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About my Loss:
My mother died in december of '06. exactly 15 days before Christmas.
It was a drug overdose that killed her, but she was not an addict. She was very sickly her whole life and every time she got a back pain or a migraine, all the damn doctor did was prescribe another medication. She didn't know what she was doing and she took more than she needed because the drugs messed her up.
I had become accustomed to her drowsiness. In her last years, she was rarely ever herself. I missed her even before I lost her for real. It was like she was dead before she dead.
I'm still dealing with all these emotions and I need help to work them out. I need someone to listen. I miss my mom so much. I was so much like her, and I connected with her more than anyone else. I still needed her...

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At 12:42am on September 22, 2010, John Bilanchiardini said…
AMBER , I know your heart aches for your mom. But you need to know you love her and keep loving her and she loves you. The love goes on. Do something special for her , her favorite foods or a dinner and invite family and relatives on her birthday. It will be good for you. I feel she knows too. Pray alot too. You need God all the time. He will strengthen you and lead you. , John
At 7:47am on January 27, 2010, Rochelle Kramer said…
I lost my mom to cancer December 2, 2006. It's been 3 years for me as well. I read your profile and understand very much of what your feeling. Im here if you ever want to talk.
At 8:18am on March 5, 2009, Jarvis said…
Amber,

I hope you birthday was a blast.
At 2:59pm on February 8, 2009, Amy S said…
Hi Amber,
There is no doubt in my mind your mom would be very proud of the young woman she brought into this world. You just seem amazing!

Thanks for your kid words and support. It really helps to know there are other people out there who know what I'm going through.

Amy
At 6:37am on February 7, 2009, Jarvis said…
Hi Amber,
I'm wondering how you are today.
(((((hugs)))))

Diana
At 11:36pm on February 6, 2009, Amy S said…
My mom passed away in April and it's been the hardest thing I have ever went through, but I can't even imagine what it must be like to lose your mother at your age, Amber. I know how much you still need her, especially in your teen years. You are in my thoughts and prayers...

Amy
At 1:37am on February 2, 2009, Jarvis said…
At 1:33am on February 2, 2009, Jarvis said…
We're here for you, Amber.
Welcome to the community.
 
 
 

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