Patterns of do we change? HEALING

It´s not easy to trade old patterns for new ones. THere is something to be said about comfort zone, and how we resort to that when anything is outside what we know or we think it should go. Takes so much effort to make where we are remotelly OK, that it´s peaceful achieved only by slowing down the thinking and allowing ourselves just to be. But all in do we make a shift into the new things with the calm and peace we need? HEALING takes time, and there is so much effort that will work. I think temperance comes from readiness of body and mind. Not looking for the old ways of looking, not becoming someone else is more likely to be our own life and still resemble ourselves in the mirror. Moving forward takes a LOT MORE self LOVE than pushing ourselves through the edges of comfortable. Perhaps we work on expanding the comfort zone to assimilate the best we can all that is out there and so much won´t make much sense and that´s ok. I guess expanding what is comfortable means to LOVE SELF to the point where nothing out there can shift much, just teach and feel ok. It´s like rescuing the self love so many times that eventually we have that in a CONSTANT and is the most important part of life. I think most of us have placed HAPPINESS or FULFILLMENT elsewhere. And as much as that worked... wasn´t susteinable because people come and go...if not in this life...FROM THIS LIFE. They pass. And therefore we wonder..what then? Restablishing a better relationship with SELF is easier said than done. Sometimes we know to LOVE OTHERS so much easier than SELF. It´s like we depend on what comes and give in sure ways it will come back. But in this world and in the OUT AND ABOUT, we give so much more love, compassion, and kindness, that we wonder after sometime if we really know to open our minds to the UNIVERSE to RECEIVE. We are great givers...but how good are we in receiving? I guess part of that comes from coming to expect this inhospital place amongst humans, whereas most instead of compassion capitalize in the holes and dumps we care to shate. Sometimes we want to be open and willing...and then we get one slap to the face after another. This society is quite empty, and the ways we fulfill aren´t meaningful to most. Because are used to fill feeling with money, attention with buying, and overall the negative influences and words come rampant when we need the least. And we tend to build this island in the realms of our uniqe thinking and universe where everything is FINALLY FINE. And the door is a little more closed than before because we know we find peacel. NOW changing that PATTERN is difficult. And necessary to change the vibs and what we attract to our existencce. HEaling is not easy because we have to dig deeper for so much that don[t make sense to most. For instance, if I need to increase my self healing body and mind, how can I do that with less negative influences in ways to replace our expectations? I don´t know. I really try meditation and all, and I know that helps. But I just don[t see how to trade previous experience with new naive. Sounds quite silly. Maybe I still need to dig DEEPER, who knows? I am opening up but when it goes into 4 or 5 things wrong in the sequence I want to shut the world and breath again...How EASY I can be with life in new ways...I think time will tell....Sight

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