Are you a math major? I noticed a couple comments with math references (infinite numbers between zero and one, and another regarding your math prof).
The reason I ask is that my son is a math major (along with computer engineering). Math is his one true love. He will be a senior at university this year then going on to his phd in mathematics. His focus will be a very specific area of number theory.
You don't run in to high level mathematicians every day, so I thought I'd ask.
I hope you are getting through the day okay today. Losing my mother has been devastating for both me and my son. My son deals with it by throwing himself into his research. I just take it day by day.
Hi,Danny ,sorry about your loss.It was my mom's 1st death anniversary on 2nd March.You are right, there will be no history of the month in the previous year.It shatters me to realize this.What do I do now?
Thank you for your comment and concern Danny. Yes, it has been very difficult to digest this loss, but moving back to the old neighborhood? I have more friends now Here than I ever did back in the "old neighborhood". I have more support, I now have a church family, the grief support group family, and I've bonded with many of my neighbors here more so than before. It's been a year of firsts....first time his birthday passed without him in April, first time my birthday passed without him, all the activities we used to do yearly like going to fairs and festivals and theme parks and the beach trips. Dreading the holidays, but that's what my new group is helping with. New Year's Eve will be the worst, because that was our Anniversary. So far I've learned to make my own new traditions, my sister is treating me to a Carnival Cruise Thanksgiving week (next week!), and will be with me for 3 weeks during Christmas and New Year's. 2 years ago he gave me an exclusive oil portrait of Princess Merida...he said it was to "make me Brave". I had no idea how Brave I would have to be. God is telling me he wants me to be happy and live my life. It's not easy, certainly not pleasant, but I'm getting through it. Nothing worthwhile is easy, and none of us is promised a Tomorrow. Live for today. That was my beloved's motto. I have to move on to honor his memory. There was even more sadness this September....I had to have our beloved 14-year-old dog Daisy put to sleep. Besides her illness, I truly believe she was dying of a broken heart because Daddy never came home again (and she was a Daddy's girl.) I just hope 2015 is a better year. For all of us in this grief community....I wish everyone Peace in your heart.
Thanks Danny for adding me as a friend. You are right the cycle of good and bad days will probably continue. Think the trick is learning to maximize output during the good days and minimize collateral damage during the bad ones.
Danny, Thank you. I'm so sorry for your loss. That anchor and unconditional support is alot to lose. How is it possible for us to recover from all this? My heart aches to know how many out there hurt as much as I do. And I would never wish this kind of pain on anyone. I'm so fortunate to have stumbled upon this site. Otherwise, I don't know what I would have done by now. I send you tight hugs from across the world.
"Thank you Joe for your posts. In a weird way it gives me a lift. How? Because I know that I am not making up how hard this suffering is.
My closest friend and sibling also know how I feel about dying and I know I would not have to…"
"joe that is incredible.
thanks for the time and energy sharing.
i think ill look at some of your suggestions and see what will work for me.
for me this week has been hard.
1 week until first anniversary of her death, i don't know what to…"
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When I read some of you guys suffering so long, it gives me great fear that despite my health neglect, and legal preparations, I don't know when it will actually come to…"
"I read your words and it brings me to my knees."
I keep asking God to let me go many times a day. I tell Him/Her/It that I will never relent until my prayer is answered. I ask my love to keep asking too and have…"
"Thanks Bluebird for nice comment about my Julian. He was so caring and was my rock. Being with him for 24/7 for 13 years of our retirement was bliss, I thank God for this time together.
Morgan & Joe I keep believing there is eternal love…"
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I am so glad that the folks on this forum feel the same way I do. Society is always trying to label people, if we don't agree with them they think we are weird or crazy. My sweet Husband Julian taught me to ignore what other people…"
"I fully agree with you both, Linda and Monty. My deep and abiding grief is the only response I could possibly have to my husband's death. My soulmate was torn from me, and I don't know if his wonderful soul still exists, or if I will ever…"
"Hi Avi, it would be nice to have a friend. The time gap is big but we can agree on a time to talk. Keeping busy also functions for me. Anyways, as soon as I have free time the thoughts and feelings came back and grief hits so hard. I wish you have a…"
India is 8.30 hours ahead of Argentina. We can talk at your early morning whenever you want.
Feeling of desolation still exists for me but I try to be strong and do things (work, travel, eating etc) with sincerity. "
"Agreed, Daylight. I often think about how appalled my mom and my husband would be by my current state. But I would say that the feeling of total desolation will change, based on my experience with my husband’s death, thirty months…"