"That is difficult to read without tears welling up in my eyes. I empathize. I've also lost a man I love. For me, the teeter-totter of emotions connected to the memories was chaotic for a while. I couldn't or maybe wouldn't move. A day…"
"Some days I want to sit in my closet with a blanket wrapped around me as I remember the sound of his voice saying my name. "Alma, Alma, Alma" like I was a trouble maker. It reminds me that we both existed at the same time and shared so…"
Regrets... I have them too. I met a man in 2011. We were friends for years. I was in love with him. Yet, I never took the chance to further it. I thought I had all kind of time. I thought I was being patient. Then... He committed…"
I've lost a few of dear people in my life. This recent one was in December 2019. He was a man that meant more to me than I could explain or predict. I would have let that guy marry me. He was one of my best friends. He took his…"
"Alexandra Tomko -
That is beautiful... thank you for sharing it. I loved reading it. Its horrible that you were assaulted by another man... I'm sorry to hear that it happened. I have to say that, I am amazed by your courage and strength…"
That is a whole lot to go through. I too am having a rough year and can relate to those emotions. I am no stranger to losing people that I love. The latest one so far, would be Last December 2019. I lost a man that I love to…"
42. mother to 2 adults, enjoy gardening, yoga, archery, beach days, leisurely strolls, checking out the zoo, Disneyland, etc.
I have past trauma issues which doesn't mix too well when a sudden loss of a loved one occurs in my life. I have been overwhelmed since December 2019. Then this year of Corona 2020 has just added to the chaos I already have in my head. I just want to have somewhere to go and communicate with people who don't tell me "to get over it cause I'm choosing to live with misery."
I know death is inevitable and I believe that our energy transfers after our bodies have ceased functions. However, I haven't found a way to transition to letting go without some difficulty. I found this site during one of my searches while researching how to deal with the issues I am experiencing on one of my many sleepless nights. I'm hoping a social bereavement group will help out.
About my Loss:
Very dear male friend of mine committed suicide in December 2019. Where ever I am in the process of that... feels like I'm stuck.
I have a past history of losing my father and paternal grandfather to cancer. Lost an uncle on my father side to sudden brain hemorrhage. Another uncle died after a long history of complications to Multiple Sclerosis.
A best friend from high school, was killed in a drive by shooting and that one was extremely hard for me as well. Great paternal maternal great grand mother to natural causes of old age.
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When a heart breaks, you’re left gasping for air. After a while you seem fine, yet fall apart unexpectedly at random moments, sanity seemingly forsaken. There’s a saying that when a heart breaks, it cracks to allow golden love to shine through onto others. Do you see the value in going through this?It may not feel like it now, but grief is an honor. It is an honor to feel that much, to have loved that much. It teaches you compassion, gratitude, resilience, and the importance of grabbing life by…See More
This is a very early response to your email I know, but my sister is arriving today for 2 or 3 days. I have to admit to being nervous. First time having someone stay since I lost Pete. Plus, she will be sleeping in the bed he…"
"Hi Ros, I hope you're not getting too much rain. We are yet again going through a period of persistent rain since yesterday morning and apparently will continue for the next few days. I thought England was bad! The tomato crop went OK, would…"
"yep i get it
loss mom to dem/copd cud not get in to sea her coz of cov 19 ruless in 2021 loss my uncle jon in 2021 bothh of thm 6th mnths aprt
so mushloss in lastt 30 yrs or more shud say loss of 47 yrs omy life coz i am 47 "