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I can understand your pain as I lost my mom on 15 May 2018. It is still very demotivating to live as I am not only fighting with grief of losing my mother but also guilt of not taking complete care of her during her cancer days.
But I will request you to find motivation to live in helping others. This is the best way we can serve our lives by helping others who are in need. Please check your surroundings, there will be some one who needs help.
Hello Betty Ellsworth, "nobody can relate"!. How very true this is!. I lost my wife to bowel cancer in 2014, we were married 22 years.
I dont know the trick to getting and feeling better, but I do know that somehow we both have to.
Life is a real bastard when we lose someone close to us.
I lost my mum several years ago, she fell over and that was that, I felt like an orphan, but nothing could have prepared me for losing my wife.
Betty, I want to say something to help you. I just don't know what that something is. I haven't got a clue because I am still brokenhearted myself.
I feel like I can relate to you. I hope it's at least a comfort to know that you're not alone.
I can relate to you in many ways unfortunately. I am an only child, still live with my Dad but we are not close. My Mom is my best friend.
I feel extreme guilt for not using the respirator, even though I dont think she wanted it. I wonder, what if and WHY didn’t I make the doctors do something and why didn’t I talk to the doctors more like I usually do and what was wrong with me? I went over and over it again and again. I have no answers. And it feels horrible to think that I could have done something. I mean I’d go around squirting hand sanitizer in her hands all the time, trying to protect her in every way possible and then when it counts, I do nothing? We were so careful about everything our whole lives and then I ruin everything in an instant. I can’t live with that.
I hate life, I’m always tired or nervous, I’m completely alone, I don’t always eat, and I want to die.
And Christmas was our favorite time, she’s like Mrs. Claus so I’m not spending it without her.
I wish I could find a good reply for you. I feel deep loneliness and sadness since the death of my mother last month.My wish is to die like her. Iam Crying everyday, go to work even on weekend, skipping meals, feeling like a homeless person as I believe in "Home is here mum is". My mum was all my life and my only family. My psychiatric advised me that I should socialize even I found it hard now, go outdoors, volunteer in charity campaigns. I am just trying to follow his instruction now and hopefully they can be useful for us.