"Widow brain is real. Factual. Many good articles on it. I am better than I was but not where I was before he got sick. I thought after he passed I was getting Dementia until my physician pointed me to articles on widow brain. …"
"Morgan. I too feel your pain. I keep very busy to avoid the thoughts that overcome me. When they do it is unbearable and I'm in disbelief that he is gone. So I get busy again. It's the only way I'm able to…"
"I'm so sorry for your loss Jeff. I hope you will find support and comfort on this site and what I have appreciated here is being able to say whatever I feel and not be judged. I lost my husband of 43 years last May and I am trying…"
"Joe: I'm with you on the signs. I was positive my husband would send me signs. I've read many books where people say it happens. It's not a bird or a butterfly, but they actual see and hear their loved…"
"I feel the very same Morgan. I had a love affair for 43 years. We have 3 children who are still devastated but would be completely paralyzed if I did something like you are talking about. I will bear this pain and remain alone for…"
"Morgan. Thank you so much for thinking of me yesterday and your words that hit home so much for me and many on here. You are so right about barely able to breathe at one year. I told my daughter yesterday was just like every day for…"
"I'm sorry Linda. I think the realization that all the plans made for retirement are gone and we are alone is the hardest thing to comprehend. The majority of my life I had been married. 43 years. To try and adjust to a…"
"Thank you Trina. I appreciate your kind words. I've had a sister and my little 98 yo mom say things like "you can't hide this by working so much, you have to face it." Or " it's been a year, you need…"
"All I do is work. I'm exhausted at the end of each day. The only time I don't think about things is when I'm working. The rest of the time it is all I think about. I play things over and over in my head. …"
As my third year alone approaches on April 29th, there is no peace. I miss Nancy more than ever and the only thing that makes living tolerable is my belief that I WILL see her again in the next life. As far as living today...I always told My Nancy "I wouldn't want to live in a world without you in it" and I still believe that! I am seeing a counselor of late and it doesn't do much more than kill time.
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"Avi, I feel like you are going through a rough time right now. You're not alone. One of the great things about a site like this is that you are a world away but I know who you are and I know that you are missing your mom just as much as I am.…"
"My mom worried about every detail of my life. There are some who would say that is intrusive. I felt that she was just being a mom. I miss that so much. I had the flu last year. I was laying in that bed and all I could hear was silence. My mom would…"
"Good morning Adams. It is 9:40 AM in India and I am at my job and trying to concentrate hard as my Mom always wanted.
I have almost stopped complaining of anything in life now as I have already lost my most precious gift. Now what ever I have…"
"Avi, the fact that you were close enough with your mother to share your negative feelings about your job shows real intimacy, which I think is what loving mothers treasure above all else. So hard accepting that we will not hear that beloved…"
"Even my mother always used to say that live your life fully but I was always complaining on some matters. She used to worry about me the most as I was not stable in my job and used to talk about quitting it often. She always used to say, love your…"
"Alice, I regret not getting it together to write on Dec 2nd as I recall that was your anniversary of your husbands death date. I have just been swimming upstream through the rapids. Each year during the "seasonal"…"
"You know what when my mom could not be resuscitated, her eyes were wide open and looking toward the right towards me as I walked in, she saw me I know it. I shut her eyes. I wanted the hospital staff to leave me alone. They were…"
"SelV, your mom would have had it no other way. She saw you take your first breath. You saw her take her last. I experienced that as well. If I had my way, I would have gone before my mom. Is that selfish of me? Yes. I don't care. Losing mom was…"
"Dear all...the thought "What if I had died due to unforeseen circumstances and my elderly widowed mother had to grief my death?" crossed my mind many times. Knowing my mother, her world (of me and her) would have collapsed and she would…"
"I think you're right, Theresa. We are a sad bunch. I think our moms would be touched that we love them so much, but they would probably also want us to be happy and move on. I just don't think that's possible, nor do I believe that my…"
"So I have been really busy at work and with moving, but of course at night when I get in bed I cry and cry.
I finally have come to realize this will be the new normal I guess, I do not think I will every stop missing my mom ever..."
Cancer is indeed a plague. Death from cancer is only part of the story. The journey from diagnosis to death is horrific and overwhelming. Even though cancer effects a lot of people, there are so many that just don't understand how…"