Help me please

I've been taking my depression medication consistently for a long time, keeping up with my work, I'm trying so hard, but I dont know what to do... I feel horrible, I really, really feel fucking horrible. When I'm alone I crumble. It's so bad. God I'm just so tired of feeling this way, it's hell, it's horrible. That's when I'm not even thinking about my brother... Damn. Even writing that; 'my brother' and I'm in tears. Feel like I just got punched in the stomach. I feel sick and broken and hopeless and I don't know what to do it's so bad.

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Permalink Reply by Dia -Ayesha on September 3, 2013 at 1:56pm
Hi Mel. I'm sorry for your loss. Please accept my heartfelt condolences. I lost my beloved mum this july 22, 2013. She was the best mother ever, my soulmate , best friend and hero. Its pretty much the biggest loss of my life. I feel depressed, heartbroken , shattered. I can relate to your pain. If it makes you feel better please know you are not alone. There are many others here who share the same pain and sorrow you feel. If you need to talk I'm here to listen. You have my support and best wishes. God bless you.
Permalink Reply by Mel Pope on September 9, 2013 at 9:10pm

Hi Dia, thank you for sharing this with me. Please accept my heartfelt condolences as well, I'm so sorry to hear about your mother. It does help to know we're not alone. I'm not very good at talking about it in person because I can never get the words out. And people don't ask but I so wish I could explain, I wish I could cry in front of people, I wish I could just say it and I can't. So I really appreciate this, thank you. You have my support and best wishes as well. Hang in there... <3 Make the best of this world while the chance still stands... That's the only way I can think about it.

Permalink Reply by dream moon JO B on September 3, 2013 at 3:12pm

sory for yore loss mell i lost my dad lst yr wish as afect me alot thn i had a lot mor of death of peple i new frinds evn som family im tryng not 2 get deprest 

only ths web site i can speak abot thngs igrea wit dia abot pain its left us 2 

Permalink Reply by Chris M on September 8, 2013 at 9:33pm

I understand completely. Lost my 26 year old daughter unexpectedly July 24. I go to work, do what I have to do. It all seems so meaningless without her. All I can think about. Trust me. I get it. 100 %.

Permalink Reply by Mel Pope on September 9, 2013 at 9:15pm

I'm so sorry Chris, it's a life shattering kind of pain... I know it tears my parents apart and I wish I could do more for them, I try my best. God bless you. Your words match my thoughts. Somebody said to me a few months ago, "Mourning is love with nowhere to go." It's a lot to hold, no matter how you carry the load. <3 

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