Are you a math major? I noticed a couple comments with math references (infinite numbers between zero and one, and another regarding your math prof).
The reason I ask is that my son is a math major (along with computer engineering). Math is his one true love. He will be a senior at university this year then going on to his phd in mathematics. His focus will be a very specific area of number theory.
You don't run in to high level mathematicians every day, so I thought I'd ask.
I hope you are getting through the day okay today. Losing my mother has been devastating for both me and my son. My son deals with it by throwing himself into his research. I just take it day by day.
Hi,Danny ,sorry about your loss.It was my mom's 1st death anniversary on 2nd March.You are right, there will be no history of the month in the previous year.It shatters me to realize this.What do I do now?
Thank you for your comment and concern Danny. Yes, it has been very difficult to digest this loss, but moving back to the old neighborhood? I have more friends now Here than I ever did back in the "old neighborhood". I have more support, I now have a church family, the grief support group family, and I've bonded with many of my neighbors here more so than before. It's been a year of firsts....first time his birthday passed without him in April, first time my birthday passed without him, all the activities we used to do yearly like going to fairs and festivals and theme parks and the beach trips. Dreading the holidays, but that's what my new group is helping with. New Year's Eve will be the worst, because that was our Anniversary. So far I've learned to make my own new traditions, my sister is treating me to a Carnival Cruise Thanksgiving week (next week!), and will be with me for 3 weeks during Christmas and New Year's. 2 years ago he gave me an exclusive oil portrait of Princess Merida...he said it was to "make me Brave". I had no idea how Brave I would have to be. God is telling me he wants me to be happy and live my life. It's not easy, certainly not pleasant, but I'm getting through it. Nothing worthwhile is easy, and none of us is promised a Tomorrow. Live for today. That was my beloved's motto. I have to move on to honor his memory. There was even more sadness this September....I had to have our beloved 14-year-old dog Daisy put to sleep. Besides her illness, I truly believe she was dying of a broken heart because Daddy never came home again (and she was a Daddy's girl.) I just hope 2015 is a better year. For all of us in this grief community....I wish everyone Peace in your heart.
Thanks Danny for adding me as a friend. You are right the cycle of good and bad days will probably continue. Think the trick is learning to maximize output during the good days and minimize collateral damage during the bad ones.
Danny, Thank you. I'm so sorry for your loss. That anchor and unconditional support is alot to lose. How is it possible for us to recover from all this? My heart aches to know how many out there hurt as much as I do. And I would never wish this kind of pain on anyone. I'm so fortunate to have stumbled upon this site. Otherwise, I don't know what I would have done by now. I send you tight hugs from across the world.
I have noticed lately that i am having dreams with re-occuring teams.
my wife leaving (though some circumstance) and having greater responsibilities to look after others..
are other experiencing dreams with constant team's ?
"Joe: I'm with you on the signs. I was positive my husband would send me signs. I've read many books where people say it happens. It's not a bird or a butterfly, but they actual see and hear their loved…"
"Geraldine, it'll be five months on Thursday that my Darling died in my arms. I know she loved me with all her heart and if she could she would send me a sign. I'm convinced that she can't. I just hope that she can…"
"Connie, I hope your mom is okay. I know how hard it is when another family member is ill.Our son's birthday was last Thursday (June 14). The 8th without him. And on Friday the 15th, my only sibling, my brother passed. …"
"B. Windsor, I am so happy for you that you finally were able to see and visit with your grandson. I hope it brought you some peace and happiness, and I hope you will be able to have a good relationship with him."
"Hello. Where has everyone gone? I don't ever remember it being so quiet here. I would like to think that is a good sign, but fearful that the newbies are being ignored.This place was a place of comfort and understanding when I…"
"I haven't posted in awhile. May 26 was the 7 year date of my sons death and June 2 would have been his 23rd birthday, Gabriel was kind thoughtful and a pure joy to everyone he met. this life and the grieving have been very cyclical and when I…"
"Great words Bluebell.
I did not even leave my job as you and Virginia did so I have more reasons to feel guilty. I did not even tall to her enough before her illness.
But as Bluebell said guilt has life of its own. "
"Its been a long long road since the day my husband died. I cannot lie. This is not getting any easier. Instead of being in such a fog about what to do next I have more clarity as to what things are going to be like and I dont like…"
""I quit my job and had the most important job, to take care of her. She gave me life and took care of me my whole life, only for me to fail her when she needed me. But what do I do with this guilt? How do I punish…"
"Virginia, I never, ever want to give anyone the impression that I did everything right. And I got way too much praise through mom's illness and after her death. I knew better. They were right about one thing. I sure loved my mom. I could have…"