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Permalink Reply by Bill Smith on October 19, 2013 at 3:17pm

I'm so sorry for your loss.  There is in my opinion no worse loss than that of one's own children.  I wish you the best possible going forward and hope you have others around to help you through this.

Permalink Reply by Joycelyn on October 19, 2013 at 5:28pm

Thank you

Permalink Reply by dream moon JO B on October 19, 2013 at 3:22pm

im so sory for yore loss joycelen i cnt evn say big c word coz it mks me feal sic iv lost so nny 2 ths evil desie i hav its not fair 2 loze kids 2 ths its not fair 2 loze any 1 2ths horbel dese iv got a few famly tryng 2 beat it now

Permalink Reply by Joycelyn on October 19, 2013 at 5:31pm

I found out just recently that I have squamous cell carcinoma. I don't want American therapy. I feel that chemo and radiation killed my daughter.

Permalink Reply by dream moon JO B on October 20, 2013 at 3:27pm

im so sory joycelyn my dads cuzne danny had lukema he refusd tretmnt coz he saed it wz wors th inles it slf he died in 2011 my dad died in 2012 but my dad still dnt no wot he died of coz postmtmen wz full of bullshit it wz 3 difrnt reprts 3 dift tms of death all ino he died at 220 am coz me mum got th at 230 am 10 mins late 

i fnd it hrd 2 trust hosptless bst of tms i do

Permalink Reply by linda hernandez on October 19, 2013 at 6:02pm

Jocelyn my son was taken by cancer on Aug 21,2012 its not one bit fair and i feel your pain my son was 39 had a girl he wanted to marry but that never happened he pass 2 weeks after being told he had cancer this is my second child i have lost my first was 6 yrs old even harder didn't have her that long when acute lymblastic leukemia she lived 1 year,i have 2 other children older wake up every morning glad that there healthy but always in the back of my mind when.i miss both my children bad and i had a rough spot where  i always wondered why not me,but here in this support group you can vent,post,cry or just let the one you lost know how your feeling there are all around us we all have lost i would be here if u need someone just let me know.  

Permalink Reply by Joycelyn on October 20, 2013 at 1:06am

Thank you for your kind words. I also lost my son at 14 mos many years ago. Before my daughter died I used to ask God how long he was going to let me keep my daughter. Somehow I knew she would go before me someday. I feel numb most of the time. Confused and forgetful. I feel embarrassed like people look at me different. I'm glad people like you are here to talk to.

Permalink Reply by Wendy (Boabie) on October 19, 2013 at 6:31pm

Joycelyn, I am so very sorry for the loss of your daughter. I have a son born in 1991.
So, I cannot imagine the pain you are in. My mom died 8 weeks ago today. Know that I
am praying for you and that your daughter is with God. Big Hug!

Permalink Reply by Joycelyn on October 22, 2013 at 12:29am

Thank you. I believe that our loved ones are in heaven watching over us. I still talk to my daughter. This life we live is a journey. The pain we feel is real. Everyday is a struggle for me. Know that your mother loved you and would want you to be happy. Enjoy your children, they are part of you.