"Amy,
I am so sorry for your loss. The journey of caregiving is extremely difficult. The loss of our especially loved dear ones is unspeakable.
There are so many different ideas about what happens to us when we die. Religion teaches many different…"
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- About Me:
- I am a 43 year old Mom of two beautiful daughters. I am a Sister and a friend to many. I am a workaholic and my idea of relaxing is to start ridiculously huge projects on my home so I can absorb myself in them to avoid thinking too much. I try to stay positive and optimistic in the hopes that my brain will catch on one day to fill the void my heart is feeling most of the time lately. My family is and was as dysfunctional as most, my parents weren't perfect, but they were childhood sweethearts and truly loved eachother and we that are left try to stay as close as possible...
- About my Loss:
- I lost my Mom when I was 18 years old, my Sister 6 months later in a tragic accident. I lost a Brother 6 years ago and my Dad 2 years ago. I just recently lost another Brother to cancer, he was my friend, my confidant, my inspiration and my rock through the grief of losing so many that I loved. He was 46 years old, single, and I was his caregiver while he went to battle with his illness and this loss seems so much more profound. It's been 4 weeks and I just can't seem to stop shaking my head in disbelief.
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I miss my Mom!
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Losing Someone to Cancer
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Lost My Spouse...
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I Miss My Mom
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Sue Toler commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"I just feel like I am in a fog. I have a little dog that is at least ten years old. She adored my Mom & she has really grieved for her. I know how you feel about your dog. I worry about her. She is all I have. …"
"Me too Brett, I sit here an look at my 12 year old Labrador and I know he is on borrowed time, and my heart breaks, losing him will be something that I am not looking forward to.
As you said Brett, we have the live our lives until we are called…"
Brett Bowman commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Yes, I was looking at something that popped up on my Yahoo news feed. It was an article naming 106 celebrities who have passed away in 2019. So many names and faces that I remembered. Now they are gone, and they aren't coming back. Their time…"
"Brett so true she was my security blanket
I feel like I have no one to lean on that understood me like her
You know what keeps coming in my mind. How true it is and scary that everything has a beginning and an end."
"I hear it all the time you don’t know how lucky you were that your mother wasn’t sick and you didn’t have to take care of her I say to them lucky I was lucky that my mother died and I was not right by her side to tell her I love…"
Brett Bowman commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"M, the problem is that our security blankets were ripped away.
Like you, sometimes I am glad to be sad. I feel like I am closer to my mom when I am crying. At least, her memory is fresher with me when I am in that zone.
I feel like the hard reality…"
Brett Bowman commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Theresa, millions, billions of people have lost their moms. Sometimes someone will tell me that they have lost their mom, too, but they were able to deal with it, and they wonder why I haven't dealt with it as well. This may sound like an…"
M Adams commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Me too ...I was sitting marking a paper yesterday and suddenly realized that I can’t see or talk to my mother about this or anything else and the tears came. But I’m glad to think of her, in a way I can be glad to be sad sometimes.…"
"I sometimes will just be sitting down and I start to cry because I keep thinking I miss my mom so much my whole world is just not the same I think that I’ve become a different person it will be four years and I still cry
I can’t put into…"
M Adams commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Definitely a colder world now. I like the image of the security blanket — like, as we go forward, we will always keep it but eventually may be able to wash it, fold it nicely, and put it in some place of honour close at hand but without…"
Brett Bowman commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"The world just became a colder place when my mom died. I just remember feeling like all was right with the world when my mom was in the next room. "
Sue Toler commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"It is such a traumatic event, especially when you have had a wonderful Mom. It is so hard knowing she is gone. Knowing this is permanent. There is no one that can fill the void she left. My brother was close to Mom, but he…"
Amy replied to Amy's discussion How do I get unstuck?"I am not a believer and nor was he. We covered the bases just incase though. We were both raised Catholic. That is all besides the point though. "
Brett Bowman commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"While I never forget that my mom is gone, for some reason it just hits me over the head sometimes. Just out of the blue I'll be like, "Mom is gone." It's horrible. It's ever present. And the thing is that it is always with…"
Sue Toler commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"My Mom also. I could always talk to her about anything & knew she was someone I could totally trust. I am constantly thinking of something I want to share with her & then I remember she is gone. I loved spending time with…"
Brett Bowman commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"There is no doubt that it is anxiety. In fact, I think we are experiencing fight or flight. Since birth my mom had been my security blanket."
Sue Toler commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"It is still numbing to think my Mom is gone & I can't talk to her or see her again. I lost part of me when she passed. Someone said the restless feelings I have are really anxiety. Daily crying is part of my life. …"
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I am so sorry for the pain you are feeling over the physical loss of so many beloved members of your family, Hon. You were a wonderful sister to your brother. He will not forget that and God and your brother will be blessing you with many ADC signs from him to let you know that your brother is like an angel on your shoulder now. If you would like to read about the 20 common types of After-Death Communications, please visit my webpage at: http://www.christineduminiak.com/adc.html
You are in my prayers for God to heal your heart and to replace your sorrow with His joy, as well as to receive many wonderful ADC's.
Lovingly,
In Christ's Love,
Christine Duminiak
http://www.christineduminiak.com
I am so sorry for the pain you are feeling over the physical loss of so many beloved members of your family, Hon. You were a wonderful sister to your brother. He will not forget that and God and your brother will be blessing you with many ADC signs from him to let you know that your brother is like an angel on your shoulder now. If you would like to read about the 20 common types of After-Death Communications, please visit my webpage at: http://www.christineduminiak.com/adc.html
You are in my prayers for God to heal your heart and to replace your sorrow with His joy, as well as to receive many wonderful ADC's.
Lovingly,
In Christ's Love,
Christine Duminiak
http://www.christineduminiak.com