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Bed time is one of the hardest times since he passed away.

Night time is the hardest part of the day for me, that's when we would talk and share about how our day had gone. Then plan for the following day, I miss doing that. Does anyone know what I'm talking about? I'm missing him right this minute!

I love you Rob!

Added by rodan99 on May 25, 2010 at 1:05am — 1 Comment

LiveStrong

Yesterday I went to our local LiveStrong Event here in town. I am so glad I did. I couldn't run but I did put a whole bunch of names on the chain of hope. Some survived cancer and some didn't. Mommy didn't! I came to support the runners and walkers and riders in her memory.There are so many times yesterday when they were talking that I was thinking that if they ever cure Ovarian Cancer it would not be able to help Mommy but it would help other women. I am trying still to…

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Added by Paige Anne Lovelace on May 24, 2010 at 10:52am — No Comments

Just Thinking about you today Mom

I have been thinking alot about you today mom and I don't know why. I guess because I was talking to friend of mine on Facebook about what you and dad did for Michael. There were so many times I counted on you and you came through and I could never have repayed you for those times. Now I can't and it bothers me alot. Did you ever know how much you meant to me? Did I say I love you enough? Did I tell you I appreciated you enough? I love you mom so much! Paige

Added by Paige Anne Lovelace on May 18, 2010 at 10:24am — No Comments

Rape Grief

I totally believe that you grieve over the loss of yourself when you are raped. I am a survivor of rape and I can honestly say that I greived over the parts of me that were taken away from the rape and I am not sure even now as healed as I have been that they will come back,. I mourn for the trusting way I used to be because I am not that way anymore. And I mourn for the happiness I lost in my life. It has not been an easy road but I am making it slowly back maybe not to the person I was but a… Continue

Added by Paige Anne Lovelace on May 15, 2010 at 9:01am — 1 Comment

Being an orphan

My worst fear in the world at one time was being an orphan. That came true when my dad died three years ago. When it finally happened it wasn't the big fear I thought it was going to be. The overwhelming feeling I had wasn't fear but a complete and utter saddness knowing that neither one of my parens would ever be there at the happy moments in my life. My dad won't be able to walk me down the asile if I get married again. They won't see my son marry and have children of his own. I know they are… Continue

Added by Paige Anne Lovelace on May 13, 2010 at 9:16am — No Comments

Mom

What I wouldn't give to have one more day with you! One more hug! One more kiss! One more conversation. It is never to be because cancer took you from us far to young. I see you everywhere Mom. In the sky on a clear day and in my bedroom at night. Because of you I no longer fear death. I can't wait to see you and dad in heaven. I miss you every day! Thank you for being my mom and my best friend! I love you and miss you so very much.

Added by Paige Anne Lovelace on May 12, 2010 at 4:07pm — No Comments

I'm guilt ridden

Hi everyone, Im new to this so bare with me.

My mom passed away on March 27th of this year. She was 57 yrs old. She has been ill for over 5 years now and no one could diagnose her disease. She had back surgery for a herniated disc and about a year after that she started to go down hill.

The first symptoms were her speech. She started slurring her words. Automatically we thought it was because of her pain medication she was taking for her back. However, after…

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Added by Stacy on April 28, 2010 at 6:54pm — 2 Comments

Grieving Process

Grief is a process that you must decide to go through. I never thought @ age 37 I would be grieving my husband. I'm just looking for people to listen and give advice. I'm currently in Grief Share, but when that ends I know of no support groups locally to attend. I hope someone can share some advice concerning suicide of a love one. This is one of the hardest things that I've ever had to deal with. A suicide leaves so many unanswered questions and… Continue

Added by Dana Allen on April 26, 2010 at 5:30pm — No Comments

Pretty white dress!

I walk in this cold room where My daughter is layin on this steel table, From far away it looks as if she is sleeping. I get closer to her and she looks so peaceful so still so beautiful but yet so lifeless! My kids including myself sleep with our eyes open..on this occassion hers are tighly shut..I stand beside her picking the grass out of her HAIR, and telling her how much I love her! She had braids in her hair I took them down and combed her hair ever so gently! Put a Tiara in her hair,…

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Added by Shelly on April 15, 2010 at 9:00am — 2 Comments

My Sweet Angel Above

My dearest sweet Jessy who understands from above

It's been two years, and still so strong is our love

I've been through positive times, determined to grow

But it's slower than I thought, much much more slow

When first we were parted, people told me, "you need to…

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Added by Stephanie on April 9, 2010 at 6:30pm — 4 Comments

