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Hello everyone. I just lost my dad, not even two weeks ago, and I feel like I can't breathe. He was my favorite person in the world and I sometimes question if I can even function without him. Other…Continue

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Liv replied to Liv's discussion New to this severity of grief
"One month ago, today, my world fell apart. I wonder if I can ever piece it back together again. I miss my dad. I've had a habit of wearing his shirts, especially on days like today. The one I'm wearing now smells just like him. Every time…"
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Liv replied to Liv's discussion New to this severity of grief
"Dear Friends, The only person who acknowledged yesterday's significance was a friend I made here. Not one real-world "friend" or family member. I did not receive a single text or phone call yesterday. No one said, "wow. four…"
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Liv replied to Liv's discussion New to this severity of grief
"Hi, It's four weeks today. I did some number-crunching, and it's been: 123 days since I last saw him in person and hugged him goodbye, when I dropped him off at the hospital. 70 days since I last saw him through a window, before saying…"
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Liv replied to Liv's discussion New to this severity of grief
"Hi guys, So I took an exam yesterday worth 33.3% of my grade for one of my classes. It was the same exam that I was studying for at 9:41 on September 27. I studied for that test 3 times because I didn't know when I was going to have to retake…"
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Liv replied to Liv's discussion New to this severity of grief
"Hey guys. Have you ever had people tell you afterwards that they're here for you, but then they never follow through? That's been happening to me a lot lately. Right after everything happened, I've had people come up to me and say…"
Oct 22
Liv replied to Liv's discussion New to this severity of grief
"Hey everyone. I've had a lot of meetings with my professors lately and so far, I have seen both ends of the spectrum, so to speak. For one professor, it is the first thing she addresses (even though the life check-in is supposed to be toward…"
Oct 20
Rosie replied to Liv's discussion New to this severity of grief
"Hey Liv, I wanted to touch on this specific topic. I'm so glad you have a roommate you can be open with. I feel like feeling like you have to stifle or delay your grief because of your living situation would be even more painful. As far as…"
Oct 19
Liv replied to Liv's discussion New to this severity of grief
"Hi all. I broke down in front of my roommate yesterday. I couldn't help it. Three weeks really gives you time to process a loss and the fact that he is never coming back. 9:41 p.m. on Sundays will forever haunt me I guess. That was the moment I…"
Oct 19
Liv replied to Liv's discussion New to this severity of grief
"Hi everybody. It is three weeks today. Sundays suck now. I mean, every day sucks now, but Sundays are the worst.  Looking back, it really shouldn't be Sundays because he was asleep for a few days before passing. Either way, my mother is…"
Oct 18
Liv replied to Liv's discussion New to this severity of grief
"My dad once again appeared in my dream last night. This time I was saying goodbye. I knew it was a dream. I knew I may never get the chance to see him or hug him again, so I took it. I hugged my dad goodbye. I was sobbing in my dream and I knew I…"
Oct 14
Rosie replied to Liv's discussion New to this severity of grief
"Wow, that is very powerful. I've read that people frequently will dream about lost loved ones, and I certainly dreamt about my brother, especially in the weeks and months after his death. I remember waking up and thinking about how cruel it was…"
Oct 13
Liv replied to Liv's discussion New to this severity of grief
"My dad appeared in my dream last night. It was a version of him I haven't seen in years. He was smiling, and he was healthy. He could walk and stand up right. He was just joking around with me. It was only for a minute or two, but those two…"
Oct 13
Liv replied to Liv's discussion New to this severity of grief
"I keep hearing past tense verbs, and sometimes I even use them myself. "My dad was..." NO. He still is. I don't know where he is now, but just because he's gone doesn't mean he stopped being a kind, generous man. I…"
Oct 12
Liv replied to Alice Smith's discussion My grief in the group Disenfranchised grief
"Hi Alice. I am so sorry for all that you are going through. I completely understand hating everyone, and everything, after a loss. I lost my favorite person in the world two weeks ago, today. That's why I am here. Grieving is a difficult thing…"
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This group is for all those whose grief has been disenfranchised (not supported or acknowledeged by family, friends or society) I hope this group will exist to enfranchise your grief. Please don't grieve alone.See More
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About Me:
I am a freshman in college. I have a lifetime to live.
About my Loss:
I lost my dad September 27, 2020. I feel like I can't breathe without him.
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"I don't believe time heals everything.

It helps, it does.

After a while, you won't cry about it all the time.

It won't consume your every thought anymore.

You do get better.

You'll laugh.

And smile.

You'll even have a lot of great days.

But it's still there.

You just learn to live with it.

This is how things are now.

So you get used to it.

But,

That doesn't mean it ever goes away.

It's still deep in your soul.

Still makes you cry when you think about it too much

Still stops you in your tracks when something reminds you of it.

You'll have those moments where your heart hurts really bad.

I don't think time heals everything.

Sure it gets better,

But it's a scar that never goes away.

A broken bone that still aches on rainy days."

-Melinda Caroline

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At 9:10pm on October 9, 2020, Rosie said…

Hi Liv - I joined this forum two years ago after losing my brother to cancer. I haven't visited the site much since, but I randomly got an e-mail notification about your post that brought me here. I am very sorry to hear about your dad. That sounds like a truly painful experience. Please know that you are not alone in your grief, and you're welcome to message me if you ever want to chat. Take care <3

 
 
 

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