I am a tutor and a substitute teacher. I work primarily with middle school students
About my Loss:
I lost my mother on March 3,2014 to Myelodysplastic syndrome(a type of leukemia). She was diagnosed in June 2011 and the doctors decided to monitor her condition.In 2012, they went forward with putting her on a few clinical trials which worked for about a year. My mom was then cleared for a bone marrow transplant with her brother being her donor. She was unable to have the transplant due to infections.
FEB 27- She woke up confused and had a high fever. We rushed her to the hospital. They found that she had bleeding her brain that comes from a person having low blood counts. She died a few days later 3-3-2014
She was only 56 years old and strong christian. I believe that she is in Heaven but my life on earth is very empty.
I have been attending a grief share group at my local church but decided to try this out too. I am hoping to meet friends who are on the same grief journey. I know this is not really a fun group to belong to, but we need to walk through life with others who understand our pain.
Feel free to message me or comment if you just want to talk!
I am open to hear your stories about your loved ones, good or bad.
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Tina I'm sorry about your mom.You and I started our grief journey together.
On 26 Feb 2014 mom was discharged from hospital, as she would have taken 6 months to an year to be on her feet(the assault left her ,totally bed ridden,the left half of her boby was paralyzed & the right was hyperactive she was in coma for 28-30 days).The neurosurgeon had assured 100% recovery but 27th onwards mom just slipped out of our hands and died of massive heart attack on 2nd March 2014.Prior to assault ,mom was fit as a fiddle.The doctors neglected her heart,which after beating at the rate of 110-126 beats / min for 40 days ,failed out of fatigue.Dear friend You too suffered during the same period 27th feb-3rd march.My heart goes out to you.Take care.Its a long journey ahead and we'll help eachother.Lots of love.
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