Thank you for writing to me. i was taking a long break from the group...sometimes I do that when I need it the most. Isn't that funny. Steve's results from his autopsy came back. He died from undetected cardiovascular disease. I find myself feeling very guilty here that I didn't recognize the signs and push more for him to go to the doctors/cardiologist sooner.God takes people when He is ready to take them. I do believe that. But grief doesn't always want us to feel comfortable in that belief. It is a process I suppose. I appreciate all the support here. And I have come far. Thanks to my family and a support group I attend, and you as well,my spirituality is returning to a great extent. If I take long breaks from this site, please know, I bring all the support with me, and will always be back for more...and hopefully...sooner than later..to give support as well!!! God Bless you Christine

Hi Brenda, thanks for your reply....don't know when I wrote that comment, but Praise the Lord, a lot has happened since then.  Last spring, I was missing my fellowship with the Lord so much, that I got down on my knees and said:  "Lord I don't feel this, I don't know if this will do any good, but please turn my heart of stone into a heart of flesh"...I didn't feel any different at the time, but gradually I began to soften.  A few weeks after that we had a healing service at our church, and I was prayed for.  I truly believe that instead of just dealing with grief, I had a "SPIRIT OF GRIEF" on me that would not leave....But praise JESUS he has healed my spirit of grief.  Don't get me wrong, I still miss Matt, but I can honestly say that I would not bring him back if God would allow it.  HE IS WITH JESUS!!!! Who would want to come back.  I had felt so bad and asked God "You knew when he was born, that he was leaving at 26"....at the time that seemed so cruel....and I asked the LORD:" Lord, what could make it worth it to go through this? "  HE answered me and said:  Patti, what if Matt had been born in a family who did not believe in ME?   You exposed him to the TRUTH, and he accepted me at 11, and now he is with me.  That was worth it for me.  I truly would like to get to know you better and email and talk w/you some more......Thanks again, and please continue to pray for me.  GOD IS GOOD....ALL THE TIME.....I truly believe that again!  I am so glad HE did not give up on me....Blessings, Patti (Matt's Mom).

Thank you for being a friend Brenda!

You are surrounded by great people and friends on here!
Peace and Prayers,

Michael 

Hi Brenda, honored by your friend request....looking forward to getting to know you better...Blessings, Patti Meadows (Matt's Mom)

Hello Brenda,

Thank you for your words of courage and taking the time to reach out to me, when i have been hit rock bottom. Thank you for the article regarding Dreams. It does make a lot of sense and understanding how dreams are developed.

P.S. Great Pictures and Thank You for sharing.

Hi, Brenda,  Thanks for the friend request.  I read the beautiful comment you added to Amanda Ab's comment to remind her she is grateful for the time she and Danny were together.  Isn't that true, that we need to hold grateful hearts for the love that has been shown us and the love we were able to share with our beloved ones.  Thanks for the honor, best wishes Ruth.

hello brenda,

just checking in to say hi. hope you are doing okay from your accident.

amanda

I hope you are doing better now! That sounds really frightening...

Hello Brenda Ann... I was never able to read the comment you left for me a while ago until now...my computer was out of commission at such a bad time for me. However reading it now was so comforting to me... I want to thank you from with my heart soul... much love and God bless you and yours ... Christine