Hopelessly Sad

I suffer from depression and anxiety and have been coping with this for the past year or so. I have gone through the sudden death of a friend and two traumatic breakups. I had started to feel better, lighter, and as if life was finally going right. I had met a guy that had complimented me in every way. We were inseperable and not five minutes would go by without us calling, texting, or emailing one another. I felt so safe with him and finally let my guard down. Yesterday, he broke up with…

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Added by Kelsey Ross on April 6, 2010 at 5:34pm — 5 Comments

FEBRUARY 15-16,2009



It is the morning after we were at the hospital all night because they had to sedate him because breathing was too hard with the breathing tube in for him. It is around 9 in the morning and I wake up and to my surprise everyone else is asleep from the long night…
The phone rings and it is his oncologist and I answer it and he mistakes me for my mom. He says that they did blood tests and there is a serious infection with his kidneys from his low white blood cell…
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Added by Alexis Walls on April 2, 2010 at 2:47pm — No Comments

Thank you for welcoming me to the on-line grief community.

I woke up in the middle of the night, feeling like I was going to suffocate. The 40th anniversary of my mothers death is this Sunday April 4. She had cancer. I was 11 years old. I did not know that my mother was going to die. When she did, I started to cry, my aunt said "stop crying you are just feeling sorry for yourself" I learned to hold all of my feeling inside, I have turned my anger inward and am now depressed. As a 51 year old mother of 2, I need to know how to grieve and how to pass… Continue

Added by Donna Olson on March 29, 2010 at 8:15am — 1 Comment

I Can Hear you Whisper - by Sandy Goodman

I CAN HEAR YOU WHISPER



In the mornings

I reserve my drive time

To say hello to you

And to feel you surround me

With your violet eddy of emotions.

In the beginning, a hundred years ago (or was it yesterday?),

My trips to town were for crying,

For screaming,

For asking you over and over and over again

WHY YOU HAD TO LEAVE,

But now it's different.

Now we share the sunrise.

We listen to music,

We reach for…
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Added by Gail Richardson on March 21, 2010 at 4:52pm — No Comments

missing my son

why do we have to go through such bad times with grief. i miss my doug and all his funny little sayings that put a smile on your face he was truly a beatiful person inside and out life is just never going to br right again its been 5mo and i feel like i am losing it. paula

Added by paula ingalls on March 19, 2010 at 9:38pm — No Comments

1952 Club, six weeks!

So, you ask what the hell is the 1952 club? Well let me explain my

friend, it is a very strange phenomenon! It all started with three guys

who were born in 1952 (Matt, Tim and Fred) and who all had lovely girls

for their daughters. All three of their daughters met in Mortuary

School at Wayne State in 2006. All of these girls, Alex, Brit and Abs

graduated from school and are currently licensed funeral directors. All

of these girls went to the same school and became… Continue

Added by Stella on March 12, 2010 at 7:27pm — No Comments

One year on

This weekend will be one year since my dad died, i haven't been on here in a while. I've been getting really down alot recently, and also angry. I can feel myself taking my anger out on my mum, and i know i shouldn't. I want to stop myself but i can't, and after i'm done i hate myself for it.

I can't believe how quickly this year has gone by. Most of it i can't even remember.

I don't want to do anything, i don't have the motivation to get up and go find a job.

I don't…

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Added by Benny Shipton on March 11, 2010 at 9:07pm — No Comments

5 weeks, still feeling the pain...

So it has been five weeks since my dad had died. That still sounds weird in my head, the fact that my dad died. How the fuck could that be? He was only 57? Why is the only question I have? Was my dad a bad guy, did he deserve to die, why take him so early? It just does not make sense to his 27 year old daughter, he did not get to walk me down the aisle, he did not get to witness the birth of my first child, it is so unfair? Really is there someone above us who gets to decide this shit? Really… Continue

Added by Stella on March 3, 2010 at 7:56pm — No Comments

Needing him...

This weekend im going to look at apartments for college. I cant even imagine how hard its going to be without him there. I know hell be there with me in spirit, but i need him here in person. It really hits me hard that he wont be here to help me move out or to tell me hes proud of me. They say it gets easier as time passes, but in my case, not so much. i feel like everyday my heart tears a little more...the emptiness i feel gets worse...the pain of not having him here gets worse. i just hope… Continue

Added by Kayla on February 23, 2010 at 10:47pm — No Comments

stuck in a rut of depression...

So tomorrow I have a paper due for class and I can not get motivated to start this paper. This is not like me, yea normally I procrastinate and wait till the last minute, but I always get my work done. I think I work best under a little pressure. But right now, I don't even care if I start this paper. I have up to a week to turn it in late and only get marked down one grade and that is looking to be my best option. Sorry to ramble, but I sat down at four o'clock to start this paper and just… Continue

Added by Stella on February 21, 2010 at 7:33pm — 1 Comment

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