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Lost my boyfriend of 7 years to suicide on Oct. 25th 2014! I feel like im dying from the inside out! I want to believe joinging this group and chatting will make me feel a little better. From seeing…Continue

Started by Megan M. Last reply by Hollowed Mar 14, 2016.

Loss of my Husband to suicide 4 Replies

Hello.  I'm new to this site as of today, and I'm struggling more than ever.  My husband passed away to suicide on 10/28/12.  We were married for 5 years.  The holidays are very difficult, but…Continue

Started by Lyndsey. Last reply by Hollowed Mar 14, 2016.

if I just keep telling this same story... maybe I will heal?

I will never forget at 7:39 pm on April 6th, 2015. I was sitting in my nursing class and she told us that we could stretch out legs and I felt my cell phone in my pants pocket vibrating continuously.…Continue

Started by Kerri Fell Jun 8, 2015.

I lost my dad.... to suicide... 9 Replies

I am 23 years old. I turned 23 on April 07. On Friday, April 22 I work 11pm to 7 am and came home and slept till about 9:25am. I was woken by my fiancées phone ringing... I could hear my brothers…Continue

Started by Kayce Memory. Last reply by Denise H. May 14, 2012.

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Comment by Hollowed on March 15, 2016 at 12:23pm

Reading through some of our stories on here, I can only imagine the pain everyone has to go through. 1, 2, 5, 10, 20 years? I am only 3 months into the loss of my wife and I feel like it has been forever.  Each day has been a struggle to survive--to not take that final action.  I don't know if I have the strength to fight on.  I am only 31 years old and not sure if I can live the next 30 years to fight this battle alone.  I missed my dear wife greatly.  My desk has become a place where my tears have gathered and crystalized.  This emptiness, loneliness, hopelessness, and senselessness have taken over me.  Wife, come back and take me with you.

Hollowed,

Comment by Christine Kittrell on August 2, 2014 at 5:13pm
I lost my son to suicide 9 months ago . There are days I feel like I am going to implode !
Comment by Melissa Erlandson on December 23, 2013 at 8:13am
My first husband passed away in 2007 from suicide he was my oldest daughter's father. We were divorced at the time but extremely close. In 2008 my husband and two middle kidd father passed away of chrones disease 5 years ago today. Then again in july of 2011 my youngest daughters father passed away from suicide as well. Its been the toughest thung I have ever been through! She is now three and will never know her father. She askes about her daddy and it breaks my heart. This time of year is so hard!!! Today we will do what we do every year and send ashes up in balloons with letters. I try to stay strong and keeps it together for my kids!!
Comment by Amber Dunnett on August 27, 2013 at 3:28am

I not only lossed my boyfriend to suicide but I found him after forwards. It haunts me everyday.

Comment by Brenda Ann on September 1, 2012 at 10:35am

A long time family friend was found deceased in the woods surrounding the park where he went to play basketball.  The circumstances and the scene leave nothing but questions. He was only in his early 30's and was loved by many.  The tragedy is that he felt that he had no friends.  No matter if it was murder, suicide or a terrible accident, it is a horrible loss.  I hurt so bad for his family.  I know that they are now starting this terrible grief journey where only God can help them.  I and his family look forward to the promises found in the Holy Scriptures.

(John 5:28, 29) . . .Do not marvel at this, because the hour is coming in which all those in the memorial tombs will hear his voice 29 and come out. . .

See you soon my young friend. . .

Brenda

mawmaw1591@gmail.com

Comment by Bruncha M on May 24, 2012 at 11:34am

today i learned that a friend of 30 years took her life this week. I felt shock and helplessness since im 9,000 miles away from the city where we lived

i wont be there for the memorial or the estate sale of her things by her sisters. I feel so remote from the events there.

All i can do is send my emails, and give them my thoughts and feelings

 

Just wish I could be there now

Comment by Bridget Doyle on March 17, 2012 at 11:03am

It has been almost a year and a half since I lost two friends to a long battle with eating disorders, finally culminating in suicide. Although I witnessed a slow decline in the health of both friends, their deaths were not any less devastating. Immediately afterwards I fought with many emotions including shock, denial, disgust, anger, guilt and severe depression. Although those feelings grew less intense, they still plague me. Saint Patricks Day is today; it would have been my best friend Chrisi's 26th birthday, and Christine's is only a couple weeks away as well. This time of year, it feels as if an old wound is reopening and the pain is intense like I just lost Chrisi and Christine. In these times I feel abandoned, and alone. There is so much that I never got to say... It feels like I am stuck in the past. But I know that I can never go back and do things differently, and even if I could, it might not change what happened. You can never go back. You can only go forward.

Comment by Janet Reed on August 14, 2011 at 7:22am
I lost my first husband to suicide 15 years ago this last April.  We had been married for 17 years.  He shot himself in front of me.  All i could think about was what did i do wrong for years.  I am and have been in therapy for 15 years and it helps but the nightmares still exist!
Comment by Louise on July 29, 2011 at 8:03pm
My 37 year old  sister committed suicide 33 days ago on June 26,2011..I am devastated.She was my best friend, We spent everyday together.. She leaves behind 4 beautiful children..Everyday a new problem arises and I wish none of this ever happened..I dont know what to do anymore. I really miss her and think of her 1000 times a day..It has been a month and i am returning to work tomorrow and i am scared.. I dont know if I am going to be able to hold it together. We use to work together. I have her 2 little kids all the time and they have kept me going, but they just left tonight for the week. I feel bad for her kids, especially my teenage nephew, her son. He is hurting so bad and i wish i could make it all go away. I am so worried about all of them.I miss my sister and wish this was all a bad dream
Comment by Crystal M on July 18, 2011 at 10:49pm

Chaille,

First of all I want to say that I am so sorry that you have to go through something like this, especially when this is supposed to be one of the happiest times in your life. I am also sorry if what I say after this point offends you in any way. What happened is NOT your fault in any way. In my opinion, you and your baby are the victims of what happened. It sounds like he made a rash decision, and did not think anything through. It is not fair to you or your child, and for his family to blame you in any way is nonsense. The most important thing for you to do is to not blame yourself or your child. The baby that you are carrying is innocent and depends on you to take care of yourself and her/him. I wish the best for you and your baby, and I hope that he/she never feels like it was his/her fault for what happened. If you need to talk, I am here.

 

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