"Geraldine,  You chose a good way to express how the grief feels.....choking and an ache that is hard to explain.  I am trying to minimize the ever present anxiety because now I know that it lives with me 24/7 and there is no real time to…"

"Bluebell, it was nice to put a face to a name. I always have these pre conceived notions of what I think people will look like. With you, it's the name, I saw you as having blue hair and cat glasses. I was wrong on this one. "

"The blond women I was hugging afterwards was my sister. Bluebell"

"Avi, I was really scared to get up there, but I am glad I did. Not everyone here has this type of Celebration of Life. But my sister's husband was very involved in the well being of his neighborhood and also loved a good get together at his…"

"Thank you, Linda. I want to be very clear -- I am in no way advocating suicide for anyone, I am just saying that if that is what I end up doing, I will not allow it to keep me from my husband."

"On the topic of suicide, there are two reasons that I have not contemplated taking my own life. One of them is that I cannot allow myself to leave my loved ones to deal with the trauma and heartbreak if I were to commit suicide. In my opinion, it…"

"Dear Geraldine, Very sorry to hear that you are having another anxiety-filled day. Lately, I am having more of the depression attacks, with more frequency and more intensity. This living hell is just unbearable! When will this all end?  Sending…"

"Hi All I have noticed lately that i am having dreams with re-occuring theams. my wife leaving (though some circumstance) and having greater responsibilities to look after others.. are other experiencing dreams with constant theam's ? that…"

"Another morning waking with anxiety that feels like it is choking me. Missing my husband with an ache inside that I cannot explain. If only cancer didn't exist or there was a cure, my beloved would still be here."

"AMEN!!!!!!"

"Bluebird, You have a very valid point, I agree with your comment."

"I don't agree -- if there is an afterlife, I WILL be with my husband there, no matter how I die. I will tear the afterlife apart to be with him, if that is what I have to do. I don't believe in God, but if there is one, if it is a loving…"

"Joe, I agree with you, my Lutheran religion has taught if I take my own life I will not join My Husband in heaven. The only way I go on is that we are not widowed, still married only he is in Heaven and I am in Hell. "

"My heart goes out to you all. Grief is the hardest pain in the world. A few things I saw in your comments made me want to share.  Vickie, grief is still new for you and the early part is impossibly hard. My husband died at 49…"

"Oh Vickie lemoigne ecklund my heart breaks for you. There are no words that can take away the pain. "

"I lost my husband 7 moths ago and he was my soul mate my everything. I am so lost without out him. I don't know what to do. All I do is cry. How long will I just want to die cuz I'm without out him. His b day is today he would have been 53…"

"Brett, amazing words. It helped me a lot. Bluebell, saw your video and felt amazing. It is great that you have such celebration of life. It is not very common in India. "

"That is so hard to do. My mom would tell me that she wanted me to be happy after she was gone. I would say, "Mom, how happy would you be if I were the one who was dying?" She couldn't answer that question. Who knows? Maybe if I had…"