I am a 42 year old Mother of 2, Grandmother of 2 and one on the way. I am married but as of 10 days ago my Husband walked out on me because of my grief and 2 year depression.
About my Loss:
Well to start things out I was a widow at 21 years old with a 2 and a 3 year old to raise on my own. I waited til my youngest turned 18 before I was married to a man I had dated for over 10 years. I also had this huge hangup and became even more depressed when I turned 40. I lost my Mother in 2003 after 18 years of her fighting heart disease. I got married in 2005 and lost my Dad in 2007 to a short battle with cancer. He actually passed away in my home. One month before my Mom passed away my parents were divorced which devastated me. And as of 10 days ago my Husband of only 2 and a half years walked out because he couldn't handle my grief anymore. I am in a deep and dark
depression and he just walked out. That also feels like a death. I really need to fix me so that I can be the wife my Husband truly deserves. I just want my life back!!
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