, 10, 20 years? I am only 3 months into the loss of my wife and I feel like it has been forever.  Each day has been a struggle to survive--to not take that final action.  I don't know if I have the strength to fight on.  I am only 31 years old and not sure if I can live the next 30 years to fight this battle alone.  I missed my dear wife greatly.  My desk has become a place where my tears have gathered and crystalized.  This emptiness, loneliness, hopelessness, and senselessness have taken over me.  Wife, come back and take me with you.

Hollowed,

Comment by Christine Kittrell on August 2, 2014 at 5:13pm
I lost my son to suicide 9 months ago . There are days I feel like I am going to implode !
Comment by Melissa Erlandson on December 23, 2013 at 8:13am
My first husband passed away in 2007 from suicide he was my oldest daughter's father. We were divorced at the time but extremely close. In 2008 my husband and two middle kidd father passed away of chrones disease 5 years ago today. Then again in july of 2011 my youngest daughters father passed away from suicide as well. Its been the toughest thung I have ever been through! She is now three and will never know her father. She askes about her daddy and it breaks my heart. This time of year is so hard!!! Today we will do what we do every year and send ashes up in balloons with letters. I try to stay strong and keeps it together for my kids!!
Comment by Amber Dunnett on August 27, 2013 at 3:28am

I not only lossed my boyfriend to suicide but I found him after forwards. It haunts me everyday.

Comment by Brenda Ann on September 1, 2012 at 10:35am

A long time family friend was found deceased in the woods surrounding the park where he went to play basketball.  The circumstances and the scene leave nothing but questions. He was only in his early 30's and was loved by many.  The tragedy is that he felt that he had no friends.  No matter if it was murder, suicide or a terrible accident, it is a horrible loss.  I hurt so bad for his family.  I know that they are now starting this terrible grief journey where only God can help them.  I and his family look forward to the promises found in the Holy Scriptures.

(John 5:28, 29) . . .Do not marvel at this, because the hour is coming in which all those in the memorial tombs will hear his voice 29 and come out. . .

See you soon my young friend. . .

Brenda

mawmaw1591@gmail.com

Comment by Bruncha M on May 24, 2012 at 11:34am

today i learned that a friend of 30 years took her life this week. I felt shock and helplessness since im 9,000 miles away from the city where we lived

i wont be there for the memorial or the estate sale of her things by her sisters. I feel so remote from the events there.

All i can do is send my emails, and give them my thoughts and feelings

 

Just wish I could be there now

Comment by Bridget Doyle on March 17, 2012 at 11:03am

It has been almost a year and a half since I lost two friends to a long battle with eating disorders, finally culminating in suicide. Although I witnessed a slow decline in the health of both friends, their deaths were not any less devastating. Immediately afterwards I fought with many emotions including shock, denial, disgust, anger, guilt and severe depression. Although those feelings grew less intense, they still plague me. Saint Patricks Day is today; it would have been my best friend Chrisi's 26th birthday, and Christine's is only a couple weeks away as well. This time of year, it feels as if an old wound is reopening and the pain is intense like I just lost Chrisi and Christine. In these times I feel abandoned, and alone. There is so much that I never got to say... It feels like I am stuck in the past. But I know that I can never go back and do things differently, and even if I could, it might not change what happened. You can never go back. You can only go forward.

Comment by Janet Reed on August 14, 2011 at 7:22am
I lost my first husband to suicide 15 years ago this last April.  We had been married for 17 years.  He shot himself in front of me.  All i could think about was what did i do wrong for years.  I am and have been in therapy for 15 years and it helps but the nightmares still exist!
Comment by Louise on July 29, 2011 at 8:03pm
My 37 year old  sister committed suicide 33 days ago on June 26,2011..I am devastated.She was my best friend, We spent everyday together.. She leaves behind 4 beautiful children..Everyday a new problem arises and I wish none of this ever happened..I dont know what to do anymore. I really miss her and think of her 1000 times a day..It has been a month and i am returning to work tomorrow and i am scared.. I dont know if I am going to be able to hold it together. We use to work together. I have her 2 little kids all the time and they have kept me going, but they just left tonight for the week. I feel bad for her kids, especially my teenage nephew, her son. He is hurting so bad and i wish i could make it all go away. I am so worried about all of them.I miss my sister and wish this was all a bad dream
 

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morgan commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"Trina, Check your inbox for a message from me. Joe,  So true.  That's exactly why I post here too.  I keep thinking if I get it off my chest and out into cyberspace at least I know I wont be suffering alone.  That consoles…"
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Trina Mamoon commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"Hello All, I am sorry that I have not posted here for a while now to show my support for you. On August 4th it was the fifth anniversary of Joseph's passing. I just don't have the strength or energy anymore to keep pushing to survive each…"
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Joe Kelly commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"I'm in the 19th month and don't know what to say, except that the only time I'm not living this horrible nightmare is when I sleep and don't dream at all.  Even when I post in a way to try to console anyone here, in a way,…"
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Linda Engberg commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"Morgan, Once again I want to Thank You for sharing you thoughts with us. You put into words the things I don't know how to express."
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Brett Bowman commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"Avi, I don't mean to be a downer, but I am not sure there is an end to our grief. I know mine is still going strong. I wish the good things in my life were as consistent as this is. We have to keep moving though. Keep taking baby steps. Assay…"
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morgan commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"John T,   I saw your post late late last night.  I see you are still doing your best to cope. I remember a time that I wasn't even coping. I was barely standing.  After six years seven months I have become anesthetized.…"
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Avi commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"Hi All, Today I suddenly had grief all over the day. I miss my mother a lot and it seems that there is no end to this grief. Hope I meet her someday when I leave this world.  Just wanted to share my feelings here because people around me…"
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Linda Engberg commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"John, We are blessed to have this wonderful group to come to and share our grief."
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Nancy commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"Thinking of you John T.  I understand.  "
Sep 7
John T. replied to Elynn m's discussion Lonely again
"5 years since my wife died suddenly of heart failure right in front of me.  The time since that day has been just awful and when I reached this anniversary, I just couldn't believe it.  All I think about is all the years ahead without…"
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John T. commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"Yesterday was the 5th anniversary of the death of my wife.  I spent the day unable to believe it has been 5 years but somewhat surprised at how well I handled the day.  Today I have kept having outbursts of crying and overwhelming memories…"
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Emmyk replied to Amy R's discussion So many questions in the group Being the Other Woman/Other Man
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