My mother died in december of '06. exactly 15 days before Christmas.
It was a drug overdose that killed her, but she was not an addict. She was very sickly her whole life and every time she got a back pain or a migraine, all the damn doctor did was prescribe another medication. She didn't know what she was doing and she took more than she needed because the drugs messed her up.
I had become accustomed to her drowsiness. In her last years, she was rarely ever herself. I missed her even before I lost her for real. It was like she was dead before she dead.
I'm still dealing with all these emotions and I need help to work them out. I need someone to listen. I miss my mom so much. I was so much like her, and I connected with her more than anyone else. I still needed her...
AMBER , I know your heart aches for your mom. But you need to know you love her and keep loving her and she loves you. The love goes on. Do something special for her , her favorite foods or a dinner and invite family and relatives on her birthday. It will be good for you. I feel she knows too. Pray alot too. You need God all the time. He will strengthen you and lead you. , John
My mom passed away in April and it's been the hardest thing I have ever went through, but I can't even imagine what it must be like to lose your mother at your age, Amber. I know how much you still need her, especially in your teen years. You are in my thoughts and prayers...
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