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How do I get unstuck?
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I am having a hard time moving forward with all of this weight of loss and grievance. I lost my 56 year old dad, who I was exceptionally close with. He was my person. Most people have their mom as…Continue

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dream moon JO B replied to Amy's discussion How do I get unstuck?
"so sorry on yore loss u can olnly do it wen u reddyy i no i had a loto of set bacs i di d but we all difnro peplee we is i no in 2018 i fondmy slf goin 2 spirtlastt churchh for ansesrd in steds of try  to seak medims lk a fe wpeplee do on…"
Aug 22
Dennis C. replied to Amy's discussion How do I get unstuck?
"Amy, I am so sorry for your loss. The journey of caregiving is extremely difficult. The loss of our especially loved dear ones is unspeakable. There are so many different ideas about what happens to us when we die. Religion teaches many different…"
Jul 19
Amy replied to Amy's discussion How do I get unstuck?
"I am not a believer and nor was he. We covered the bases just incase though. We were both raised Catholic. That is all besides the point though. "
Jul 15
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Michelle replied to Amy's discussion How do I get unstuck?
"I am a Christian. His suffering is over. In heaven you get a new body. So he got a new healthy body. What kind I don't know. This is what I believe. So I think he is happy and healthy."
Jul 6
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How do I get unstuck?

I am having a hard time moving forward with all of this weight of loss and grievance. I lost my 56 year old dad, who I was exceptionally close with. He was my person. Most people have their mom as their person. I had two people as my person: my dad and my maternal grandmother. I my dad and I swapped spots in December and then lost him in March and my maternal grandmother and I swapped spots last October. I have to be her rock and had to be my dad's until the end. I have never been "rock-less".…See More
Jul 1
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About Me:
I'm a married 27 year old college graduate without a job.
About my Loss:
My Dad. He passed away March 27th 2019. He was 56. He passed away to stage four Renal Carcinoma--Kidney cancer. They found it in December and it was all up and in his spine and both of his lungs. They did an unnecessary spinal surgery, removing 90% of the the cancer and a spinal disk and a half. I was with him from the last surgery in December until his death. I went down to FL thinking I was only going to be there a week. I was there for over three months fighting for him constantly to have what everyone dying is entitled to, comfort and content. I knew I couldn't make him happy, but comfort and content is a good goal, a hard goal, and worth it. I miss him. I was with him 24/7 for hald the time, the other half I was there +12 hours daily except Thursdays. And for that entire time I spent only nine days not with him. He needed someone to stand up for him because the drugs had him messed up and he needed help. I couldn't leave him on his own. Now I am on my own and I miss him so much. He had, had such a shitty end. No one deserves that kind of ending.
I am trying to move on with this baggage and without him...I am having a real hard time.

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