Ross Hotard
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My daughter died of an accidental overdose, she was 17 years old. She was an only child, and we are struggling trying to cope. We laid her to rest yesterday, I wake up each morning and stare into her room, and ask why so young, and how can i move forward. She was my little buddy. She was so musically talented. It was gift to have her in our lives, and now that beautiful gift has been taken away. I feel like a part of me is missing. My wife seems to be handling this much easier than me.

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Wish you were here

I'm so tired of being here

Suppressed by all my childish fears

And if you have to leave

I wish that you would just leave

'Cause your presence still lingers here

And it won't leave me alone



These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase





When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears

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Posted on January 25, 2015 at 6:22am

Comfort

It's still to fresh. The hurt doesn't go away. I hope she's finally happy now. All her pain has been passed on to me. It doesn't seem to go away. I miss my little buddy so much. I use to wipe her tears away. It's not right. I can't help her anymore. She starting to appear in my dreams every night now. I wake up feeling down. I just want her to come back home.

Posted on January 19, 2015 at 5:53am — 2 Comments

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At 10:09pm on January 10, 2015, Gale Brunault said…

Hi Ross - just checking in to see how you're doing.  Hope you are finding strength each day to get through the difficult moments.  Grief puts us on a completely different channel than others; it's like rock n roll versus classical.  Two different frequencies. 

Please know that I think about your daughter and that adorable face - I have no doubt that my handsome son Michael (an only child) has already introduced himself to her and they are talking music and art and lord knows what else!

Blessings to you Ross

Gale

At 12:17pm on January 8, 2015, Sandy Hendrix said…

Hey Ross, just thinking of you today and sending you thoughts and hugs.

At 9:20am on January 3, 2015, Gale Brunault said…

Hi Ross - I'm so so sorry for your loss.  I too lost my only child/a son at age 31 to an accidental overdose on June 9, 2014.  It is the most challenging experience of our life.  Living without our precious child is more than one can take, and yet we still breathe, walk and somehow go on.  I NEVER EVER thought I could live without my Michael - miracles happen though.  I'm living proof.  Please feel free to reach out and talk anytime.  I absolutely get how devastating it is to lose your only child; I will keep you in my thoughts.  She looks like a person who lived life on her terms; such a sweet photo.........Gale

At 11:03am on December 21, 2014, Connie K said…

Hi Ross

 I am so sorry to have to welcome you to this group. I lost my only child as well. He was also 17. It was 2 years ago. As I read your profile I couldn't help but feel all the similarities. My son died in a car accident but he had also struggled with a dependency on prescription drugs from  problems he had from Crohn's disease. So i understand the  struggle that goes with that. My heart is so sad for you. Have faith and I hope you can find some support here. We know how crushing the pain is and how hard especially now at the holidays when everyone is supposed to be so happy and sharing with family. I am sending you love and prayers. Connie

At 7:30am on December 20, 2014, kim said…

ross, im so very sorry, I to lost my only child my son shawn. it was his heart. I was with him when he left me and yes I pray everyday to go with him, shawn is the love of my life and always will be. I cry morning, noon and night. ill never laugh or smile again. without him I just cant and don't want to go on. I go see him everyday and beg him to come get me. I do know your unbearable pain, and I know your wife is hurting bad to, she just shows it in a different way. getting through these holidays hurt bad, I just hate them , to us its just another day, we don't do them any more.  we are here to talk to when you need us, and yes it helps to talk.  hugs to you and your wife   kim

At 1:36pm on December 17, 2014, Sandy Hendrix said…

Hi Ross, so very very sorry for your loss, it's been 7 weeks for me..my beautiful 18 year old son to a heroin overdose.  We all understand, a part of me is missing also and it's the hardest thing in the world. As we have learned everybody handles grief differently, she maybe just blocking out the horrible pain that we are feeling.  We are here for you, the group helps me cope with each day.  Big hugs and again wouldn't wish this pain on anybody. So sorry..x0

At 12:24pm on December 16, 2014, Marie said…

I am so sorry Ross. I lost my twenty-two year old son to an accidental overdose too. It is just so terrible....I am finding it somewhat of a comfort to be able to talk on this site as nobody can understand just how devastating it is to lose a child...unless they themselves have. Your daughter was beautiful!

 
 
 

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