"its been 2 years and a bit but so hard to take steps forward. i have managed somehow with a lot of problems but that special bond...taking it month t month even noow so bless you all. it never goes away but the pan had taken its own path"
"charity wolf and others no the pain does not go away ever ever. i have bee in touch with martha since 2 years and waht she says is one way to look at it ie we may need to conduct ourselves and take the steps until God calls. The first few…"
"Ya its been two years for me and the pain is very much there and i am so nervous as i try and avoid big decisions until i feel ready to take them as i did everything after taking a perspective from my parent. Have had to make one big one but…"
"good to see martha here after a while. As for the grief it is going to be there and i am trying to live with it. i have done some things to keep myself sane but l tell you its been two years now and regularly engage in a dialogue as i know we…"
Are you a math major? I noticed a couple comments with math references (infinite numbers between zero and one, and another regarding your math prof).
The reason I ask is that my son is a math major (along with computer engineering). Math is his one true love. He will be a senior at university this year then going on to his phd in mathematics. His focus will be a very specific area of number theory.
You don't run in to high level mathematicians every day, so I thought I'd ask.
I hope you are getting through the day okay today. Losing my mother has been devastating for both me and my son. My son deals with it by throwing himself into his research. I just take it day by day.
Hi,Danny ,sorry about your loss.It was my mom's 1st death anniversary on 2nd March.You are right, there will be no history of the month in the previous year.It shatters me to realize this.What do I do now?
Thank you for your comment and concern Danny. Yes, it has been very difficult to digest this loss, but moving back to the old neighborhood? I have more friends now Here than I ever did back in the "old neighborhood". I have more support, I now have a church family, the grief support group family, and I've bonded with many of my neighbors here more so than before. It's been a year of firsts....first time his birthday passed without him in April, first time my birthday passed without him, all the activities we used to do yearly like going to fairs and festivals and theme parks and the beach trips. Dreading the holidays, but that's what my new group is helping with. New Year's Eve will be the worst, because that was our Anniversary. So far I've learned to make my own new traditions, my sister is treating me to a Carnival Cruise Thanksgiving week (next week!), and will be with me for 3 weeks during Christmas and New Year's. 2 years ago he gave me an exclusive oil portrait of Princess Merida...he said it was to "make me Brave". I had no idea how Brave I would have to be. God is telling me he wants me to be happy and live my life. It's not easy, certainly not pleasant, but I'm getting through it. Nothing worthwhile is easy, and none of us is promised a Tomorrow. Live for today. That was my beloved's motto. I have to move on to honor his memory. There was even more sadness this September....I had to have our beloved 14-year-old dog Daisy put to sleep. Besides her illness, I truly believe she was dying of a broken heart because Daddy never came home again (and she was a Daddy's girl.) I just hope 2015 is a better year. For all of us in this grief community....I wish everyone Peace in your heart.
Thanks Danny for adding me as a friend. You are right the cycle of good and bad days will probably continue. Think the trick is learning to maximize output during the good days and minimize collateral damage during the bad ones.
Danny, Thank you. I'm so sorry for your loss. That anchor and unconditional support is alot to lose. How is it possible for us to recover from all this? My heart aches to know how many out there hurt as much as I do. And I would never wish this kind of pain on anyone. I'm so fortunate to have stumbled upon this site. Otherwise, I don't know what I would have done by now. I send you tight hugs from across the world.
There is a part of being human that is perhaps more evident to who is more an INTROSPECTIVE person. The part in me that the REBEL takes charge and propulse CHANGE. It´s not visible to others necessarily. Because it is in such a deep level, that most don´t quite read right. Works like this. When a lot of people tell you things that are not remotely acceptable, you make a longer distance from them to you. And they wonder what´s wrong, and of course they wont point at themselves reading you wrong…See More
"Fabulous! Enjoy the small moments. I still run my karaoke business, but it was so hard to sing so many songs without choking up during them. Now, I've found a way to pull strength from them. I wish I could explain…"
"Well my friends, a strange thing has happened. This morning I was ranting to you all about not having a sign to say my Shirl is ok and still with me. We run or did run a dog training club together, we have done this since 1995, I am trying to carry…"
"Oh and also can I just say that the worst thin I'm hearing over and over is that she is at peace now. She was at peace before she died, she was reading the paper saying what we were going to watch on TV that evening. She had just enjoyed tea…"
"I'm getting this all the time, iv been told I'm still young enough to meet someone else, wtf! Light at the end of the end of the tunnel, it will get better with time. Keep yourself busy and you won't notice it so much. No one has a…"
"People are just trying to help I believe. I can't stand when people want to know how they died. Why? I love them, I miss them, their route of departure isn't important. I have experienced much loss in my life, the most recently my…"
"I believe you got your answer Cindi... God is a merciful God and knows our hearts even with everyone else thinks they do... but only He does and only our hearts matter.. we all say and do things that hurt Him and like the best parent ever He loves…"
"This sounds very much like my experience of losing my amazing mother nearly 4 years ago. I felt totally empty and dead inside, and lost almost every reason to live. I clung to the few things left in my life that had meaning, and really just wanted…"
"My 36 year old son Christopher died April 5th of an alcohol drug overdose. He is a Christian and fought addictions for many years. I have tremendous guilt praying I could of helped him-saved him. A few days ago I saw an Angel, just after…"
"October 22nd, 2012, my elder son was told he had late-stage Hodgkin's Lymphoma. Massive tumour on his right lung. Inoperable. Long story short: he went through HELL and he died just a month later. No counselling has ever been offered. I've…"
"So, I am having to learn all about SUDEP, Sudden Unexpected Death in Epilepsy. 13 Saturday's ago today, my beautiful, healthy, adoring, wife has apparently died from this mysterious condition, that is even more mysterious when you don't…"
"Jackie, im so sorry for your loss, my so called friends are also non existent, like you I understand they have lost the fun, happy person I once was, I will never be that person again, that person died when he did. I also understand the family part,…"
"All this is so true , there is no joy in waking up, every night i won't, it's 7 weeks today since my life came to an end and every day is worse. Friends are non existent,i don't blame them,the happy fun person has gone and all…"
January 20, my son's father lost his life to addiction. My son is eight years old, it seems so unfair that a little kid has to endure such grief. His father and I grew up together, I knew why he was the way he was. His parents both were addicts and we're in prison. Well tomy ( my son's father ) , continued the cycle. When our son, drake was born, tomy was in prison and it continued through drake's life. Tomy came home from his last stint in prison December 15 and was found dead Jan 20. Only had…See More
The refrain is so similar and familiar for all of us. I was at Lowes tonight and I was picking up things for the job I am doing and the fellow who was helping me said I should be on a beach somewhere reading a book having a good time…"