I am 32 years old, I have three children and one on the way. I am a live in care giver for a 61 year old lady.
About my Loss:
my most recent loss was the unexpected death of my husband on December 23 2008. My 10 year old daughter and myself were the ones to find him. He had 2 major cardiac arrests and aspirated which left him immediately brain dead. Jeff had been diagnosed with Chrones disease 2 years earlier and was going through chemo and steriod treatments. also because of the high doses of prednisone he had to be on he developed diabetes which we were not aware of when I found him his blood sugar was 611.
1 year prior to this on November 17 2007 my oldest daughters biological dad my ex husband committed suicide by hanging. I never have gotten though that one and I am now falling apart about everything. Since I posted this the xhild I was expecting now has no father due to him passing away on 4-7-11 from suicide by hanging as well as have lost the woman I cared for in my home. The blows keep coming and I fear I will never not know death.
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