Ordinary life...back to the BASICS. What are the basic needs? Shelter, food, health, and build a life allowing loving people around us. All else that does not construct or build to that, is a waste of ENERGY and TIME. When one is hurting, they tend to relate to others on the same level. Meaning they are choosing to enter and build others up or whatever they think is good, not realizing that is just temporary relief. Because realistically speaking no one can stop each other hurt because the…

About TUNNEL VISION. Sometimes life is hitting us from so many directions that we tend to have TUNNEL VISION. Meaning we feel not strong enough to fight in all directions, and take the path of least resistance. Problem is that that is not the direction we would choose ever if we were to disconsider all the pressure. Thus we drag all this opposition and let this determine where we are going, and by dragging seems much like a person trying to walk with a bag full of rocks thrown our way that…

Sometimes life seems like a full bag of tons of emotions, and much like a vulcano about to explode is my daily life filled with drama like a mexican soapopera. But the drama attracts more of much the same. And all of a sudden reality is full of crap I forgot where I signed up for it. Well I didn´t. In my case it´s time to refuse answering phone or door and sleep, rest, restore by setting the pace to heal SELF instead the clear option which is to buy sides in dramas that aren´t about me at…

About VULNERABILITY. Sometimes we attract shadows to our light. Just because we are wounded, however, it does not put us in the must deal with whatever crap comes our way. Simply put, a LIE is a lie. One can dance around it, paint colorful, draw a heart around, etc etc. Nevertheless a lie that is forced upon as truth all really does is show a lack of character. Some peers can cross the line between right and wrong as if it never existed, and some do this like second skin. And however…

I am having a lot to cope. Mother ilness and my own, and family members not useful, quite the opposite. We switched care givers and their poor decisions put me in a bigger problem and I had to stop seeing her. I fought a lot and still dump some crap from time to time. Now I try to be quiet and restore some leve of peace. With my ilness I felt emotionally vulnerable. One step forward for 2 back and taking it a day at a time. But hard to hide well enough so I can find some balance between…