Last night was awful. Cried all evening. I truly thought I was loosing my mind. Went to bed at 11:30PM and woke at 2:30AM. Stayed awake trying to force myself to sleep. So today I am tired and knew it was going to be a bad day due to emotions and lack of sleep. The morning was tough until I said ok Jesus help me out. I prayed aloud and had a nice conversation with Jesus, I ask for relief of some of this pain and sorrow. Then I spoke out loud to my husband and express my thought, concerns, and my love for him. It has been 3 hours and I haven't cried. I do feel a little lighter too. Thank You Sweet Jesus.

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Comment by Karen Casey on November 29, 2012 at 4:38pm

I truly wish I had your faith...i used too; but its just supressed right now!  I'm glad talking and praying helped you thru last night.  I usually wake up a couple times at night...I just pray for a full nights sleep which is not happening.  Hope your next night of sleep was much better! 

Karen

Comment by dream moon JO B on November 29, 2012 at 3:41pm

still trying to sort old fotos out to mix with new to put on a foto dvd mum noze this lady in the shop tht doze it all the 1s i v found so far have bozze on thm i woz saying to mum u wud thnk we all a bunch of alcolics the 1s iv fpond so far im dreading nxt month december i dont wont to even thnk abot it bean my dads bday his 1st 1 up in heven 

Comment by Esther Ferrari on November 29, 2012 at 11:32am

Oh praise the Lord for this update Pamela :-) xxx Yes, keep pressing in to Jesus!~ Storing up treasures in heaven...if we could take a quick trip to heaven and see our husbands and know we will join them in God's time, we would be dancing for joy at the beautiful future Jesus has prepared for us for all eternity, and we would be able to cope so much better...we walk by faith and not by sight for now...

Comment by Pamela Manning on November 29, 2012 at 9:32am
I finally had peaceful sleep last night. Long over due. Again thank you for all the encouraging words of advice. Several nights back I was so desperate and confused and prayed to die. Not by suicide because I want to be with my husband. I do feel better today because of all the praying to God and talking with my husband. I will continue praying aloud and having my talks with my husband aloud. I just want to be heard. It worked!
Comment by Lee on November 29, 2012 at 6:20am

Pamela - this is how I try to get through those moments when the tears won't stop and sleep is elusive. I pray and I talk to Michael. I close my eyes and ask Jesus to take away my burdens (I then visualize dropping things at His feet) then I ask if I can lay my head upon His shoulders (I visualize that) and I let myself cry. I have even written it down and I believe this has helped get me through.

This pain that we all are going through is a roller coaster. One day to the next not knowing if it's the day you lose your mind or the day you smile at least once. There are no longer good or bad days - all the days are difficult and have pain. Some days we handle better than others. You just have to keep plugging along as hard as that is.

I am sorry you are hurting and I pray you receive the strength to go on.

Lee

Comment by Esther Ferrari on November 28, 2012 at 2:41pm

amen thank you Jesus for helping Pamela. Have mercy on all of us here Lord...please be our Prince of Peace until we are reunited with our loved ones. 

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