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I can't stop dreaming about them...Whenever he's in my dream he's either alive and happy, or hating me.Whether the dream is good or bad, it feels like it destroys a part of my soul.I wake up and for…Continue

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Frances Koonce replied to Lily Blue's discussion Dreams
"Thank you @bluebird, I appreciate your concern for my daughter.  I’m sorry this happens to you often.  I have been learning so much from reading the posts here. I realize I need to sit down and talk with my family about getting our…"
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bluebird replied to Lily Blue's discussion Dreams
"I'm sorry; I hope your daughter is ok. As far as waking up in a panic, that happens to me a lot."
Friday
Frances Koonce replied to Lily Blue's discussion Dreams
"Maybe we will continue to have distressing dreams. My daughter is now a teenager and she has ongoing health issues. My dreams now involve her health or her desire to move away. Ugh - it’s very hard. I wake up in a panic sometimes. "
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bluebird replied to Lily Blue's discussion Dreams
"I can understand that; sometimes my dreams of my husband involve trying to keep him (or us) safe, too"
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Frances Koonce replied to Lily Blue's discussion Dreams
"I’ve had nightmares before of a different kind. When my daughter was an infant and it seemed all I thought of was protecting her. I had constant nightmares about not keeping her safe.  My heart goes out to you. "
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bluebird replied to Lily Blue's discussion Dreams
"Thank you, Frances. That is sweet of you to say."
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Frances Koonce replied to Lily Blue's discussion Dreams
"I’m sorry that you have been having nightmares @bluebird. "
Friday
bluebird replied to Lily Blue's discussion Dreams
"Pretty much the only dreams I have had about my husband are nightmares, in which I am looking for him but can't find him, or he has left me and doesn't want to be with me anymore, or he has cheated on me, or I have cheated on him. None of…"
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AnneJ. commented on Lily Blue's blog post Memories
"I LOVED THIS! Thank you so much for giving us, (me), the bits and pieces that are the billions of magic things that make a human whole. Smiles, AnneJ."
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Frances Koonce replied to Lily Blue's discussion Dreams
"Hello - you asked for honest feedback about dreams involving our loved ones. First I want to say I’m truly sorry about your loss. I’m assuming it’s your boyfriend or fiancée perhaps. Nobody can out a finger on the pain and…"
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Dreams

I can't stop dreaming about them...Whenever he's in my dream he's either alive and happy, or hating me.Whether the dream is good or bad, it feels like it destroys a part of my soul.I wake up and for a few blissful moments he's still alive. Then I remember it was a dream, and it's like he dies all over again. I can hear the police knocking at my door to tell me. I can feel the empty horror, I can see the faces of the people who were around me contorted in sadness and disbelief.I remember calling…See More
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I lost my boyfriend of 2 years and my friend of 2 years to suicide.
I almost lost another friend to overdose.
Alomst lost my nan a few times due to various illnesses.
3 other friends have attempted.

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Dreams

I can't stop dreaming about them...

Whenever he's in my dream he's either alive and happy, or hating me.

Whether the dream is good or bad, it feels like it destroys a part of my soul.

I wake up and for a few blissful moments he's still alive. Then I remember it was a dream, and it's like he dies all over again. 

I can hear the police knocking at my door to tell me. I can feel the empty horror, I can see the faces of the people who were around me contorted…

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Posted on July 30, 2018 at 6:37pm

Memories

Everyone keeps telling me to just remember the good times with him, that it'll be better if I just remember the good times.

So I try.

They make me laugh, but they hurt so much. for every happy moment that runs through my mind, I feel like my heart gets torn a bit more.

I loved him, I love him. So much, and it hurts so much.

He was goofy, and funny, and cynical.

He loved to complain about things, like pop music. He…

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